TO HAVE AND TO HATE

CHAPTER 7

‘Have I told you how beautiful you are,’ Nico asks, we are done eating and now just sitting on his bed trying to watch a movie. If I am being honest, I haven’t paid much attention to the movie, my heart is beating fast, I can feel these electric jolts to my body, I guess it’s the effect of having Nico so close to me.

‘You keep saying that.’

‘That’s because you're beautiful and your body is so hot. You are too sexy for a forty-three-year-old woman,’ he says before he starts kissing me. He lowers me down on the bed and we stay there for a while just kissing before I decide to pull away. He looks at me in surprise and maybe a little bit of disappointment.

‘This isn’t right Nico. This could ruin my career. This could get you expelled from school and…,’

‘I am an adult and I know what I am doing. I want this as much as you do and no one has to ever find out, it could be our little secret. I really like you, I haven’t liked someone as much as I do you. You don’t know it’s been sitting in your classes, please don’t push me away, I don’t even care that you are married or older, if you have me, I will have you.’

Silence.

‘Let me show you how much I feel for you,’ he says before he takes off my skirt and shirt. For a moment he just stares at me like I am the most beautiful thing he has set his eyes on. This young man makes me feel loved and wanted.

He slowly eases my bra straps off my shoulders then reaches behind my back and unclasps it entirely. It falls off.

‘Perfection,’ he whispers.

In an instant, his lips capture mine. He kisses my lips then moves to my neck as he slides my underwear off. He continues to press over the rest of my body and I gasp when his kiss touches the top of my breasts. I ache into him as he sucks and swirls his tongue around my nipple. He devours one, then the other. My body is on fire, I feel like I am about to explode, I am needy and I want him to make me come. I have been waiting for this ever since he touched me.

He pulls back a little, ‘You are such a dream come true.’

Then he quickly gets his clothes off and I stare at his manhood. Lord it’s so big. When he turns back to me, he kisses me aggressively while he trails his finger between my legs and starts thrusting in and out. I gasp, hooking my nails into his shoulders, ‘Nico!’ His fingers feel amazing, in that moment I am not Mrs. K, I am just Penelope. He brings me to the edge of an orgasm and like last time, he stops.

I groan in protest and he smiles.

‘Patience my love,’ he whispers. Then he gets on top of me and positions himself.

I should pull back.

This is wrong.

This is Nico.

He is my student and way younger than I am. Each thought comes faster than the other but I hardly have time to listen to them because in the next instant, with a hard thrust, Nico enters me. And just like that we cross a line. I lose myself to him like I have never done my entire life. For the next few minutes, he thrusts into me so hard I can hardly think straight. I have never had sex like this, not even when D and I were young and still had an active sex life/.

‘Holy shit! Nico!’ I cry, feeling an orgasm blooming low in my body. When I finally come, I lose it, I scream his name loud as my hands hold him tight to me. Shivers take hold of me for a moment. Then he lets out a loud groan, coming, I feel him pumping into me. His breath is hot against the back of my neck as he pants.

It takes us a minute or two to finally calm down.

‘You are mine now. I am never letting you go Penelope’ he whispers, kissing the shell of my ear.

Knowing I am not his and I don’t belong to him, I decide not to respond to that. I don’t know why I felt I would get over the craving once I had him inside me because now more than ever, I want to be with him all the time. I want to feel this kind of high and alive. I want everything he has to offer and I don’t even care if he is way younger than me, after all he is legal.

I don’t know how long we lie like that in silence, in the midst of my thoughts I must have dozed off because when I open my eyes. The room is dark. Oh shit. I get out of bed, turn on the light, Nico is lying on his stomach. The reality of what we did earlier finally hits me and for a moment there, I feel guilty for cheating on D. I grab my phone, it's two in the morning and there are several missed calls on my phone from my daughter, husband as well as Patra.

I panic as I run around his room, searching for my clothes. I put my underwear and bra back on. Then I put on my shirt and skirt before pulling my boots from underneath the bed. When I put them on, I grab my bag and stare at myself in the mirror to make sure I look decent enough. After finally finding a cab, I leave.

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EllaB

The August Girl

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