Where I Belong

I didn't want to talk about this anymore. In a way she was right but I was not about to get into an argument with my best friend over my past.

"Well it's done now and I can't change it so let's just leave it at that okay?".

"The right guy will come along you just need to open up and let it happen".

The last thing I wanted was a new relationship. I had bigger things to worry about and dating was not one of them. "I'm not interested in the right guy coming along. I'm happy just being myself and enjoying my life". "Then just use them for the sex" Sticking her tongue out at me I couldn't help but laugh "Girls night out is exactly what you need and I'm going to organise it". No!!

"Ally I don't want-..."

"I'll get Chantelle and Lexi down and we'll get you hooked up. Drinks will be flowing and everyone will know your sexy little ass is available".

"Ally-....."

"Next Sat-..."

"I'm pregnant" I blurted out and she fell silent. She wouldn't shut up. I didn't want to go out and hook up. I didn't want creeps hitting on me. I didn't want people to know I was available. "And it's his?"

Narrowing my eyes I crossed my arms over my chest "Of course it's his I haven't been with anyone else" I snapped.

"No I didn't mean it like that I just meant when you were hurt did they..."

"Blaze is the father Ally and you are the first person I have told so please don't say anything and whatever you do, do not tell Cage".

"That's why you're not drinking and it now makes sense as to why your skin is glowing. How far along?".

"Nearly 4 months".

"Do you plan on telling him?" She asked

I couldn't tell him. He didn't want to come back and he sure as hell wasn't getting to use my baby as an excuse to do just that. Shaking my head no I ran a hand over my face "I can't reach him and if he was to come back here Ally then it has to be because he wants too not because I'm having his child".

"When are you planning on telling your mom?".

That was a good question. I wasn't planning on telling anyone because when I first found out I wasn't planning on still being here. I had already spoke to my former boss about getting my old job back.

"Not sure I plan on telling anyone" I shrugged. It was no ones business but mine.

"Pretty sure they'll notice the bump that will follow very soon". She wasn't catching on to what I meant.

"I spoke with my old manager a few weeks ago. My old job is there for me if I want it".

"You're leaving?".

"I have to get out of this city Ally. I have nothing to stay for anymore".

"So our friendship means nothing? Everything we've been through together? Wow Ava I thought more of you". Getting to her feet she held her bag tighter.

"That's not what I mean" Matching her actions I got to my feet "I need a break for a while maybe just until after he's born. I don't plan on being gone forever but I can't stay here when everything reminds me of him". "It's a boy?" She whispered

"I don't know yet but I have a gut feeling it's a boy. Please listen to me and understand when I say it won't be forever. I just need time to sort myself out and I can't do that staying here".

"I get it" She smiled pulling me to her "Go get your life back mamma and bring him back so he can meet his crazy aunt".

"I will and please know I love you".

"Don't you dare leave without saying goodbye" Wiping the tears from her cheeks I bit my lip. "When you decide you're doing it you let me know".

That talk with Ally was all it took for me to make up my mind. Leaving was the only way I could move on and get past it. Starting out again back home, giving my baby the life that I had. I knew in the long run it will be the best decision I've ever made.

Telling my parents was the hardest but to my surprise they didn't try and stop me. They both knew I had been through a lot and knew it was time to get myself sorted out. The only thing they didn't like was that I was taking there grandchild away before they even had the chance to meet him.

"I've wired money into your account" My dads big arms slid around my shoulders as he gently pulled me towards him. "You better come back to us Ava. This is just temporary I want to meet my grandson as soon as he's born". Rolling my eyes even my dad thought I was carrying a boy. "I love you kid".

The most important people in my life right now we're here.

"You take care baby but please come back soon" My mom was already crying. Leaving felt right and it was the most surest I've been on something in a long time.

Jared was silent. I knew he wasn't happy with the decision I had made. "Please don't make me leave when you're angry with me".

"Not angry sweetheart. This will be good for you and I'm glad you've made the decision to do it. Take care of yourself and take care of the new brother you have in here". Placing his hand on my stomach I smiled.

"I'll miss you Jared" Kissing his cheek I squeezed him tightly "Please keep in touch".

"Ava it's time you have to go baby" hugging my mom one last time I made my way to the gate. I didn't look back, I couldn't. I knew something deep inside would stop me from leaving.

And if I looked back they would know that I wasn't planning on ever returning.

The end!!