Wolf Bond

Walking around the grassy field, barefooted as I try to find my way back home. This seems more difficult than I have imagined as I don’t even know how I got here in the first place.

I try to mindlink Donovon numerous times, but fail as each time I try, I feel like I am hitting some kind of barrier.

My teeth piercing my lower lip in panic as I am not able to recognize the place where I am. There is only a vast green land as far as I can see with no sign of anything else.

A sweet little cry makes me aware of the weight in my arms. My gaze falls on the face of a beautiful baby whose is face is scrunched up in displeasure as sobs emitting from the little mouth, making my heart clench painfully.

Her grey eyes meet mine and instantly she calms down, her sobs quieten into small whimpers.

“Shhh... mama is here, sweetheart.” Holding her against my chest, I rock her from side to side, “You are okay.” I kiss her head inhaling her sweet lemony smell.

Once again I look around to find a way out of this foreign place, but again I feel disappointed when I can’t.

Tears of frustration spring into my eyes, as my baby stirs in my arms again as if she has felt her mother’s frustration. When the area echoes with her cries, my own tears spill from my eyes.

“Don’t worry, I will not let anything happen to you.” I wipe my tears with the back of my hand trying to comfort her, “Daddy will soon find us... he must be looking for us.”

“Shhh... I know you want to be with your daddy.” I caress her arms then the side of her head, “Soon he will find us.”

But instead of calming her cries become louder and louder, tearing my heart into millions of pieces.

“Calm down, please, calm down.” I cry along with her, kissing her soft hair, feeling helpless, not being able to comfort her.

“Donovon!” I scream, holding her tightly against me, “Donovon!” I fall on my knees screaming with all my might, praying that he will hear my voice and he will find us.

Her cries wrenching my heart, more and more with each passing second, feeling like somebody is crushing my heart inside my chest.

Suddenly her cries quieten, as my chest feels heavy with dread.

Leaning her away from my chest, I glance at her face as another set of tears flow from my eyes.

“You must be hungry...” I let out a nervous laugh, as I am shaking from inside because this silence is gnawing my heart, “How stupid am I, she is hungry that is why she is crying.”

My motherly instincts completely take over me when I tear my shirt and lift her in my arms bringing her face near my chest, waiting for her to start feeding.

Swallowing, I hold my breath as moments pass by but she never latches onto my breast.

Pulling away, I look at her again and notice she is too calm, not even making a slight sound.

“Babygirl.” I gently call her, while caressing her soft cheek with my finger but my heart stops when I sense she is losing her warmth as the cheeks which were adorning the beautiful pink color are now turning pale.

“No...” I shake her body, frantically, blinking furiously to clear my vision, “No...” I kiss her but her still eyes remain closed, as she lies lifeless in my arms.

“Open your eyes.” My hands are trembling, so is my voice, as I lie her down on the grass in front of me. “Please, open your eyes.” I sob as I lightly tap her cheeks trying to wake her up not ready to believe what my mind is telling me.

She can’t be gone, if I am alive how can she die.

“Baby.” I call her again, as my throat chokes with my tears, “You can’t leave me.”

My eyes widen in horror when just before my eyes she disappears as the earth swallows her little body.

An agonizing scream leaves my mouth as I feel like my heart will burst from the unbearable pain. My fingers turn into claws as I drag them down my arms trying to stop the pain which is shattering me from inside.

“Ivory!” I hear the faint voice of Donovon, “Ivory!” His frantic voice becomes clear as the haze in which I am trapped lifted off.

My eyes lock with his worry-filled gaze as his face hovers just inches above mine.

I frown when I am not able to move my hands, only to find him holding my hands against the sides of my head in an iron-like grip.

He loosens his grip on my hands just enough so I can move them, but he still keeps holding my wrists.

I gasp when I see my fingers are covered in dried blood.

“You were crying and clawing yourself in your sleep,” he answers my unasked question. Worry etched onto his features as he glances at me.

As soon as I hear these words, everything flashes before my eyes.

“My baby.” I let out a sob, “Donovon, my baby!”

“Hey, calm down she is alright, you must have dreamt something bad,” He whispers, and taking my hand he places on my swollen stomach.

“I saw her dying. She was lying lifeless in my arms and I was not able to do anything...” I barely manage to voice these words, as I burst out into tears as my heart still aching with the feeling of loss because everything seems too real to be a dream.

Donovon gathers me in his arms, as I continue to sob in his chest trying to ease the pain which is still pressing down my heart.

“You are fine...she is fine.” He kisses my hair, “I will not let anything happen to her or you.”

“It was just a bad dream,” He murmurs while running his hand on my back in soothing circles.

Holding him tightly as my life dependent on him, I silently allow the tears to flow freely from my eyes. These tears are of relief and fear.

I am relieved to realize it was just a horrible dream, but at the same time, fear is also lingering in my heart to lose my precious baby whom I already love more than anything in this world.

Closing my eyes, I try to calm myself as my ears ring with the comforting heartbeat of my pup letting me know she is perfectly fine in my womb.

“Just a few weeks more, then she will be in our arms.” Donovon leans back and wipes my tears, “Our princess will be here.” He smiles softly and pecks my lips.

“I am going to spoil her so much, and I am sure she will be the most spoiled pup of the pack.” He rubs his hand on my belly. “As everyone already loves her so much and eagerly waiting to welcome her in this world.”

Currently, I am just a month and a half away from giving birth which makes me anxious and excited as any mom-to-be would be.

It has been nearly two months since we shared the news of our pregnancy with everyone. Arthur and Julia were over the moon when they found that soon they will be welcoming their first grandchild. However, entire pack was overjoyed, when we told them we are having a baby girl. Because the firstborn girl child is considered as a blessing from MoonGodess.

“Mom and Dad love you so much, my darling.” He presses an affectionate kiss on my bump while caressing it.

Relief passes over my heart as she responds to him by kicking him against his hand which makes him chuckle.

“Her kicks are getting stronger,” he says as again I feel her moving, “I hope she doesn’t hurt you much.” He grins when even he feels her moving inside the little space she has.

“No, she never troubles me.” Pressing my lips together, I shake my head.

I will take this pain and discomfort any day over, what I have gone through in my dream. Nothing can be worse than holding the lifeless body of your child. And never ever I want to live such pain in my life.

When I place my hand on my belly, she presses herself against my hand as if she trying to comfort me.

I love you, my sweet Ella.