To My Shattered Soul

“This is exactly how she was crying! And asking for help when her legs were squished under her car!” He clenched his fists.

“That day when we saw you, I saw you as an ordinary woman! But Jill? She saw you as a woman who walked home on her own feet after that accident!

Yeah, Daisy! The car you hit in that accident? It was Jill! My Jill! People ran to you! To help you! To carry you! Because you were popular… She was not! She cried for help! She begged her legs were stuck under her car she cried and cried until she fainted!

She was suffocating in that restaurant in front of you! We had to leave that restaurant… but it wasn’t the part that broke me.

When I told her that a woman is just an ordinary woman, you know what she said? She yelled at me! For the first time, she yelled at me!

I didn’t see an ordinary woman Jord! I see a future mother! A woman who can walk! Who got saved on time. This is what she said, and that’s where I broke!

I lost myself to her despair! I started drinking a lot! I used to stay all night at the bar until I met a man who became my friend! Mr. Ian… Your manager!

He showed me a way! A much much better way!

To an unbelievable path! My Jill will walk again! I was over the cloud 9, I couldn’t wait to see her walk again!

All I had to do was! Sacrifice! I needed to sacrifice an innocent… I couldn’t harm anyone but you!

First Mr. Ian gained your trust to get me close to you! Then he hired me for your company.

When you got pregnant it was an opportunity for me! I had something very innocent to sacrifice! I failed the brakes of your car!

You were always too quick to blame your misfortune and yourself, you didn’t even think for a second that maybe someone failed the brakes of your car!”

“You foul evil! How could you do that to an innocent baby? Who had your blood running in his veins?” I cried.

“I think you are missing the point where I told you that I had to sacrifice an innocent life!

So let me continue, and then our second task began! To find a vessel! That can reflect her misfortune! So our task began with that accident you had when you were carrying that child!

I can’t explain how happy I was Daisy! And how hard it was for me to hold back my smile when the doctor told me that you will never be able to conceive again?

Mr. Ian had to complete the arrangements for this ritual in order to prepare you and I had to preserve you all this time so we can make a vessel out of you!

Funny thing… Do you remember when I said my first priority is you? That was true.

I chose to destroy you! And even the vessel I chose was you!” He constantly had this vicious smirk on his face, that was making him even more disgusting.

“Remember when you saw a woman with me? You should have seen your face! We made you see things that never existed! You were pulling the bed sheet when you thought you were pulling her arm.

Well to preserve you! I made your life so miserable that you had to kill yourself! But when you were nearly dead, I had to pull you out!

Unfortunately, this was also a part of our plan!

But don’t worry my sweet sweet daisy? Once you will be able to carry all her pain and sickness inside your own useless existence, I promise I won’t make you suffer anymore! I will make you kill yourself.

People will recall your stories! There was once a woman, who suffered so much that she had to put a stop to it. Ohh! I realized… I don’t even have to do anything! You will meet your end without any struggle! You are a weak and pathetic woman!”

He laughed, and whatever he did to me already started to work! I had no strength left in my lower body.

He left me there to die on my own.

“Peter will get me out of here!” I yelled when he came back inside the room.

“No, he won’t I made him forget everything about you… I’m not his enemy Daisy… I am yours!” He walked out as if it was nothing.

“I am sorry about Jill Jordan! But this is not the answer” I called out to him, but it was too late. He was gone!

I held my stomach as I realized how much he snatched from me, I screamed at the top of my lungs.

That circle and star I was inside? It was made of salt, I saw its particles rolling toward me, swirling around me with a heavy wind turning into a twister, and then absorbing in me!

I felt so weak, that I fell on the ground unconscious, my vision faded out and the darkness took over my eyes.

I opened my eyes when I found myself resting under a tree, on a green hill near a swing, my eyes met Peter’s, as he ran to me with flowers in his hands.

“Daisies for you!” He handed over them to me.

The smell of those daisies soothed my spirit, I smelled them with my eyes closed, and when I opened them back I realized he was looking at me.

With so much love in his eyes, like he always looks at me, with his eyes squint and a bright smile on his face.

My hair, longer than I’ve ever grown in my life. Down that hill was a beach, a quiet beach with no one around, just a peaceful place where we were together.

He held my hands tighter, he kissed them, he kissed on my cheek and he whispered something in my ear.

“Daisy! You are not weak! You are not useless! You are a lone ship in the mad sea, being hit by high tides, but still stand tall and strong as you are, beautiful as you are” He whispered.