To My Shattered Soul

The nurse who recorded Barbra and Jordan told me that the police station is not far away from this hell.

After waiting for a couple of seconds police arrived, and they saw a woman hanging out of the fence from a distance, now there were witnesses, and a room was almost filled with patients and guards.

Everyone said Barbra pushed me and after watching the video evidence Police arrested her, but Jordan? He vanished as if he didn’t even exist.

Amanda gathered the courage to talk about what happened to her with the police.

At last, I was free from that hell, I was sent straight back to my parents but things were still unresolved.

But for the starter, when I met my parents I arrived directly at my funeral, Jordan told everyone that I burned myself while he actually transferred me to the mental institution, God knows who was wrapped in that coffin, and how he made everyone believe it was me.

My mother bawled her eyes out when she saw me alive, and my father? He wouldn’t leave his grip on me! That’s how tightly he cuddled me.

A few days passed and things started to get normal.

But this entire time I called Peter, multiple times, but he didn’t answer me, and there was still no sign of Jordan.

I was so restless knowing that Peter existed but he was nowhere to be found, when I almost lost my hope just then I felt as if Peter called out to me.

As if he told me that he needed me to find him, I was recalling everything about us so maybe there was a detail I missed that might help me find him, I didn’t know when I fell asleep.

In my dream, I had what I can only describe as a vision!

But it felt as if it has happened to me, small clips of multiple scenes, mostly with Jordan, in one of those visions he was telling me that he doesn’t want a child, and in another one, he was telling me to slit my wrists and that moment felt real!

I woke up before dawn, I was still sitting on the chair by the desk, and I kept thinking about what I dreamed about.

The next morning when mom came to give me my medicine I refused to take it and I realized maybe it was the time I should sit with my family, maybe the way I thought they were suffering just like me, and maybe… they were blaming me just like I am blaming them?

We talked about Jordan at our table, it was surprising because Dad! He never allowed us to talk at the table but he was the one talking mostly.

He was tired of being quiet I guess “I am sorry I’ve made you suffer a lot” I closed my eyes and sighed.

Both Mom and Dad quickly got closer to me and sat beside me “It was never your fault!” Dad kissed me on my forehead.

“I was the one who married and brought Jordan into our lives” I mumbled.

“No! This is the point, Daisy! You never wanted him to get in our lives” I didn’t understand why Dad said that.

“It is time when you are finally ready to listen to us!” Dad looked at mom and she looked back at him.

“You dated Jordan just once! The second thing we knew he barged into our home! You turned to us and told us that you would tell him to leave as you were not going to marry him! But as soon as you turned back to him you were left speechless!

You kept looking at him and the next thing you did was to yell at us! ‘I will marry him whether you like it or not!’ These were your words, and we knew right then that something was really wrong with him!” Mom tucked my hair behind my ear and looked down with disappointment.

“We tried to warn you many times! But you were never ready to listen, Until now!” Dad whispered.

“And that accident you keep talking about? You called us that day when you had that accident! You said you are coming back because Jordan doesn’t want a child! And then you started screaming that the car is not getting under your control!” Mom raised my chin up.

“He attempted to kill you in the hospital when you were in a coma! Just because I told everyone about how he treated you! Just to threaten me! He sent me a video of you falling in the swimming pool all the way down from your window!” Mom sniffed wiping her tears.

“And that did work! We had to shut our mouth!” Dad rested his back on the chair and took a deep breath “I am glad you are back!”

Their words left me speechless, it felt as if someone pulled the ground from under my feet, “Why did he do that to me, Mom?” My lips were shaking while I was trying to hold back my tears.

They both hugged me, when I couldn’t hold back my tears, they let me cry to ease my heart, and they cried along. I couldn’t understand what I did to deserve this? Why Jordan destroyed my life and broke my entire existence?

Afterward, I went back to my room, I kept staring at my own reflection for a few minutes, I had so many questions.

I could strangle him! I could give him a nose-breaking punch straight to his face! I could… Ask the reason why he made me suffer, he sent me through hell and back and I am not letting him get away with this.

The only thing that came to my mind was “Someone made him do this! Because I was a business personality! Someone needed to get me out of their way” and I couldn’t wait to confront him.

While I was surrounded by my thoughts my phone rang! I got to my bedside table and picked up the phone “I’ve been waiting for you!” I whispered as I saw Jordan’s name displayed on my phone screen.