Wolf Bond

Without the warmth of our bond, all I feel is cold.

I can’t tell anyone how I am feeling because everyone will brush my feelings as of my anxiety or fear.

Hiding all my feelings behind the mask of indifference, I walk outside the safe room only to be welcomed by the happy and joyous faces of the pack members.

I smile at them, even though I want to scream and cry.

Standing in front of the packhouse, with everyone, my stare is fixed towards the woods. Wrapping my arms around myself I brace myself for the worse.

Closing my eyes, I listen to the footsteps along with padded thuds of our wolves approaching us. Opening my eyes, I look ahead when the area resonates with the victorious howl of our wolves as they break through the woods.

Jenna is shifting from one foot to another wanting to leap into the arms of her mate, but her duty towards me is binding her to stay by my side.

“Go.” Turning my face, I smile at her, “Go to your mate.” Swallow to soothe the dryness of my throat.

She frowns looking at me, but I shake my head with a smile as I push her forward.

She looks at me, but when I give her encouraging smile she turns and rushes towards her mate meeting him halfway as she leaps into his arms.

I smile looking at them, but turn my gaze away when they share a kiss.

Looking around, I see everyone looking relieved and happy to see their loved one returning back safely without any serious injuries.

However, I still can’t find Donovon’s face among them.

“Luna.” Beta Cole bows his head as he walks towards me, blood running through the deep gash on his arm, and some other injuries are also visible on his body.

“Donovon...” I try to keep my voice composed, but it cracks forcing me to swallow thickly.

“Alpha got severely injured by trying to save a wolve, and is at the pack clinic getting treated for his injuries,” he informs me in a grave voice, “He lost a lot of blood and currently he is unconscious.”

A small wave of relief passes over me because he is alive.

Maybe he is unconscious that’s why I can’t feel our bond.

Yes, that might be the only reason for it.

“I am going to him,” I inform already making my way towards the clinic, “And you are coming with me, to get yourself treated for your injuries,” I order.

My heart aches, looking at our injured warriors as guilt seeps into my heart knowing that they are here because of me.

“Wipe that look from your face, Luna.” I hear Mathew’s voice, “We have promised our lives to our pack and our leaders, and fighting for them is the most honorable thing for us.” Even though he is getting stitches in his leg, but he is grinning at me.

“Thank you...” I look at every one o them feeling grateful as my heart soars with pride.

I sit in the waiting room, with Arthur and Julia, as Donovon is still being treated for his wounds but what got us worried is that his healing is really slow. Even though the injuries which Donovon sustained are severe, still, his healing should have been started by now.

There is no sign of silver in his blood which could have caused this, so even doctors are clueless why his wolf is not healing him.

On the other hand, there is no sign of our bond. Even if it is blocked, then also you can feel it. But here I don’t feel anything which is making me anxious.

“I can’t feel our bond...” I whisper as the silence from our bond is killing me from inside.

“Sweetie, he must have blocked the bond,” Julia glances at me as she speaks in a comforting tone, “He wouldn’t want you to feel his pain, as any distress is not good for you.”

“But I don’t feel anything... not even the energy which mate bond carries...” I bite my lip, feeling helpless.

Her eyebrows pulled together in confusion, as she turns to look at Arthur who is looking at me with a hint of worry in his eyes.

“Earlier, I was able to feel the humming of our bond, but then suddenly it snapped and now there is just silence...” I choke, “At one time I have felt that I have lost him...” I keep my face in my hands while a few sobs leave my mouth.

Julia wraps her arm around my shoulder, as I cry because I feel so empty.

The sound of the opening of the door halts my cries and I hastily wipe my tears while standing up.

I just want to see Donovon and want to be near him.

“Alpha is still unconscious and will not gain consciousness for a day or two as he is under the effect of heavy medication, his vitals are stable and there is nothing to be worried about. However, we still can’t figure out why he is not healing on his own that’s why we have to give me strong medication to quicken the process of his healing,” The doctor informs looking at us, “You can go and see him.”

Julia holds my hand as we quietly walk inside the room.

My eyes land on Donovon as a few tears roll down from my eyes, looking at him.

His chest is covered in a large bandage while there are a few scratches across his face. However, what comforted me is the sound of his strong and steady heartbeat.

“He will be alright,” I say quietly while closing my eyes, allowing his heartbeat to fill the void inside me.

Sitting beside his bed, I stare at his face while my heart cries seeing him like this.

Julia and Arthur left an hour ago, thankfully, they didn’t force me to come with them as I don’t think I can even bear to stay away from Donovon even for a moment.

Almost every pack member came to see Donovon, as they all are worried about him. The love which I felt radiating from them, gave me so much strength. Times like this show, how much your people love and care for you.

“Do you need anything, Luna?” A nurse asks me after checking Donovon’s vitals.

“No, thank you...” I force a smile on my face, “I am okay...”

“Don’t worry, Luna, our Alpha is strong he will soon be fine.” She smiles at me reassuringly, “If you need anything just press the bell.” Her eyes hold warmth.

My smile turns less forced as I smile at her gratefully as she leaves the room.

Looking at back at Donovon, I caress his face then leaning forward I gently kiss his forehead, then his closed eyelids and his cheeks, and lastly I peck his lips.

“I love you,” I whisper, holding back my whimper, missing the warmth of his touch, “Please don’t ever leave me, I will not be able to live without you.”

I hate seeing him lying unconscious... I hate not feeling the tingles that spread all over my skin whenever he touches me. I just hate everything which is keeping me away from him.

Picking up his hand, I press over my bump and as if sensing Donovon’s touch Ella kicks against his hand.

“Your daughter also loves you, a lot.” Tears flow from my eyes, “If not for me, please come back to us for her.”