A Mother's Love

As Fawn fell off into the depth of sleep May once again became the observer. Fawn did as she planned and bought a plane ticket home for Abbey to Ohio. Little did Fawn know that it would be the last time she would ever see her friend. Over the winter break Fawn experimented with the theory she had about the child she carried and the gift that he might possess. She tried to communicate with the child by simply thinking about something. She started with objects. Fawn would picture the object in her mind, like a red ball and waited for a response. There was no response, or so she though, so she opened her eyes in frustration. There in front of her seemingly floating in air was the red ball she had just imagined. She reached out to grab it but her hand passed right through it. It wasn’t really there. Somehow the child had caused her brain to send a signal to her optic nerve to create the image of the ball. Fawn blinked and the ball was gone. She tried again only this time she not only imagined the ball but though of the spoken words to describe it. She opened her eyes again and there was the ball and this time a little voice in her mind said, “Red ball.”

May saw the days flash by and Fawn tried numerous experiments to try and understand the capabilities of the child. Fawn went as far to read the minds of strangers. She would ride on the subway and pick out a person at random and focus on that person. After a while Fawn would either see an image in front of her or hear a voice in her mind, or both. She learned quickly to be careful whose mind you choose to read. On her first attempt she focused on an average looking man, who thoughts turned out to be nowhere near average.

What was on his mind applaud Fawn and she quickly switched her focus to an elderly looking lady sitting across from her. An image of a shopping list came into view with seven items on it. In her mind Fawn could hear the woman’s thoughts. She was hoping that they were still having a sale on the meats. She was having a Sunday dinner for her family and wanted to serve a nice roast beef and potato dinner. Fawn smiled at the elderly lady and she smiled back.

Once again the days of Fawn’s life stared flashing forward for May. She observed Fawn take that excursion with friends to downtown Boston and see the Christmas Holiday lights at The Commons and Public Gardens. She saw here celebrating the New Year and having that glass of wine the doctor had told her to have. These and many other events flash before May and then time seemed to slow down and May was once more drawn into a oneness with Fawn.

Fawn was sitting on a table in the examination room at the agency waiting to see the doctor. Fawn toyed in her head to see if see could tap into the doctor’s mind and see what interesting thoughts she might find there. She was going to tell him about what was happening to her and thought if she could tell him what he was thinking at the moment he would be more likely to believe her. Doctor Scull entered the room and greeted Fawn with a smile and said “Good morning, almost ready to deliver that baby. Three more weeks till your due date.” Fawn smiled back but did not say anything she just focused on the doctor. No visual objects appeared but in her mind she heard him say, ”I’m sure this child will have what we are looking for. I swear that on her last visit she picked up on what I was thinking.” Fawn thought to herself that something was not right here. What did he mean by the child is what their looking for? She finally spoke and said, “I feel great doc, but mentally I’m not sure if I’m ready for it. I’ve been thinking about what type of people will be raising this child and will he be happy and loved. The doctor replied, “Our cliental are very well to do financially and socially. The child shall have a rich and rewarding life. Don’t worry all our participants in the program go through this phase. It’s your maternal instincts kicking in and we understand that it can be hard to give up the child, but we are well prepared to assist you with that.” What he spoke and what he thought were two different things. What Fawn heard in her mind was this, “The agency will be his parent and protector provided he meets the requirements. If he doesn’t the experiment will be terminated and the child will be destroyed. I don’t doubt that this one will be the one I have worked so hard for. He will be the first in the next step of human evolution.” Fawn focused on him even deeper than she had ever tried before. She was trying to gain access into that part of his mind that held memories and information. At first she felt a resistance to her effort but eventually her mind’s eye started to perceive flashes of random images. Fawn focused even harder homing in on information of the agency. The images started to come in sharper and more constant. She saw the doctor talking to men dressed in military uniforms and heard broken bits of conversation to do with genetic manipulation to increase the mental capabilities of humans. More images of the doctor appeared examining new born children some with hideous deformities. She hears him say to a woman that is assisting him to terminate the experiment. She injected the child with a hypodermic needle that contains a clear fluid. An instant later the heart monitor connected to the child emits the sound that is called a flat line. Fawn wants to break the connection, but she had to know the complete truth about the agency.

Those images were replaced by what appeared to be a classroom with small children sitting in a circle.

They all had shaved head with colored wires connected to different locations on their heads. The wires went from their heads to a lighted column that sat in the center of the circle of children. The only sound that Fawn could hear was a humming sound made by the column. The children were all staring at the column but they had an empty look in their eyes as if in a trance. There were two adults in the room wearing lab coats; a male and a female. They held computer tablets in their hands and were inputting something into them. Fawn saw the female walk over to one of the children and remove one of the wires for a small male child. To remove it she had to withdraw a long needle like object from the head of the child. She examined the connection of the wire on the needle and inputted something into the computer tablet she held. She then slid the needle back into the head of the child. During this whole process the child never acknowledge that the female was there or showed any signs of physical discomfort. She just kept staring at the column.

These images dissolved into a new image showing a male child about five years old sitting by himself in a small room with just three pieces of furniture in it. The furniture consisted of a small cot like bed, a white wooden chair and a small white two draw bureau. The boy was sitting on the cot like bed and in front of him were three silver balls moving through the air. They were moving like some invisible hands were juggling them.

The door to the room opened and in walked Doctor Scull. The silver balls all fell to the floor with a loud thud.

The doctor spoke to the boy and said, “Mustn’t lose concentration James. Just because things around you change doesn’t mean you can’t handle what you’re doing and the change. That will come with practice. You will learn to disciple your thoughts and channel your mental energy to perform multiple tasks at one time.” The boy named James said nothing and the metallic balls rose into the air again and started once again to move in a juggling motion. He showed no emotion. He neither felt elated or sad about the doctor’s visit or his remark. It was of no concern to James what the doctor said or did. James knew that he was better breed of human than the doctor and that one day the doctor would outlive his usefulness to James. James almost felt like smiling went he thought of it, but did not knowing it would be a waste of his time and mental capacity.

The images in Fawn’s mind faded away into reality and she was back in the examination room with Doctor Scull. He was lecturing Fawn on what she would have to do when the labor pains started. Fawn just nodded her head and pretended that she had heard everything he said. He handed her a business card with the name and telephone number of an ambulance company and told her that at the first sign of labor to call them and give them the identification number he had wrote on the card. They had been hired to transport all participants of the program to the agency at any time of day or night. She took the card from him and read it and placed it in her purse that was sitting on a chair next to the examination table. Doctor Scull then asked Fawn had she experienced any difficulties during her pregnancy. Fawn laughed and said “Does weight gain and bruised kidneys from the baby kicking count.” The doctor laughed but Fawn could tell it lack the commitment of true laughter. “Well I guess the next time we meet it will be in the delivery room” said the doctor. He offered his hand to Fawn and she reached out and shook it. As she took his hand she heard him say in her mind, “I’ll have to have this one watched, she could be a runner. He said goodbye and exited the examination room.

May felt the oneness with Fawn start to melt away again and she took on the role of the observer. She watched Fawn leave the agency and go to her bank and withdraw all her assets in cash. Fawn started to mentally check the people around her to see if anyone had thoughts of following or watching her. She did not detect any so she hurried over to her apartment and stuffed whatever would fit of her belongings in two suitcases. She was about to close the second suitcase when she saw the book that her parents had given her lying on a side table. She retrieved it and stuffed it in the suitcase. She went over to a window and looked down on the street to see if there was anyone out there who could be a threat to her departure. The street was practically empty except for the few neighborhood locals that always gathered in the street to share the local gossip of the day. She had to find a place where they could not find her. Fawn couldn’t rely on any friends, not that they wouldn’t be willing to help, she just didn’t want to put them in any danger. She had to get out of the city possibly the state as soon as possible.