Endless abyss of unspoken words (Poetry)

I kept thinking if I did the right thing,

choosing never to talk again,

You never truly cared,

I know you were okay with losing me,

Why did I bother this much then?

It didn't even feel like me.

For you, I became someone else, who was it?

Was the person the real me

or someone you made me to be?

I realize it's all been fake love,

I couldn't know any better,

Did you take advantage of it?

I really will never know.

All I know is that the same thing will never happen again,

I can be glad; you made me more robust than ever,

I will make sure never to make the same mistakes again.

I will confront people about their lies.

I'm not sure how much can you care about a stranger,

Maybe you cared as much as you could,

how were we supposed to last?

Miles apart from each other we fell in love, at least I thought,

However, if we tried, loved, and cared,

We'd make it work, right?

No effort was there from your side,

I've had to do everything.

I've hated myself for things I couldn't control,

For things, you could control and said you couldn't,

For things, I couldn't control and said I could,

For how long I waited for your texts,

always ending disappointed.

Carrying my phone around just in case you remember,

I didn't exist for you anymore, didn't I?

And you always did for me.

I am trying to let go and move on,

but it's such a pity,

Imagining our relationship was perfect, right?

What went wrong, the distance?

Was it you or me?

They say distance doesn't matter if people love each other,

Did the distance matter,

or did we not love each other enough?

I apologized for everything,

so did you, and in the end, nothing matters.

Accepting the fact it's over, nothing will happen again,

Will we really never talk again?

Never is a very long time.

Yet my decision has been made,

And nothing can change.