When u needed me (GXG)

Faithlynn's POV

Ugghh... It's been 2 days since Reagan left for Germany. She didn't called or texted me but she has been talking to her mother and April. I mean come on I need to talk to her too. But April said she needs some time and that she would eventually talk to me.

I feel so ashamed of what I did, that night at the club.

Night at the club;

I was dancing and enjoying myself when someone started dancing with me, it was Amelia. We continued dancing but she would always try to come close to me but I always made a distance between us, when I cant handle her I told her to get me a drink.

After few seconds a body come pressing behind me, even surrounded by all the sweaty drunken body I still get the familiar scent of her body, then she put her hands on my waist sending chills all over my body. I turned facing her then looked up into her eyes, to see the admiration and happiness. She is happy to be here with me, holding me. She kept pulling me in to her. I felt so hot suddenly and being close to her is not helping. My eyes wander on her perfect, flawless face, her beautiful blue eyes, her lashes are not that long but over all her eyes are adorable. Then my eyes travelled over her perfect little nose to her lips that are pulled up in a slight smirk. I just wanted to kiss them, to know what they taste like. Eventually we wre so close and I can't stop my self, as if her lips alone were pulling me towards her, she closed her eyes and she looked so peaceful, like she was enjoying the slow music. I looked at her but I cant just kiss her, she is my best friend and she is doing all of this because of me. I can't just do this she might be straight and if I kissed her she would be disgusted by me. And what if she call off the wedding. So I did the only thing she asked me not to.

I left her on the dance floor alone and went to the bar towards Amelia, grabbed her neck and smashed my lips on hers, she immediately respond and grab my ass to pull me closer, I can feel her smiling into the kiss. We kissed until there was no oxygen to share and pulled back, when I pulled back I saw Reagan rushing out of the bar with April and Aron in tow. Oh no what have I done, shit, shit ,shit. SHIT. I just ruined it, I ruined everything. I was about to go after them but Amelia grab my arm pulling me into another kiss, I try to pushe her back but her grip was hard to budge. So I give in and kissed her again.

When we pulled back she had this annoying grin on her face "I knew you would come crawling back to me" she said pecking my lips while her hands stayed on my ass. I squirm in her arms but insted she pulled me closer locking her legs behind me.

"Uh- huh.. babe, you can't just leave me here drunk, hot and bothered". She said squeezing my ass. Uggh.. what should I do. I need to go see her.

"Uhh..umm, babe, I need go to the restroom" I told her innocently and she seems to believe me and let me free.

I rushed outside only to see Reagan running off, to god knows where. I saw that April was crying and Aron consoling her. I went to them putting my hand on Aprils soulder "Are you okay?." I asked.

April turned to me and whiped her cheeks rather aggressively. "It's all on you, you were the one who told us to keep that a secret, if something happened to Reagan it's your fault, why do you have to be so complicated, you knew she liked you in some ways and she specifically asked you not to go out with someone else but No, you had to do it and hurt her. How many times? Huh, how many times will you going to hurt her". She yelled at me.

And thats when my tears started to flow like unstoppable river. And I regret everything I did, why did I do that? Why do I have to always hurt her. And she likes me? How did I never saw that. I thought she was straight. Now to look back at it, Regan always treated me special, she was always there to help me and she never dated anyone, was Nadia right all along?

We got home after wondering around in case to find Reagan but no, their was no sign of her anywhere.

Nadia, Max and Frank keep asking us where Reagan is and how dare she ditch us, and why I was balling my eyes out, there was so many questions. But I cant bring myself to tell them that I cheated on their sister, that I kissed another girl in front of her. How much did that hurt, to see someone you like kisse someone else in front of you.

Everyone went to their rooms leaving only me and Amelia in the living room by ourselves. Amelia came behind me wrapping her arms around me, "want to spend the night in my room?" She whispered suggestively in my ears, and kissing down the side of my neck. I didn't answer her.

Her hand started to travel down on my lower abdomen, thats when I snapped back and pushed her back and rushed to April's room.

She looked up at me in surprise and when she saw me crying she came and hugged me. " Shhh... It's okay, Reagan will come back in the morning, its okay" she cooed rubbing my back.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt her, i was just-its just...." I cant complete my sentence because of all the crying.

April sat me down on her bed and told me to get some sleep. And that night I cried myself to sleep for the first time.

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I kept calling her sending her texts but No, she wont reply or pick my calls. On the other hand that bitch Amelia is getting on my nerves.

Whenever she find me alone, she never misses a chance to make a move and its so annoying.

I wish Reagan was here, I miss seeing her, talking to her, I also missed her scent. I haven't been sleeping in our room because of that bitch, so I took Reagan's pillow in April's room, because it has her smell on it.

The wedding planners are doing good job so far, we had gone for shopping and our dresses are ready except for Reagans.

I know how much this wedding means to her. She said she'll never going to marry again because then it won't be as exciting and that we should only have one person with whom we want to spend the rest of our lives. I know I had just destroyed all her dream to had a perfect wedding, perfect family and what not. But I'll try to make it work. Not because of that shit we call citizenship, No. But, Because I want to give her that life, the life she wanted, the life she dreamed of. I just hope I don't mess it up more than I already have.

"Hey!" I was startled by Nadia.

"Hey, what's up." I asked her, she looked joyous.

"Come meet my family." She said dragging me into the living room, where everyone was sitting, but there was two unknown faces, a handsome man in a business suit with dark brown hairs and a little girl sitting on his lap, eating frozen yogurt making quite a mess. She seemed to be 4-5 years old.

"Faithlynn meet my husband Edward and my daughter Venessa. And this is Faithlynn Reagan's fiancée." Nadia said introducing us.

That little girl looked at her mother and asked "mommy, what's fi-fi-fincee" in her cute little voice mispronouncing the word.

"It means that aunt Rea and her is going to marry like your father and I" Nadia explained in easy word for the child to comprehend.

"Does aunt Rea love her like you love daddy". The little girl asked with glossy eyes.

"Ofcourse she does that's why they are getting married". Hearing her say that made my heart flutter. Then Venessa start crying like someone has snatched her frozen yogurt out of her hands. That took everyone by surprise.

"Shhhh.. baby whats wrong." Nadia asked the little girl.

"Aunt Rea said no one would take my palce in her heart, but she love her now." She hiccuped and start wailing again.

"No baby, its not like that." Nadia cooed her child.

"No, I hate you, I want my place back." Ohh this child is something.

Everyone tried to stop her from crying but that child would not stop.

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