Where I Belong

"Fucking idiots" Blaze growled as he slipped back into bed his arm pulling me closer.

"What's happened?" I yawned

"Don't know I fucked them both out. Ruined the best sleep I've had in ages" He growled burying his head in my hair.

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Pushing myself up I leaned my back against the headboard. Glancing at the clock I almost groaned when 530am was flashing back at me. Why the hell did I feel wide awake?

Looking at Blaze I couldn't help the smile that tugged at the corner of my mouth. Was this actually happening this time? Were we actually doing it? Flicking the bedside lamp on my eyes went straight to the tattoos that covered the full length of his back. Tracing the reaper that was placed right in the centre with my finger a scream escaped my mouth when he turned over so fast and grabbed my hand.

"Sorry" I blurted out trying to pull my hand back.

Laughing he lay my hand over his chest "Get a little fright there darlin'?" His voice was low from just waking up.

"Asshole" I muttered my heart still beating out my chest. "Don't do that".

"Couldn't resist sweetheart, you mind if I smoke?" He asked pulling himself into a sitting position.

"Have I ever?" I yawned watching his every move. Why did I suddenly feel the need to have him?

Shaking his head no he lit up his smoke and grabbed the ashtray sitting it on top of the bed. "Couldn't sleep?" Was his next question.

"I don't feel tired anymore but I really want to sleep" I sighed my eyes flicking over every part of his chest. The art work on this man was amazing, I could stare at it all day.

"Keep staring darlin' and I'll start to think you like me" He smirked his tongue coming out to wet his bottom lip.

Ignoring him I reached my hand out and started tracing the tattoos coving his skin. "Did they not hurt?" I asked my eyes flicking back to his only to see they were closed. "When do you get they casts off?"

Eh?

"Not for another 2 weeks why?" Why was he randomly asking about my casts?

"Fuck" He cursed his eyes snapping open. Taking a deep breath he finished his smoke placing the ashtray on the floor. "I can't fucking wait". It wasn't until my eyes travelled lower that I knew why he was asking about my casts coming off. "Told you I wasn't having sex with you" I smirked watching as his eyes fell into slits. Matching my smirk he was on top of me before I could blink. How can he move so fast?

Burying his head in my neck my breathing hitched as I felt his tongue. "You sure about that?" He whispered taking the lower part of my ear between his teeth. Biting my lip I felt my back arching off the bed as he continued to nibble away. Fucking hell

"You smell so fucking good" He growled kissing and biting my neck causing a moan to fall from my lips.

Felt so good

"Ok-ay you proved your point" I stuttered pushing against his chest with my good hand.

Chuckling he licked up my neck before falling over to his side of the bed. "That little fucking moan nearly made me blow". Feeling my cheeks grow hot I pulled the cover up as close to my neck as I could get it. How does he still make me blush like that? "You're staring" I whispered

"Too fucking right I'm staring, staring at my old lady because she's fucking beautiful and I can't believe she's mine".

Smiling at him I leaned over and placed my lips against his "I really want us to try this time Blaze, please tell me you'll try". I said pulling back so I could look at him.

"I'm not gonna fuck up this time Ava. Seeing you in the hospital and thinking that I might have lost you for good was the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. This is happening baby you have my word. No more fuck ups no more games. I want to marry you Ava, I want my kid in here" He grinned placing his hand over my stomach. "I'm all in this time sweets are you with me?".

For once I actually believed the words that came out his mouth. I don't know how to explain it but it did feel different this time. I wanted it to happen I wasn't playing around anymore. Life was too short for that and I knew it. I could have lost my life but I didn't I wasn't taking anything else for granted.

I wanted him....

"I'm with you"...

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I couldn't believe he was still in bed when I woke up. Could say I wasn't expecting him to still be here, I thought he'd have been away taking care of business like always. Poking his side I moved my hand away quickly when he started to move. What? I needed to pee and he needed to help me. I still found it tricky to operate with these casts.

Just as I was about to poke him again he rolled over onto his back his eyes peeling open. "Well ain't you a pretty sight to see first thing in the morning" He smirked leaning over and kissing my lips gently. "Morning beautiful" Leaning his back against the headboard he stretched a loud groan falling from his lips.

"Morning" I grinned "Sleep well?" I asked knowing fine well he did.

"Like a baby I haven't slept that good in years" He smiled scratching the back of his head. "You hungry? I could take you out for breakfast?".

Still wasn't used to this whole 'giving us a proper go' and him making an effort.

"Starving but I really have to pee can you help me?" Pushing back the covers I swung my legs over the side of the bed. "I really can't wait for these to come off". Truth be told I was dying to have a good scratch. There was only so much relief I could get from sticking a ruler down my cast.

"Trust me baby me either" He smirked picking me up bridal style and carrying me to the bathroom.

"A simple arm around the shoulder would have done" I smiled rolling my eyes. Any excuse just to have me in his arms but I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it.

"No chance" He grinned turning on the shower. I couldn't fully take a shower yet but I still managed to sit on the end of the bath and have a wash.

"Gonna go catch up with your old man I'll be back before you need me" Dropping a kiss on my cheek he left me to get on with it.