Where I Belong

Struggling some more I stopped when his eyes met mine "Yours" I moaned feeling his hard lengh against my p*ssy. Skin on skin. "Good girl" He smirked licking his way up my chest to meet my lips. Rubbing his length between my slit I cried out at the friction of having nothing between us. Nothing between us!! Condom.

"Blaze" I panted against his lips "Protection" I moaned as the feeling began to build up again.

Pulling back he looked at me as though I had just spoke in a different language. Did he not use protection? "I'm clean sweets. I've never slept with a women without a condom but your different. Do you trust me?" He asked his nose brushing against mine.

"I trust you" I gasped before he attacked my neck coming very close to my ear. "This is going to hurt sweetheart but not for long. I promise" He whispered before I felt the pain between my legs. Crying out I sunk my teeth into his shoulder. (That's how far the sex scene is going for now anyway. I'm not good at writing them so I may add a better one in later on)

Feeling the coldness of his fingers against my back I groaned. How long had I been asleep? I have never felt this relaxed in a long time. Rolling over onto my side I slowly opened my eyes so I could look at him.

"What time is it?" I asked my voice groggy from just waking up. Stretching slightly I groaned as my muscles ached along with the pain between my legs.

"Just turned 10 sweets" Sitting up he grabbed his smokes from the bedside table.

Rolling onto my back a yawn escaped my mouth. Coming home early from work was the best decision I made. The atmosphere around us had changed, something didn't feel right and I felt awkward. Did he regret sleeping with me? Maybe I did something wrong. Sitting up I pulled the covers of him so I could wrap them around my body. Once I had it secure I stood from the bed.

"Sweets you okay?" Feeling his hand wrap around my wrist I turned so I could look at him. He had slept with lots of women. What if I wasn't enough for him? What if I was just another lay? "Do you regret it?" I whispered diverting my gaze to the carpet.

"I regret a lot of things in my life Ava but that defiantly wasn't one of them".

Biting my lip I plucked up the courage to look at him. "Do you regret it sweets?" He asked his eyebrows creasing. I don't regret it one bit.

Shaking my head no I felt the small smile pull at my lips "I liked it" I whispered the blush spreading over my cheeks "I liked it alot".

I never knew what I was missing when I heard how good sex was. How mind blowing it could be. Why didn't I do this before? I wanted to do it again.

"Good" He smirked "Now get that hot little ass back over here".

Shaking my head I grinned at him "I'm hungry.. shit my mom's dinner" I panicked completely forgetting about it.

"Chill sweets, we don't eat around here until late. You have time I've already told them you were sleeping".

He's spoke with my mom? Does she know we had sex? Feeling my cheeks grow hot I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth "Does she know?" I asked not really wanting to face all her questions just now. God does my dad know? Feeling the color drain from my face I sat on the end of the bed.

"No one knows darlin' After you fell asleep I went to catch up with your dad. Told them you were wiped out, calm down okay". Taking my hand in his he brought it to his lips and kissed my knuckles "Go get showered I'll be there in a sec". He's coming to shower with me?

Turning around I was about to walk away when I felt the sting on my ass cheek. "Ass in the shower, now". Shaking my head I gave him the finger before disappearing into the bathroom.

Wrapping the towel tightly around my body the bathroom door opened our eyes meeting. "You showered without me?" He pouted causing me to laugh. "You took to long and I needed a shower".

Wrapping his arms around my waist he lay his head on my shoulder. "This is who you'll get and this is what I'll be like all the time when we're alone. Out there will be different" He said causing my heart to fall and my mood to darken. What does that mean?

"Stop thinking like that Ava. I don't mean with women. You are my woman, there will be no one else. I just mean with the guys. You know how they can be".

"It's fine" I smiled swallowing the lump that had appeared in my throat. "I get it" moving away from him I walked back into the bedroom. What the hell was I going to wear?.

"Black bag by the door" He said coming out of the bathroom and grabbing his smokes. Picking it up I peeked inside to see some of my clothes where there.

"Thanks. I'm going to get changed and then see if my mom needs any help" Walking past him it wasn't until I was in the bathroom that my tears began to fall. How was he going to act with me infront of them? Why was I crying? As the sob broke through my mouth I clasped my hands over it incase he was still in the room. He didn't need to see me crying like a big baby.

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Maybe it was just sex to him! But it felt so much more than just sex to me. That was my first time and he was so gentle. So protective incase he hurt me. Shaking the thought from my head I splashed some cold water on my face before getting changed.

Remind me never to let Blaze pick my clothes for me. I was stuck in the tightest pair of jeans I own, afraid to bend over in case I ripped the ass of them. Clipping my bra on I pulled the white vest top over my head. Great he just had to match it with the tightest top as well. Glancing in the mirror I sighed. It looked like my boobs were going to fall out the top and trust me I have the smallest boobs ever known to women. Deciding to leave my hair down I ran my fingers through it and exited the bathroom.

"Why were you crying?"

Jumping I placed a hand over my heart "I thought you left" I said picking my boots out of the bag and slipping them on. If these clothes weren't so tight they would have been fine. "I wasn't" I said taking a cigarette from his pack and lighting it up. "Told you before you can't lie for shit" Grabbing my hand he pulled me to him "I don't like it when you cry. What happened?"

"How are you going to treat me infront of them?" I asked nodding my head in the direction of the door. If he thinks he's going to treat me like some cheap tart them he's got another thing coming. I won't stand for it. "That's why you were crying? Fuck Ava grow up" He snapped letting go of my hand and running it through his hair.

Biting my lip I nodded my head "I see" I smiled "I'm going to find my mom. I'll pick my stuff up later" I said motioning to the bag on his bed. Of course it was just sex to him. How could I have been so stupid? "Don't do this. You know what it's got to be like" He groaned taking the cigarette from my hand.

"You didn't treat me any differently before so why now? Is it because we fucked?" I asked hating that that word just left my mouth. I had to act like I didn't care because if I didn't I would break down infront of him. "No" He snapped "We didn't fuck Ava. We made love. I haven't made love to a girl in a long time".

Feeling my face fall I regretted what I said. Now I know it wasn't just sex to him. "I'm sorry" I said walking towards him only to stop when he backed away. I could already feel the tears at the back of my eyes hoping they wouldn't fall. "I need to get out of here for a while"

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Leaving me standing in his bedroom I wiped away the silent tear that rolled down my cheek. Cleaning up my face I pulled on one of Blazes jumpers so my dad wouldn't shoot everyone out there. Walking out through the bar I interrupted my mom giving orders.

"Need any help?" I asked placing my head on her shoulder.

"Have a good sleep honey?" She asked her attention on the guys moving tables. "No Jared not they ones he'll kill you in you use they ones" she sighed running a hand through her hair. "Honestly why is it men can't do anything without a woman?".

Chuckling I took a hold of her hand and lead her to a seat "Stressing over nothing is bad for the baby. Why are you getting all worked up over dinner?" I asked

Resting her hands on her stomach she shrugged her shoulders "I need something to do around here and your dad won't let me do much. I just for once want everyone to be seated around the table so we can have a nice family dinner". "No point in stressing over it" I whispered "Now let me know where I can help and please just stay here and rest for a bit".

"Just like your bloody dad" She grinned "Your friend is in the kitchen you could go help her".

My friend? Ally!!

Frowning I kissed my mom on the cheek before disappearing towards the kitchen. I told her not to come over without phoning me. Shit where's my phone?

Pushing the kitchen doors open I wished I hadn't. Turning as quickly as I could I pushed the door back open and almost ran back to the bar. How was I ever going to get the image of Ally bent over the stove with Cage behind her. "Did you get her A?" My mom asked just as my dad walked through the door and boy he did not look happy. "Baby what's wrong?" My mom asked as he dropped a kiss on her cheek. "You" He pointed at me "Office now". What the hell had I done?