Endless abyss of unspoken words (Poetry)

We were like soulmates,

Similar and kind to each other,

I loved our relationship,

most importantly, I loved you.

I thought you love me too,

I remember when you sang me songs,

I remember when you wrote me a poem,

It's been only once, was it attraction or love?

I tell myself it's fine to grieve over what we used to be,

even if you don't care and I'm the one hurting,

So I write to let go of the grief, not knowing what's the wrong thing I did,

Not knowing why you treated me like this.

I'm trying to let it go,

There are so many things I want to say to this day.

My world has turned grey for a while,

I'd run away a mile, trying to forget.

It's all hard, knowing this is the only love I've had, I wish I knew better.

Does it even matter?

It's already over, I started it, and I was the one to end it.

You didn't have to throw me away like I meant nothing,

Perhaps you trulz didn't care after all?

I'll probably never know.