Where I Belong

Just as I had finished wrapping the towel around my body my mom walked into the bathroom.

"Need any help A?" She asked coming to my side and taking a hold of my arm. "They're in church, Blaze told me you were in here so I thought you'd need some help". Helping me back into the bedroom I took a seat on the edge of the bed. "That explains why he didn't come back. Do you know how long they're going to be?" I asked "I don't baby but you know what it's like" She smiled "What have you got planned for today?"

"Blaze is taking me for breakfast and then I have to go pick up some work from the hospital. What are you doing? Where's my handsome little guy been hiding?" I smiled feeling like I hadn't seen my little brother in ages.

"He's sleeping" She grinned "Its all he ever does sleeps and eats. He's exactly like you were when you were that age. He's getting so big already Ava".

I knew my mom had a lot of love for the both of us. Her eyes lit up every time she spoke about us. She wasn't a bad mom she never has been and if it wasn't for her god knows what I'd have turned into. "So you and Blaze?" She smirked

Nodding my head yes she took a seat next to me on the bed. Taking my hand in hers she laced our fingers. "Are the both of you going to try this time?" She asked. I knew she was only worried about me and she was my mom so I was expecting it.

"I've finally dropped my barrier and we're both going to try and make it work this time. I want to make it work and so does he. It feels different this time I can't explain it".

"You know he didn't leave your side in that hospital not once".

"I know" I whispered

"He does seem to really love you Ava and sometimes that's hard to come by baby. I'm just making sure you're all in this time".

What was she getting at?

"Mom I know what I'm doing we're giving it a proper go now can we please stop talking about it?".

"I just don't want you to get hurt again Ava...."

"I thought you wanted me to be with Blaze?" I asked starting to get annoyed.

"I do I just want you to be careful I don't want you to go through what you did the last time. I'm sorry for interfering in your life Ava but I just want my happy girl back".

Sighing I squeezed her hand gently "I'm doing good mom and for once I feel happy with being here. Stop worrying so much about me I can take care of myself".

"I'll always worry about you and you're a Mendez of course you can take care of yourself" She winked getting to her feet. "I'm going to put on some coffee would you like some?".

"Please" I answered just as Blaze walked in with 2 mugs in his hand.

"Looks like you bet me too it" My mom smiled "Let me know when you're leaving I need you to grab me a few things when your out".

Handing me my coffee I brought the cup to my nose inhaling deeply. There was no better smell than fresh coffee in the morning.

"Anything else planned for today?" He asked leaning against the chest of drawers.

"After breakfast could you take me to the hospital I have a few things I need to grab".

"Sure thing sweets let me grab a shower and then I'm all yours".

"You seriously need to stop buying and taking me out to eat" I sighed rubbing at my stomach. I was burst and currently sporting a food baby.

Laughing he signalled right and moved out onto the main road. "Ain't nothing sexier to me than a woman than can eat" He growled.

Rolling my eyes the rest of the car journey was peaceful. I was starting to get bored hence the reason I was going to get some work to do at home. I still couldn't do much and there was only so much television I could bare. "You staying here for a bit?" He asked pulling into the hospital car park.

"Pick me up at 11. 30?" I smiled. That gave me a hour of not having to stare at the same 4 walls back in the clubhouse.

"I have something to take care of but I'll be here 11. 30 sharp. We do have somewhere to be at 12 remember".

Did we? Nate.... how could I have forgot?

"I'll be out sharp now park as close to the front entrance as you can get" I grinned

"Damn so that means I can't carry you?" He smirked stopping right at the front entrance.

"No" I said unbuckling my seatbelt. "Ally should be in today so I'll get her to help me to my office if need be".

My leg had pretty much healed so for the first time I was trying out my crutch. "You sure you'll be alright walking in with that?" He asked opening my door and helping me out.

"I have to try and if something happens I'm in the best place" I grinned.

Shaking his head he dropped a kiss on my lips "11. 30 sharp now get your sexy little ass in there before I pick you up and carry you and I ain't moving till I know you're inside".

"So protective" I smirked a squeal escaping my mouth as he slapped my bum just as I turned around.

"11. 30" He yelled again causing me to shake my head as I walked inside. Using the crutch wasn't actually bad now that my leg was nearly healed.

"Hey Ava how are you doing?" Holly asked as I approached the front desk.

I hadn't seen Holly in a while.

"I'm doing okay" I smiled "Is Ally working today?" I asked my eyes scanning over the surgery board to see if I could see her name.

"She's in surgery just now but I'll let her know you're here and get her swapped out. Would you like some help to your office?".

"No thanks Holly" I smiled giving her a nod before heading off in the direction of my office. Once in the comfort of my chair I leaned back looking around myself. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss being here. Everything that had happened in the last month no last year had been a whirlwind.

Was I finally happy where I was at in life? Yes for once I could truthfully answer that question. I wasn't pushing everyone away anymore, I didn't have that built up hatred for being around the people that I blamed for everything that had happened. Did I deserve those things that happened to me? No I didn't, no one does but I guess that's life you either let it beat you or you stand up, kick ass and fight back.

Breaking down and crying is natural, does it mean you're weak? Of course it doesn't and for a while crying was all I seemed to do. I was picking myself up, dusting myself off and getting on with my life.

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"I'm so tired" Ally groaned as she burst through the door knocking me out of my thoughts "And I'm starving". Collapsing into the seat across from me she pulled her knees up to her chest resting her head against them. She looked deadbeat

"Have you been to sleep?" I asked already knowing the answer. I didn't know what time she dropped by the clubhouse this morning but I knew it was late.

"I'm alright I just like to moan" She sighed stretching out her limbs.

"What happened this morning?" I asked her eyes widening at my question. Well they weren't exactly quiet.

"You heard that?" She groaned

"You're lucky it was Blaze that threw you out and not my dad" I grinned "Now what happened?".

"Just Cage being Cage we got into a fight some idiot wanted to be the hero and Cage thought it was acceptable to beat the guy to a pulp".

"Fighting about what?"...

"Can we talk about this later I need wine if I'm going to speak about him. If you can't already tell we're not exactly on speaking terms". Running a hand down her face she got to her feet. "Please tell me something good. I want to go back to work on a high, I've been a crabbit bitch all morning".

"I took your advice I finally dropped my guard and let him back in. We're going to give it a proper try this time. No lies, no secrets and no more games".

"Shut up seriously?" She grinned doing a little happy dance "Your kids are going to be gorgeous I'm a little bit jealous" She laughed causing me to join in.

"That's a little too fast, we're definitely not at that stage just yet but for once I'm happy Ally. I've finally stopped fighting it and started to go with my gut".

"Finally I only told you like a million times" She said folding her arms over her chest. "Always go with your gut instinct, I really wish I could stay and chat but I have a lot to get through today. As soon as those casts are off we're having a girls night. I really have to go I'll see you soon" Blowing me a kiss she left my office with a spring in her step.

Rolling my eyes I started to laugh. That girl was crazy and I would be lost without her. Opening the drawer in my desk I pulled out some files I had been curious about before I had my accident.