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Ch 17
Killian pov
I sit against the wall outside Matecor’s cell and just stare at his lifeless body. What has gotten into me? The mate I fought so hard for I pushed aside for what? Absolutely nothing. I now have a mate that hates my guts and I’m sure all those stab wounds were meant to send a message to me also. I have done nothing but push her further and further away till the rope finally snapped. Can I even possibly repair this now?
“Killian I’m going to take him back now with the guards. There’s no reason to have them here anymore. It may take a few hours to figure it out but I’m sure there’s a way to do it.”
“Hades can this be saved?”
“Killian I don’t know, but you better figure it out fast! I do not want to see the Queen in my realm. EVER!”
I nod my head when I stand up walking out of the dungeon back to the palace. I know I have to show her I do care. I just know she doesn’t want to see me. I think I know what I’m going to do. I quickly race to my office and mind link Tanook and Rikar who come rushing in.
“I need help to fix this!”
They look at each other smiling and soon they are brainstorming ideas to me. We decide on a plan of action, and soon we have staff lined up with roses in every color imaginable. I have them go single file into the room and place them everywhere. I see her look with confusion when she whips her head from side to side looking at all the flowers when the staff exit, shutting the door behind them. I give thumbs up to Rikar and Tanook when I duck into another room waiting.
Within minutes I hear her door open and she comes storming out looking at Tanook and Rikar. I kept the door to this room open just a smidge so I could watch everything go down.
“Did he send all these flowers? This isn’t going to fix anything! It’s too late!”
They just shrug their shoulders when she storms back in. The first part of the plan is in motion. It will take a lot more than this and I’m willing to do anything!
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Jessara pov
What the hell is he thinking? Flowers aren’t just going to fix this problem? I lost two pups because of his ego and thirst for revenge, and now what. I sit on the edge of the bed in tears when I decide to take a shower. It’s getting late and I need to get this blood off of me. Once I made it to the room it took a while for me to relax. The adrenaline was pumping so much that I was shaking. I quickly walked into the bathroom and stripped off everything.
I climbed into the shower and let the water warm up so it was nice and hot and just stood letting it run over me. I watched the ground as the red tinged water fell around my feet thinking about what I’d just done. Even though he did deserve it, I did just kill the father to the pups I just lost. I just kept watching the water fall down, and soon it started to run clear. I quickly washed myself and just stood there contemplating what to do next. I can’t just hide in the room for the rest of my life.
My kids need me, and I can’t punish them for what Killian did. I just don’t understand what changed in Killian. He isn’t the mate I had in the beginning. He has changed so much, I don’t even recognize him anymore. What if he doesn’t want to be with me anymore, and it’s his way of getting me to leave? Rikar is King now so there is nothing left to do here. We fulfilled our duty so why even stay at all?
I decide to get out after who knows how long, and walk into the closet to get pajamas on. I throw on a tanktop and sleep shorts when I exit and see a package with a note on my bed. I smell his scent all over it and when I pick it up to toss it in the trash the note on top caught my eye. I snag it off the top flipping it open to read it first.
Jessara,
I know I screwed up, and nothing will ever fix it. Nothing I say or do at this point will mean anything. I just pray that you will give me till the next month to try. If after the month is up you still want me gone I will leave and never return. What I have done as a mate is inexcusable. I won’t ask you to forgive me because it’s unforgivable. Just give me 30 days.
Killian
P.S. Thanks for at least reading the letter, I hope you will also open the box.
What does he think he could possibly do in 30 days? I look at the clock and it’s already 2 am but I’m now curious what could possibly be in this box. I rip off the wrapping and as soon as it opens I drop to my knees sobbing as the box falls to the floor. I grab the box again and pull out a stuffed teddy bear. Not just any teddy bear, but one made out of the dress I wore after we mated to go back to their welcome party. How did he get it done so quickly?
I look towards the door because I can smell his scent coming through it so I know he is near. I walk over to the door and when I slowly open it I see a heap of a man sleeping with a blanket and pillow at the door, and quietly shut the door. I lean against the door before pushing off heading for the bed. I climb in under the covers and snuggle with the bear and fall asleep within minutes.
I can feel the bedsheets start to move, and think he must be crazy to try and come into the room. I kick my leg and hit something hard on the bed which sends me on high alert. I open my eyes and try to get up when the bear is ripped from my arms. I feel hands on my legs pinning them down with a large weight jumping on top of me. I quickly fight to reach the light and as it flips on I look back and come face to face with the one person I never thought I would see again.
“You fucking bitch thought you could just kill me!”
He starts laughing maniacally when I scream for Killian. I feel his hands grab my arms and start shaking me when I close my eyes.
“Jessara, Jessara! It’s ok! It’s me!”
I open my eyes again and see Killian staring at me wide eyed. I quickly scramble away grabbing the bear and burying my face into it sobbing. I feel movement getting off the bed when a kiss is placed on my head. He started heading for the door and before I knew what I was doing it came out before I could stop it.
“Will you sleep by the bed Killian? I don’t want another nightmare.”
I see him nod towards me and grabs his blanket and pillow from the doorway. He places it by the bed and laid down to go back to sleep. I turn off the light again and lay back down scooting as close as I can to the edge. I inhale his scent deeply and within minutes I’m back asleep.