Where I Belong

Is that all I was getting? Watching the different emotions show on my dads face I knew what ever caused him to do it was personal." Why did you do it?" I asked not sure if I wanted to know the answer. Watching his eyes fall into slits and his lip pull back into a silent snarl I swallowed the lump that had formed in my throat. I never showed it well I tried not to but my dad scared the shit out of me. Whatever that guy had done still didn't sit well with him.

"We should start heading out Prez before it gets any later. I'll fill the guys in up state just in case we need them to ride back with us" Blaze pipped up my head snapping in his direction. No I wanted to know what that guy had done that caused my dad to serve 8 years. "We'll stop by your house and grab some things before we go".

"Make sure you call me when you get there and make sure you look after her". My dad said taking out another cigarette. So that was it? He wasn't going to tell me anything?

"I'm not leaving until I know what happened" I said folding my arms over my chest. Running a hand through his hair he cursed loudly before getting to his feet. "Ava I don't-.."

"I want to know" I snapped cutting him off before he could finish.

"He took your mom" He roared slamming his fist into the wall causing a dent to appear. "He beat her to a pulp, I should have put a bullet in him when I had the chance". He growled. Gulping I blinked away my tears before they could fall. Remembering back to when I read those news articles online referring to my dad as a monster, he wasn't a monster. He was protecting the women he loved, the women I call mom. I didn't want to ask the question that was swimming around in my head but I had to know. "Did- did he touch her?" I stuttered my voice barely a whisper.

"No darlin' he just fucked her up really badly. No one messes with my family especially my wife and my daughter. Now you know the reason I worry so much about you, why I always have one of the guys on you". Standing from my seat I walked the short distance between us and threw my arms around him pulling him in for a hug. Feeling his arms tighten around me I lay my head against his chest. This was the first time since I had been here that I felt I had my dad back. "Now I don't feel as guilty for killing the bastard" I snapped pulling back so I could clean my eyes. "I appreciate you looking after me and protecting me. I may not show it but you have to know I would probably be dead if it wasn't for you and the boys". It was true, I never admitted it to any one but I appreciated everything they did for me. "God knows what would have happened to me when I was in NewYork". Feeling my dad tense next to me I knew he knew what I was talking about.

"Be safe and do what Blaze tells you to do" My dad grunted. Letting my arms drop I took a few steps away from him. "And stay away from the guys up there" He ordered pulling out his phone. "Get going before its to late. Blaze I want a word". Leaving them to it I walked out into the bar area and took a seat on the stool.

"Ava"

Turning to face Kelsey I cursed when I realised I had forgot all about helping her. My head had been all over the place after what had happened. "Kelsey I'm sorry I completely forgot" I sighed rubbing a hand over my face. "How have you been? I can make a few phone calls and get you in by Monday if that's what you want?".

"I- I told him" She stuttered taking the empty seat beside me. Watching the tears fill in her eyes I knew it wasn't good news. "He- he said it wasn't his. Told me I was nothing but a biker whore and that the bastard child inside me could be anyone's" She croaked a sob falling from her lips.

I didn't know what to say. For one I didn't think Tim had it in him to speak to anyone like that never mind a girl. Guess it was the quiet ones you had to look out for. Taking a hold of her hand I gave it a gentle squeeze. "I will help you Kelsey but you have to make the decision about what you want to do. I have to leave tonight but I can sort it before I go or we can sort it all when I'm back". How does someone make that decision?

"I can wait until your back I'll just call some friends and see if I can stay with them for a few days. I can't stand to watch someone I love all over other girls". Glancing around the bar my eyes fell into slits when I saw a girl sat in Tims lap. Did he get patched in? He was usually behind the bar. Watching the broken girl beside me and then watching how Tim was acting made a new wave of anger curse through me. How does he know that childs not his? How can he say its not when he's been having sex with her? Balling my hands into fists I slipped of the bar stool about to march over there when Kelsey grabbed my arm.

"Please don't" She whispered her eyes wandering over to Tim and then settling back onto me. "Please Ava I don't want everyone to know what's going on". Gritting my teeth I ran a hand through my hair as I caught site of my dad and Blaze coming out of his office. "Go to the hospital tomorrow and ask for Ally. Tell her I sent you, she has a spare room and that's where you'll be staying until I get back".

"Ava you're helping me enough as it is. You don't need-.."

"Yes I do so please go to the hospital tomorrow and ask for Ally" Squeezing her hand she walked away as Blaze approached me.

"What was all that about?" He frowned leaning against the bar.

"What were you and my dad talking about?" I challenged.

"Nothing you need to worry about. So what was she wanting?".

"Nothing for you to worry about" I mimicked watching the smirk trace his lips. "Ooh touchy" He snickered shoving against my arm. This wasn't like him at all. I had never seen the playful side of Blaze before and I had no idea how to take it. "I'm ready to leave when you are darlin' and if we leave just now we should make it before morning".

It was going to take that long for us to get there? Sighing I pushed myself away from the bar. "Until you find.." Catching sight of my shoes in his hand I stopped what I was saying. Guess I was ready to go then but why did I have a gut feeling telling me I should be here? Grabbing my shoes out of his hand I pulled them on.

"We good to go then?" He asked

Shrugging my shoulders I walked off in front of him and made my way outside. I had been dreading this trip since the moment I found out I had to go. Even more so now because I felt like I owed him something after he cleaned up my mess. Would he expect something from me?

"Wow slow down sweets" He said taking a hold of my elbow and pulling me to a stop. "What's wrong?" He asked his eyes searching my face. One thing Blaze was good at and that was being able to tell when something was wrong with me. Before I could answer he brought his hand up and cupped my cheek. "Stop worrying about it Ava it'll get handled the way we always handle it". If only that's what my problem was right now." Come on bikes parked out front". Bike?

"Why can't we take a car?" I asked not liking the thought of being stuck on the back of a bike for hours. What if it rained? "We're taking my bike sweets and that's the end of it". Watching him walk away from me I flipped his back the bird.

"I need to pee" I yelled over the roar of the bikes engine. We had been on the road for more than four hours and I needed to pee a while back. The roads were empty and I hadn't seen a rest stop since we left. How much longer was it going to take? And did he even hear me? "Unless you want to be covered in my pee I suggest you pull over" I yelled again. Feeling the bike slow down I let out a long breath as it came to a stop at the side of the road. Right now I didn't care where I pee'd it was dark and there were trees, enough to cover myself.

"Girls" He sighed kicking out his stand and getting off the bike. Taking the hand he was offering I demounted the bike taking off my helmet and handing it to him. "Be quick I want to get back on the road". Rolling my eyes I walked off in the direction where there was nothing but trees. Yeah he had seen it all before but I did not need for him to see me squatting. Carrying on with my business I never thought I was going to stop. Humming softly I searched my jacket pockets sighing in relief when I found an old hankie. Wiping myself of I pulled my jeans up and made my way back to Blaze.

"I hope you washed your hands" He chuckled the light from his cigarette catching my attention. "With what exactly?" I asked coming to a stop. Throwing away his cigarette he smirked at me before mounting his bike. Passing me my helmet I grabbed it from him and put it on. Getting on behind him I wrapped my arms tightly around his waist resting my head against his back. This was going to be a long night...