When u needed me (GXG)

Faithlynn's POV

It's our wedding today, and I don't know how to feel about it, I don't even know if Reagan and I are on good terms or not.

I never thought that I would fall in love with a person with whom I literally spend my whole life throughout this day and now is the time when I'm falling for her.

It all started with a fake wedding and I don't know how it all turn into a real one.

Anyways, It's a small function, only close friends and families are invited because ofcourse it was supposed to be a fake wedding, but now it is all I want, although I'm a bit scared of what might happen afterwards.

Yesterday when Reagan came over I overheard her talk with her mom. I felt really guilty about choosing pink colour for our outfits even when I knew she hate pink. But it was an amazing light carnation pink melone three piece suit with a white dress shirt. I'm damn sure she'll going to look good in it. On the other hand, mine is a same light carnation pink ball gown; a drop waist and full skirt elongated the torso and accentuate the waist. Topped with a sweetheart neck line. I'm sure she's going to like it.

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The wedding went well.

Reagan was looking so damn good, I was probably drooling over her and the way she kept looking at me make me feel whole. She was looking at me as if I'm the only one present there, but she didn't talk much she seemed to be in sour mood.

We just got home, everyone decided to leave the house to us, to give us some privacy on our wedding night.

They all will be heading back tomorrow probably.

I was just sitting on the bed waiting for Reagan to come. I'm so tired that I could just sleep but I want her here with me.

Just when I was about to doze off, the door of the room opened and Reagan come into view, she glanced at me then kicked her shoes and socks off, loosened her bow tie which was already loosely hanging around her neck, discarded her jacket, untucked her shirt, it was like she's going to get undressed and then do the same to me, so I was getting a little nervous but happy nervous, I guess?. But to my dismay she flop down onto the bed lying on her stomach, I guess she's tired too.

What about me? I want her to give me some attention now after that hot show. I know it doesn't seems to her like I want to go further than just kissing, but I do, I was Saving that for this night. I wanted it to be special.

I lay down beside her she looked up "are you going to sleep in that?" She asked motioning towards my dress. I shooke my head 'no'.

"So, go change.' she said with a sigh and closed her eyes. Putting her face back into the pillow.

"Uhmmm... I-I was thinking maybe you could help me change?" I asked clearing my throat nervously.

"Why would I do that?" She asked looking at me confused but then her eyes widen in realisation. Her eyes were heavy but wide, the way she's looking at me made me blush.

"Well, do you want to help?" I asked leaning into her but she put her face back into the pillow growling.

"What game are you planning now?" She asked irritated. I didn't expect that.

"What do you mean? I'm not playing any games with you, Reagan." She scoffed and turn to her side so she can have a good look at me.

"Go to sleep Faith." She said and laid down on her back this time.

I just naturally feel really turned on and after that little show of hers, I just want her. I inched closer and kissed her cheek, when I see she isn't going to respond, I continued. I hover over her and start kissing her jaw going down slowly towards her neck, inhaling her sweet scent, earning a soft moan when I kissed behind her ear. She grab my waist and pulled me closer making me straddle her. This encourages me, so I kissed down to her collarbone , unbotton the top of her shirt kissing her chest, just as I was about to go further down towards her cleavage she flipped us. Now she is hovering over me, between my legs, breathing heavily, her pupils were dilated like she's high or something.

She kept on looking at me as if contemplating something inside her brain, she laid down next to me on her side, exhaling deeply as in to calm her breathing. Without saying anything she turn on to her side, her back facing me. I was staring at her back, what the hell just happened? She's just going to ignore everything just happened, ignore me?

"Reagan?" I said pulling her to face me, but she didn't budge.

"Reagan, I swear if you don't talk to me I'm going to leave right now." I threaten just so, she talk to me.

"Reagan, I'm serious." She didn't respond so I started to get out of the bed just as I was about to turn the door knob, her hand lands on mine on the door knob. She blocked me between her body and the door.

"What do want me to do?" She asked looking straight into my eyes.

"I want to have you tonight." I said barely audible, blushing profusely.

"What if I don't agree to have sex with you tonight." She asked bluntly, I looked down embarrassed. I'm literally asking her to have sex with me.

"What are you gonna do, huh?" She asked smirking, pressing her body into me. I gulped.

"You can't do anything." She said laughing at me, now she is pissing me off.

She went back to bed "Good night wifey." She said smirking and closed her eyes.

"Then I'm gonna go to Amelia." I said and regret saying it. In a flash she was standing infront of me, looking mad.

She slowly come closer to me putting both of her hands beside my head on the door "so you are that desperate"? She said through greeted teeth. I lost all my strength and confidence to say anything.

So I just stand there blocked, looking into her firece eyes, she looked down on my lips then back to my eyes, pressing her body into mine. She licked her lips and kissed me on the lips really hard. I kissed her back grabbing her face with my hands. It felt like electricity going through every nerve of my body. Suddenly Reagan bit on my bottom lip which make me whimper, I could taste blood from my lip in our kiss. She pulled back and licked my bitten lip while I took this chance to catch my breath, she picked me up while her eyes start turning glossy. Is she crying?

She laid me down on the bed getting on top of me, she start kissing me again, going down on my neck bitting and sucking, I moaned,she's hurting me a little. She came back up to my lips, the I felt something wet on my cheeks, she sniffed in the kiss and I pulled back. She's crying. She looked at me and try to kiss me again but I stopped her. " Whats wrong?" I asked caressing her cheeks.

"Nothing, let's get this over with." Hearing her say it like it's some kind of hookup, broke my heart. I wanted this night to be special, for both of us to enjoy. To make love not just sex.

She wiped her cheeks and grabbed my hand pinning them above my head and went directly for my neck, kissing every inch of my exposed skin, then I felt another wetness on my neck. "Stop" I moaned. She pressed herself down on me to keep me in place. But I can't do this, I can't force her to do this.

"Stop, I said stop." I said pushing her with all my might. Finally she stopped.

"What happened ? Am I not doing it right?" She asked in a low voice.

"What are you doing, if you don't want to do it then you shouldn't". I said taking her face in my hands.

"Just tell me how you like it, I'll do whatever you say, just don't go to anyone, okay?" She said her voice breaking. My tears start flowing too.

"I didn't mean it like that, I wasn't going to Amelia for sex, Reagan." I said wipping her tears with my thumb. She looked so scared and vulnerable. What have I done to her. She's never like this.

"But you said you'll go to her." She sniffed.

"I just said it so you'd give me some attention that's all, I would never go to Amelia, I promise." I said reassuring her.

"I'm not capable of taking another heartbreak, Faith. I'll die if you ever do that to me. I can't see you with anyone else but me. I'll die Faith." She said between hiccups.

"I'll never do anything like that to you, I promise" I said getting up and discarding my dress and pulling an oversized shirt.

"Come here." She came to me and laid on my chest, my arms around her. She pulled me and snuggle closed into me and fell asleep.

I had never seen Reagan cry let alone vulnerable. She was so scared that I'll go with Amelia. I mean I would never do that, but I can't really blame her, Amelia had been a threat to her since the day I kissed her at the club. Now I'm married to her, fake or real I'm devoted to her and her alone.

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