To My Shattered Soul

“Let me go!” I saw my best friend Ellie falling, her hand slipping away from mine.

“You don’t have to care about what anyone else thinks of you I am always here for you” No matter how many times I told her this, she always believed the bullies more than her own best friend even when I begged her to stay, when I told her I needed her, but my words never meant anything for her.

Well, it’s been 16 years now, I moved on, even though it left me silent for years, the sight of her body falling on the ground and her head cracking and her bleeding to death, that never let me sleep for years.

Even though I had to see a psychiatrist for a long time, I hated her for making me mentally sick, I hated her for leaving me alone like that, I still remember how hard it was for me to make new friends because of the pain of losing one of my closest friends kept me from making friends anymore.

Until I met him, that clingy man Jordan, no matter how many times I pushed him away, he… finally convinced me to be his friend.

He slowly decorated my dark loneliness with lights of his love, until he himself snatched them away.

Today we were having a divorce, I was going to meet my lawyer.

I brushed my short blond bobs and applied red lipstick, I wore my friend Ellie’s pendant. It was a golden swan “Baby swan got judged by its looks until he grew up and then everyone was jealous of him” This is what I told her when I gifted it to her, she loved it so after that I kept it.

It was the only thing of hers I kept all these years, I put on my black high heels and coat, took my keys, and left the house.

I am Daisy Carter, a 26-year-old woman, daughter of a billionaire businessman.

I lost my friend when I was 10 she suffered bullying because she wasn’t ordinary, she had some sickness which led to extreme weight gain, a few years back my father wanted to start another business for me, after listening to my idea he decided to gather some experts and designed a juice which can help people in losing weight.

I was there for a month when Jordan came as an intern, first I was annoyed by his clingy behavior then somehow with his ideas and intelligence he got promoted, and I started involving him in the company’s important matters.

He kept making me uncomfortable with his friendly and talkative behavior when I just wanted to keep everything professional, but… somehow he changed my life.

I got used to him, we started spending time together and the things I was avoiding the most started happening between us, we started dating, he knew financial status never meant anything to me, and I treated everyone in my company like a family.

So after a year, he proposed to me and I... said yes! I was so blind to his love that I never really realized what he was after wasn’t me, it was my money!

2 years passed and I got pregnant, we were so happy until we had an accident, it was all on me! I was driving and I lost control of my car, Afterward, the doctor told me that I would never be able to conceive.

Things started heating up between us, and then my most trustworthy manager Mr. Ian disclosed how Jordan was backstabbing us while selling our ideas to another company.

I was slowly slipping into my old dark loneliness again, being my partner he had shares in both my company and my properties, so I decided to take it away from him, but I couldn’t, so I kept doing things for him to make him love me again like he first did.

But this is the point! He never loved me.

After some time I had to leave the country for a meeting, I insisted on taking him with me but he rejected, I was going to stay there for a month but I had to return within 15 days, I tried contacting Jordan but he was avoiding me.

When I arrived I saw an unfamiliar car parked in front of our house, I sneaked in with my keys and to my room when I saw him on our bed but… he wasn’t alone! He was with a girl.. much, much younger.

When they both saw me they freaked out, Jordan begged me to forgive him because maybe, maybe he realized that he couldn’t survive without my money!

But it was time for me to get rid of him, I’d rather stay alone for the rest of my life than stay with a man who is not loyal to me, I was hurt, badly! To tell you the truth I was broken, so I took the hard step and decided to divorce him.

On my way to my lawyer, I realized why Ellie did what she did, it wasn’t about her weight, no matter how good you are, you are never good enough for people around you, if you are curvy they will want you to be skinny.

If you are skinny they will feel disgusted with you, if you have a perfect display they will leave you because of your inner flaws and this is why she killed herself, going back to my office seemed pointless to me!

Why? Why would I make a change in the world when people out there will still find a reason to hate you? Or make your life miserable?

That thought made me angrier, without having second thoughts I drove my car over the bridge and landed in the water along with my car, it was completely intentional, did anyone see it?

Yes! Or I guess they did, because before almost drowning I saw blurred shadows, not that I struggled to survive but even if I wanted to I couldn’t because when I fell the roof of the car bumped into my head.