SWNOVELS Chapter He knew
Ch 7
Killian pov
When Rikar hands me her clothes and leaves, I pray that it was just my imagination. Goddess help us if she’s pupped. What then? What do we do? Regardless it will be a half sibling to Rikar. I hear the water for the shower shut off and my heart is pounding knowing I have to go back in there to deal with Jessara. I can’t let her know that I know and cannot treat her any different or she will know something is going on.
I open the bathroom door and her scent hits me like a ton of bricks, and my heart drops. I don’t hear the heartbeat yet but can smell that her scent has changed indicating she is pupped. Pupped by that asshole, and he offed himself without even saying anything. What kind of fucker beats on a woman while she is pupped? Just knowing she is pupped and yet he still did it!
I walk in and see her just standing there. I guess with the heat and washing her face it helped her eyes start to reopen slightly and the smile she has drops from her face.
“Killian, what’s wrong? You look upset!”
“Nothing Jessara, it’s just knowing what you have gone through and knowing it will take a while to get everything back to “normal”. If that will ever be able to happen.”
She just nods while she slowly gets out putting on the clothes that we brought with us. Since her wolf isn’t responsive, and she can’t hear my mind link I send a message to all the pack members that her scent has changed and no one better say a fucking thing or they will cease to exist within minutes. I hear a yes Alpha back, and know this will be a long few days until her wolf comes back.
“As soon as we get to the palace I want you to see the doctor to check on your wolf ok?”
She just nods her head and soon we’re headed through the room to the door. She stops mid stride and looks at the blood that is still on the floor from Matecor. I watch as she visibly shakes and soon is walking straight to the door. When she turns the knob and opens the door with me right behind her, the first person there is Rikar. He stiffens up taking a deep breath and just hugs his mom. Since she can’t see his face he gags and I pop him on his forehead getting a growl in return.
He pulls back and the guards around us look wide eyed at her and quickly compose themselves turning to escort us out to the cars. When we exit everyone just stares at her, some with shock and other with sadness in their eyes. She has no clue what is happening and who knows how her wolf will react once she finds out. I open the car door helping her in and tell her I’ll be right back. I need to give orders on what to do with the bodies. I get a smile in return and my heart hurts so much for both of us.
I close the door walking over to Rikar and the guards to tell them what to do when Rikar chimes in.
“What are we going to do?”
“Keep your voice low! Goddess Rikar! I don’t know what we’re going to do! I can’t ask her to kill it! As much as it is half Matecor, it is half her.”
“Why not! Who would want to have his kid? I have no relationship to it so what does it matter?”
“Because like it or not it’s a half blood sibling to you! You think for one second I’m happy about it? She will have a permanent fucking reminder of her hell here! Not only from this pup, but by looking at you! You look just like your dad! Pups and a son she would have to look at every day! Just take care of the bodies and Rikar, get in the car. We need to get back to the palace.”
“How can I ride with you guys? I will have to smell her scent all the way back!”
“If I have to smell it, so do you! Now get your ass in the car!”
He snorted and slowly walked to the car in front of me. He climbs in the passenger side while I climb in next to Jessara. I smile at her when she smiles back and snuggles into my chest to sleep. Jesus christ her scent is strong and makes me want to fucking gag, but I cannot let on that there’s anything wrong. She will find out soon enough on her own and then we will be there to work through this with her, and support whatever decision she makes.
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When we arrive back at the palace Dr. Tate is waiting and as soon as we get out he takes a deep breath and tilts his head trying to act normal but deep down you know he can tell that she is pupped. He escorts us into a room to draw blood and do a general assessment. He walks out and soon is back motioning for me and Rikar to join him outside.
“Ok so we need to talk quickly. The tests came back and she’s pupped. Her numbers are high so there may be more than one. We won’t know for sure until we do a scan.”
“Ok so why do we gotta talk fast?”
“Because Rikar it’s been almost 12 hours without any more injections and her wolf will be waking up any second! As soon as her wolf wakes up she will know....”
Before he can get another word out we hear screaming coming from the room. We all go running in and Jessara is in hysterics.
“Killian NO! Tell me my wolf is lying! Tell me she is lying! I’m not pupped by that monster! How could he! Tell me it’s a lie! Tell me Killian!”
I just stare at the doctor and back at Jessara.
“It’s not a lie Jessara, I wish it was! We can figure this out and whatever you decide we will understand.”
I just watch while she buries her face, and starts crying into her hands. I just sit on the bed next to her holding her in my arms.
“No wonder he said what he did. That bastard knew!”
“Jessara, what are you talking about?”
“He said if I ended up being puppeted to kill it.”
“Well Jessara if that’s what you want to do.”
“Killian, how could I? They are Rikar’s half siblings. People will wonder how I could’t terminate them though. It’s not their fault. These pups did nothing wrong. How did it happen so quickly anyways? Oh my goddess when you came and got me you guys could tell couldn’t you! Oh Killian!”
“Jessara it will be your choice, but I want you to think long and hard about it! I don’t want you to make a choice and then resent your decision. Know though that whatever your decision is, I will be here to support you.”
“If it’s ok with you three we could do a scan and see what we are dealing with. It still may be too early to see anything but we should be able to see the sacs.”
We all nod and soon the machine is brought in and Rikar steps out while his mom gets undressed from the waist down. We all get ready and Rikar comes back in to stand up by his mom’s head. The Doctor puts the wand inside Jessara to see the pups, and sure enough there are two sacs side by side with little blobs inside. Jessara turns away crying and I just stare at the screen while holding her hands.
“Can you flip on the sound please.” I asked
He nods and soon we hear two heartbeats fill the room as my eyes just close. Thoughts run through my head as to what I would do if she chose to get rid of them. Obviously that would be ideal but mentally what would that do to her, and to her wolf. Then it’s how I would react if she chose to keep them. How do I look at them every day knowing they are the product of her being raped because I didn’t protect her. What will that do to me?
“Please shut it off doctor.” Jessara whispered.
I just stare down at her when she sits up looking straight at me. I know that my love for her goes beyond two pups and we will make it work if that’s her choice. If it’s her choice to get rid of them I will understand.
“Killian. I love you more than anything. As much as I want this nightmare to end, I don’t think I could go through with killing them.”
“Mom what the fuck are you saying! I don’t care for them and I know you don’t need the problems or the reminder!”
“Rikar, it is my decision. Even though as hard as it is, it isn’t their fault for how they were conceived. We have been through tougher times and we will survive.”
Rikar storms out slamming the door and I just look down at Jessara.
“If this is your choice then I support you. I don’t want you to regret this decision. They will be permanent reminders of what happened for those few days.”
“Can we just go to our room so I can rest? Can I see Cora also?”
I nod my head helping her up to get dressed when we slowly make our way over to our room. I mind link for Cora to come to the room and when we make our way down the hall I see Cora and Rikar standing there. Cora starts bawling and comes running over plowing into Jessara. I open the door to the bedroom and the girls go over to the bed crawling in snuggling with each other. Rikar grabs me, pulling me into the hallway shutting the door behind us.
“What the fuck dad! Are you seriously going to allow this?”
“What do you want Rikar? Huh? It’s her decision! If it happened to Cora what would you force her to do?”
“I don’t know dad!”
“Exactly! It is what it is! If this is her decision we will adjust and support her! Now I don’t want to hear anything more about it! Let’s go downstairs to the kitchen.”
He nods and when we make our way down, everyone is gathered in the kitchen. All the conversations stop and turn to stare when we walk in.
“Please don’t have the info go further than this room. We will make an official announcement soon. Until then yes she is pupped by Matecor. It’s been confirmed and it’s twins from what we can tell. She has decided to keep them and that is her decision and hers alone. We will support her but will talk nothing further about it.”
Everyone nods and soon goes back to their conversations when Mila comes up to me.
“Killian I’m so sorry. If there’s anything we can do please let us know!”
“She just needs support. This is very hard for her to deal with and I’m sure she’s having constant arguments with her wolf.”
She nods and starts to head upstairs to our room. I’m sure she’s going to spend time with the girls, when it hits me and I stare at Rikar.
“Shit! The coronation is in 2 days! We are going to have hundreds of people here Rikar! Just what your mom needs now! Everyone knows about the kidnapping and when they smell her pupped!”
“Then say they are yours dad! You claimed me and I was Matecor’s! We will get through this! Am I happy about it? No way, but you are my dad and she is my mom and no matter what they will be my siblings.”
I just stare at Rikar because I never looked at it that way. I claimed him without a second thought knowing who his father was. Now I’ll claim these pups without reservation.