Where I Belong

Kelsey..

"No thanks sweetheart and don't you be lifting anything to heavy. How are you feeling? I hope Tim's pulling his weight" I said watching as her mouth fell open slightly. What? I could be a nice guy when I wanted to be. I used to blame Kelsey for Ava and I not being together but it wasn't her fault. She was just a kid desperately trying to fit in around here and trust me it wasn't easy not when you had the likes of Sandra and Melissa.

As the grin took over her face she placed her hand on the lower of her stomach and shook her head. "A part from the sickness and feeling nauseous every time I smell food I'm doing great. It's hard to believe that another human is growing in my stomach, a little baby that Tim and I made".

"That's good sweetheart and what about Tim?" I wanted to make sure he was doing his part and taking care of her. Tim was a good guy and a good brother and I didn't doubt him one bit but when your girls pregnant she should be the only thing on your mind.

"He's great Blaze" She smiled but it didn't quite reach her eyes. I wasn't going to push the matter any further because really it was none of my business. "I better get back to work" She said as she walked towards Hawk and Tommy. Leaning back on my bike I lit a cigarette and watched the world go by. I knew Franko wasn't in by his bike not being here and I had time to kill before he came back. Taking out my phone I looked at the only picture I had on there. She was happy and grinning from ear to ear. Why do I keep looking at it? Because it reminds me that I did that. I was the one that made her smile like that. Like she didn't have a care in the world.

"Looking at it isn't going to change anything"

Locking my screen I stuffed my phone back into my pocket. "Fuck off Jared I'm really not in the mood for your shit today" I growled as he placed a cold beer in front of me. Grabbing it I downed the neck before pulling it back from my lips. I could trust Jared with my life but sometimes I could put a bullet in his head.

"I didn't mean anything by it Blaze so chill the fuck out, here" He snapped handing me a smoke. "How bad this time?" He asked as I lit up my smoke.

"Fucked it again" I sighed running a hand through my hair. Man I was badly needing a hair cut and a shave.

"Not even going to ask how but she must be pretty special if you're chasing here the way you are. She'll come around you can't miss the chemistry between you two and besides she belongs here she always will".

"Yeah I thought that to but I'm afraid that she really has moved on and I can't blame anyone but myself. I hurt her Jared and I'm surprised Franko hasn't put me to ground for it yet"...

"Put you to ground for what?" Came his gruff voice from behind me. "Let me guess this has something to do with Ava? Jared go get the guys round the table we'll be there in a second".

"Don't shoot me in the leg again it's a bitch to heal" I muttered as he took a seat on the bench parked next to my bike. Hearing him chuckle he patted my shoulder. "I'm not going to do anything but give you a little advice about Mendez woman".

What the fuck has happened to my prez?

"Ava is like her mother in every way but she gets her stubbornness from me and if she doesn't like something then she'll tell you. What ever you have done to my daughter you better fix it. I can see she's hurt Blaze and I don't know how to sort it, she's my little girl and I haven't been treating her like it. Do you know when she was younger I couldn't move for her" He laughed scratching the back of his neck "Everywhere I went she would follow me. The neckless I gave her I had no idea that she would where it all those years well that was until she came back here and ripped it off".

"She thinks you don't care about her" I said taking a drink of my beer. "She thinks you care about Aubrey and your club".

"That's not fucking true she is my little girl she always will be. Who the fuck put that idea into her head?"

Shrugging my shoulders I stood from my bike "Well maybe you should try and get the relationship back you had all those years ago. She doesn't feel like she belongs here prez".

"I can't fix how she feels Blaze she's a grown woman she's makes up her own mind. Regardless of what she says or how she feels she will always be my daughter and she will always comes first no matter what she believes. In all honesty this is the first time I don't know how to fix it. Do you not think it kills me to see the hurt in her eyes every time I look at her? To know that she isn't happy. I want her to be happy Blaze and for her to be happy she has to do what she's doing". "I thought you were giving me advice?" I muttered not liking the sound of where this conversation was going. "I want to win her back, give her the world. She would want for nothing and if she would just give me another chance-...." "How many chances do you need Blaze? You're lucky I like you and you're good at what you do because you broke her heart and I don't take lightly to that. If you were anyone else I would have killed you with my bare hands". He growled cutting me off.

"Do you not think I know that?" I yelled "I need her Franko and I know I've hurt her bad but she makes me better. I don't know what I'll do if I can't get her back".

"Stop sounding like such a little pussy if you need her that much then fucking fight for her, now man the fuck up and get your ass to the god damn table. This conversation is done and trust me if you break her heart again I'll make sure you can't walk. Got it?".

"Got it".

"About fucking time what were you girls doing out there?" Tommy grinned as I took my seat.

"Enough" Franko growled causing the room to grow silent. "Now where are we at with the dead VP any information?" He asked lighting up a smoke.

"Nothing yet prez but I'm sure they're waiting it out until they hit back. We don't got no leads but I'll take a trip into town and speak to Charlie see if he's heard anything". Hawk said.

"You do that and take Tim with you and with this shit going on no one rides without protection. Now the other situation what's happening with the guns? The shipment is due Friday. I need to make sure it doesn't go tits up and the ware house needs to be secure".

"Everything is sorted but we have one little problem" Jared piped up scratching the back of his head. "They want 20% for shifting them through there territory and if we don't agree then the deals off".

"I always new they leeches were bad for doing business with but what fucking choice do we have? Make the call and set up a meet. I need to be sure they aren't going to fuck us over".

"Got it prez"

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"Right that's it sorted then now fuck off" He muttered hitting the gavel. Watching everyone get up and get to it I sat where I was. "You want to talk about feelings again?" He mocked my hands balling into fists. If there was anyone that could get under my skin it was Franko fucking Mendez.

"Fuck you, you old tosser. You know what the fuck I'm capable of Franko so keep pushing my fucking buttons" I growled pushing my chair back and getting to my feet.

"Blaze" He called making me turn my head so I could look at him. "Nice to know you still have your balls and believe me I know what you're capable of its the reason you where that VP patch. Now word is you're going back up to help Marko?" "Yeah need to clear my head" How the fuck did he always know what I was up to?

"And how do you expect to win my daughter back if you aren't fucking here?" He asked just as Aubrey walked through the door.

"She needs space and that's what I'm giving her. I'll call you when I check in and don't worry I won't come back until the fucker is cold in the ground".

"You better not" We're his departing words.

"When you heading out?" Tommy asked as I took a seat.

"In the next hour or so" I replied pulling out my phone and bringing up her number. I had to try I had to see if she would answer. Four times I called and every single time I got her answering machine.

"Probably best you sort your head out before you even attempt to win her back. She's a smart girl Blaze and if you want my opinion-.."

"Well I didn't fucking ask for it now did I? Does everyone in this fucking place know my god damn business?" Seriously can't take a piss without everyone knowing about it.

"Well you're going to fucking get it now shut up and fucking listen. Ava is a sweet girl if you can't give her your heart then don't fuck about with hers. She deserves better that that Blaze and in case you've forgotten she's a very special girl in this house".

Why the hell was everyone getting on my case?

I wanted to knock the old bastard out but thought better of it. "I know what I've done to her Tommy I don't need to keep being reminded about it. I fucked up, I'm the bad bastard I already know that".

"Just gotta fight that little bit harder kid and I know Nate is your brother but I wouldn't worry about him her hearts not in it".

Now he had my attention. How he always knew everything was a mystery.

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"Her heart already belongs to someone else. Trust me I've been around long enough to know what love is".

Patting him on the back I made my way to my bedroom so I could grab a few things before I took off. Taking the black hold all from under my bed I chucked the essentials inside and zipped it shut. Sitting on my bed I took my phone back out and dialled Ally's number.

"She with you?" I asked as soon as she answered.

"She's in the shower Blaze now what do you want?"

Of course she fucking told her. Couldn't really expect anything else when she was after all her best friend. Are girls always angry together? They confuse the shit out of me half the time.

"Just checking up on her. Is she okay?"

"If she wanted to speak to you she would have answered her phone now is there anything else you need?" She snapped.

"Remember who you're talking to Ally just because you're fucking Cage doesn't mean you can run your mouth" I hissed surprised when she didn't hang up.

"You hurt my best friend how do you expect me to speak to you? What is it you really want Blaze?" She sighed.

"Tell her to go to the dinner for Leighton tonight. I won't be there and she needs to spend time with her family". It actually killed me that I had to speak through Ally to find out is she was okay. "Is that everything?" She asked.

"And if you could text me during the week just to let me know how she's doing I'd really appreciate it". I said chancing my luck.

"Bye Blaze" and this time she did hang up.

I don't know why I did it but here I was sitting a few metres from her house. Ally pulled through and texted me letting me know she had went to the clubhouse but decided to go home. Wasn't in the mood for celebrating or some shit like that. What the fuck was I doing? I was acting like some crazy stalker. Shaking my head I turned my engine on and sped off down her street. I needed to give her time it may be the only way to fix all of this.