Three for Thorn

After Queen Miracle and King Lucias left with a crying and wailing Storm in tow, I sat down to enjoy a cup of hot mocha bean hot coffee before our subsequent planned departure.

I desperately needed some alone time to work out some of these complex feelings and issues I've been having over Sin.

But unfortunately I was interrupted by a very disheveled and quite disgruntled Tristan stomping into the dining room angrily.

He halted the second he saw me sitting at the table then he just lets out a frustrated grunt before he walked around me to fix himself a cup of joe.

Ignoring him I just kept drinking my own coffee still trying relentlessly to relax. Tristan decides to take the seat across from me. As he pulls the chair back to sit down upon it the scraping noise from the legs of the chair against the linoleum makes me cringe.

He unfortunately deposited himself in the chair across from me with a ragged huff.

Agitating me so much that I just roll my fucking eyes at him.

Asshole.

I don't know exactly what his damn deal here is lately but I am definitely not in the mood to deal with his obnoxious shenanigans.

"So you're leaving for the Invivus Realm today?" Tristan finally speaks up though I note the edgy tone in his voice. It's starting to really grate on my damn nerves.

"Yea." Is all that I reply. I feel no need to elaborate with him any further on the subject.

I just don't like this asshole. At first I thought I would give him the benefit of my doubt. He seemed alright when Thorn first introduced us to each other but lately he has changed his entire damn attitude for some unknown reason and I just can't seem to figure out exactly why that is.

"Do you think thats wise?" Tristan questions taking a sip of his coffee. I scowl over at him confused by his unexpected question.

"What do you mean?" I ask a bit gruffly it's way to damn early to have to deal with this damn dudes uncalled for animosity.

"I mean with Sin not going with all of you and all. The prophecy did state that she would need all three of her mates, is that not correct?" He asks me but he does it with a very condescending attitude.

"We will manage." I tell him taking another drink of my coffee. I just wish his stupid ass would just leave me the hell alone already. So I can at least have just one damn minute of fucking peace. Is that too damn much to ask?

"Well if you want my opinion I don't blame Sin for not wanting to be with her. He saw the light early on about how she truly is and I just hope that you and Sunny don't end up regretting taking a chance on her either." Tristan states rather bluntly. "She's just not worth it."

"I didn't ask for your damn opinion asshole and why the sudden abrupt change? If I can remember correctly it wasn't too long ago that you were willing to happily exchange places with Sin." His face morphs suddenly from the condescending asshole that he has been presenting to me to now looking completely aghast. I stifle a laugh.

"Things change." Tristan states simply as he just shrugs his damn shoulder after regaining his obstinate composure.

"They do. So what changed them?" I persist tilting my head slightly to the side while observing him.

"That's none of your damn business!" He replies aggressively.

"Oh, but you made it my damn business when you brought your condescending ass in here and starting making inappropriate remarks about my damn mate!" I bellow out while slamming down my coffee mug on the table, spilling out my lovely mocha bean coffee all over the side of my mug and onto the damn dining room table making a complete mess. Shit!

"You know what I'm fucking out of here. Good luck on taming that out of control two faced bitch you call a mate!" Tristan growls standing up from his chair abruptly with his stormy eyes never leaving mine he ends up accidentally bumping into a very upset Sunny that's unfortunately blocking his only exit from the room.

Sunny has his arms folded across his chest as he's shooting fucking heated daggers through his eyes down at now very startled and flustered Tristan.

"What the hell did you just call my mate? Slay, please tell me that I'm hearing things because I think that I just heard this little ass prick call my sweet loving mate a two faced bitch?" Sunny ask with fierce intimidation. "I know this dumb fuck wouldn't be stupid enough to do something like that?" He adds growling down at him.

I let out a deep dark wicked chuckle, "You know Sunny I do think that this little bastard just called our mate a derogatory word! What do you think we should do with him?" I ask smugly while walking around the dining room table coming to stand right beside Sunny.

"I don't know. Maybe we should just cut off his little bitty tiny balls?" Sunny states disbelievingly in a very childish mocking tone.

"I don't know. If we do that then we would have to go through all of the damn trouble of finding the damn tweezers so we can move his little bitty pecker out of the way to even reach them!" I snarl my upper lip growling down at him.

Tristan frighteningly blanches away from us literally shaking in his fucking boots now.

"I-I didn't m-mean it." He anxiously stutters making me release another deep chuckle at him.

Seeing him so damn shaken enlightens me but knowing that Thorn would probably be upset if we did something to hurt him makes me regain my composure, I take a deep breath to try and tamper down my escalating temper.

I take pity on the little cowardly prick, "Get the fuck out of my house before I rip your cowardly spine right out of your tiny asshole!" I growl. Tristan doesn't waste a damn second, before he's pushing in between us he takes off out of the dining room running like his little ass was on fire.

Peering over at Sunny we both bust out in uproarious laughter, "I think he might have just pissed his damn pants!" Sunny says between his bouts of laughter. I'm about to reply back to him but the dining room door suddenly opens.

"What happened with Tristan? He just ran by me looking like he just seen a damn ghost." Thorn questions as soon she walks into the dining room.

Instead of answering her both Sunny and I continue to laugh as Thorn looks on at both of us with valid worry and uncertainty.

After Tristan's hasty departure we all gathered in to the living area with suitcases in each of our hands.

I open the portal to the Invivus Realm promptly once we were all finally situated.

"Ready?" I ask both Sunny and Thorn as they look on at the portal before them a bit apprehensively.

"I'll go first if you're scared. There's actually nothing to be afraid of, all you have to do is step right through it and it will lead you straight into the Invivus Realm." I try reassure both of them. They both just give me a slight hesitant nod still looking slightly apprehensively over at the portal.

Stepping forward until I'm standing right in front of the portal I take a glance back over my shoulder and give them both a tiny reassuring smile.

Putting one foot in front of the other I finally reach the portals entrance as I place my foot into it I unexpectedly get thrown back, by an intense electric shock, all the way across the living room area flat on my ass until my back finally collides into the wall forcefully. My suitcase ends up flying across the room with me but I have no idea where it may landed.

"Slay!" I hear Thorn scream and her own suitcase suddenly dropping to the floor immediately while she's anxiously runs over to me with Sunny heavily running right on her heels. She bends down to me placing her soft hands against my cheeks.

The sparks from her touch seem to bring me around quickly from my disoriented and squeamish state thankfully.

"Are you okay?" She ask me worriedly.

Grunting I stumble to stand pushing myself up off the floor with the palm of my hands albeit a tad ungracefully.

Leaning against the wall I shake my head vigorously trying my damnest to dispel the dizziness from me.

"I'm fine." I mummer being a little bit embarrassed from the incident and still a bit fuzzy headed.

"It won't let us enter into the Realm." Sunny exclaims. Well no shit Sunny. I fucking know that!

"Maybe because the prophecy said she needed all three of her mates and by my counting I'm only seeing two." Sin exclaims as he entered the room smiling with a bowl of fucking cereal that he's eating in his hands.

"You knew!" Sunny states staring over at Sin disbelievingly.

Craning my pounding head I glance over at Sin who is just smiling egotistically over at Sunny while the bastard keeps eating his damn bowl of cereal.

"Un-fucking-believable! You knew all of this time that we weren't going to be able to make it through the portal without your ass, didn't you?" I square off with him, while strolling over to him a bit unsteadily. Once I reach him I get right up into his fucking face.

"I knew." Sin affirms my own conclusions while giving me a snide smile. The damn jackass. I want to fucking crush him.

Before I could punch him in his smug ass face Thorn beats me to it. She literally slaps the living hell out of Sin across his damn face and I mean fucking hard. Daaaamn!

Sins head swings to the side from the rough slap the force of it makes him drop his damn bowl of cereal in the process. The bowl of cereal crashes down on the floor with a clang spilling the contents of it everywhere. Cocoa pebbles and milk mix in with the white fluffy carpeting, it suddenly starts soaking irrevocably into the carpet fibers. I scowl down at the enormous mess.

"You bastard! What the hell have I ever done to you to make you hate me so damn much? You're so fucking selfish. Those people over there," Thorn points to the opened portal while never taking her heated glare off of Sin, "are suffering under a tyrannical leader and all you can fucking do is think about your damn self! I've had it! You are a dishonest low down dirty deceiving heartless prick who doesn't deserve a mate or even the love of your brothers. Why do you have to be such a giant ass? What are you even good for Sin? All you do is cause mayhem and for what?" Thorn starts to run out of breath, she pauses then inhales deeply. Once she regains her breath she lays into him again while pounding her tiny fist into his chest with unbridled fury.

"So you can save your brothers? What a laugh. You can't even save your fucking self. Look at you! You are nothing but miserable and you are making everyone around you just as miserable as you are. I hate you Sin! I fucking hate you!" Thorn screams out terribly loudly still pounding away at Sins chest.

Sin peers down at her with retracted lips and genuine shock written all over his face. Thorn finally drops her hands away from Sins chest, breathing heavily.

"Thorn I..." Sin starts but Thorn holds up her tiny hand cutting him off instantly.

"Save it. I've heard it all before and I'm not in the mood for anymore of your damn lies." Thorn retorts sharply, dropping her hand down to her side, her shoulders then sloop down looking utterly defeated.

"Thorn?" I drawl out her name reaching my arm out to her slowly but when she sees it coming toward her she jerks her body away from my touch quickly.

"I'll be in my damn room if you or Sunny needs me." She informs us lowly as she turns away from Sin, she sighs, then walks straight away from us all. I watch her back as she climbs up the staircase, she looks so damn sorrowful as she walks away from us that it literally breaks my damn heart to see her in such distress.

"She hates me?" Sin ask very despondently.

"What the hell did you think she actually felt about you Sin? After the way that you have treated her I would actually hate your ass too." Sunny tells him imploding. I would have to actually agree with him.

"Do...do you....hate me too?" Sin ask Sunny stammering.

Sunny releases a tiny breath, rubbing his hands over his jawline he stares over at Sin with pity.

"Yes and no Sin. I love you but I hate you. The way you have been acting these last few years are making me hate you. Every since our parents died you have changed so damn much and I can't say that I like it. What is it Sin? What is causing you to act this way? Tell me why please because I truly don't understand." Sunny practically begs Sin.

I huff lowly knowing that Sin will never divulge a damn thing to either of us. No matter how much we may plead with him he has always kept his feelings locked up tight like a damn bank safe for years now I just can't see him changing.

"Never mind. You wouldn't understand anyway." Sin grouses just shaking his head.

I knew the bastard wouldn't open up but I'm about sick and damn tired of all of this tireless shit that he keeps dishing out.

"Of course. Why wouldn't we understand? We're only your fucking brothers who have lived with you our entire lives and whom, I may add, have also suffered through the same damn things that you have suffered through our entire lives together. But for some fucked up reason you seem to think that whatever has happened to you makes you somehow more tangential than either Sunny or I. But, by all means Sin, keep rolling around in your self pity cesspool that you seem to have created just for damn yourself." I fume exasperated by the mere idiocy of my damn brother.

"I didn't create anything! I deserve whatever I get! You. Wouldn't. Fucking. Understand." Sin accentuates every word while screaming at us loudly.

"Then tell me! Help me understand Sin!" I scream back pleading.

"I can't. I just fucking can't! I know I'm a fucking asshole Slay! I fuck everything up! I always do. It's like it's imprinted into my own damn

D.N. Fucking A!" Sin bellows out even more loudly than before swinging his arms around frantically and pacing the floor.

"What is? What do you think you actually fucked up Sin?" I ask more determinedly. "Stop keeping it all in!"

"I killed our parents!" Sin yells.

Everyone then goes dauntingly silent. The air seems thick with questionable uncertainty. The only thing around us that can be heard is our own heavy breathing and the ticking of the old grandfather clock that's perched in the corner of the living room area.

The clocks ticking sounds that echo out of it is so damn fucking ominous.

Sin drops his hands to his side with his shoulders drooping he walks slowly over to the couch sitting down upon it as he sighs out with pure raw disparity.

My mind goes on a damn sabbatical, I can't seem to think of an original thought. Everything just goes fucking unrealistically blank.

"They died in a plane crash Sin. What do you mean you killed them?" Sunny ask quietly as he walks over to Sin sitting down on the couch right beside him, bringing me out of my own morbid darkness.

I still stand in the same spot frozen. Staring at my brothers. Unsure of what to do.

"The night before they left. I was in dads office talking to him about a party I wanted to go to, when mom came walking into the office looking really upset. Her and dad starting arguing over them going to help that asshole Alpha Baker. You know how dad was, he would always help anyone out that was in need but mom was scared. She didn't want to go, she said that something just felt off to her about it." Sin sighs leaning his head back on the couch folding his hands his lap as he then closes his eyes.

I break away from my immobilized state, edging my way over to him and Sunny, I sit down in the chair right beside them waiting for Sin to continue.

"Hindsight is twenty twenty, so they say." He huffs, "Mom and dad went back and forth about this for a while. I was starting to get aggravated at them. I just wanted to go to the damn party with Grayson and the guys because I was suppose to meet up Shari there. Remember her?" He ask raising his head from off of the back of couch to look at each of us questionably.

I just nod my head wanting desperately for him to continue on.

"Anyway, I was already late for the party so I ended up interrupting their bickering by screaming at them to get their attention and boy did I. Dad was absolutely pissed when I screamed. Mom was just surprised. I told them to just go. What would it hurt? Dad never backed down from a problem before so I thought why should he now if someone was desperate enough to call him for help then I thought they should go at least. So I ended up arguing with mom about them going." Sin pauses, wiping away a random tear that leaked out of the corner of his eye suddenly.

"It was bad," he takes a deep shuttering breath, "She kept telling me that I was just like dad and wouldn't listen to her. I guess I sort of was. I told her that she was just being selfish and a coward. Why the fuck would I say that? Mom was never a coward. I was just thinking of myself and how bad I wanted to go to that stupid ass party." Sin whines in anguish, placing his elbows on his knees he buries his face in between his hands, shaking his head vehemently.

His entire body begins to shudder uncontrollably, Sunny reaches over throwing his arm across Sins shoulder as I place my hand on top of Sins leg. He drops his hands away from his face then leans back on the couch once again dislodging Sunny's arm from him instantly.

I remove my hand away from his leg lowering my head. I hate to see my brother in so much agonizing suffering.

"I actually told her that she was not a good Luna if she couldn't even help those in need. Dad jumped my ass but all I could think about was myself apparently because I wouldn't back down even after I made mom cry. I'm a fucking bastard. I made our mom cry and at the time I didn't even give a damn. The last thing I ever told them was 'I'm ashamed that you are my parents and if you don't go to help someone out who needs you then you should be ashamed of yourselves also, so get on that damn plane and act like the Alpha and Luna that you should be!' I remember verbatim every damn word that I told them and I've been living with the nightmare of it every since then." I'm basically shocked at Sins confession.

How can he blame himself for this shit after all of this time and never even once tell us about it any of it? Not even a fucking hint!

It's been haunting him for three damn fucking years. I can't believe he is actually blaming himself for this.

"I went to the party even after dad told me that I couldn't. I hooked up with Shari and got drunk off of my ass. When I finally came home I went straight to bed and passed smooth the fuck out. I didn't even get to tell them goodbye. They left while I was still stone cold passed out. I didn't wake up until Lila came crashing into my room crying hysterically to tell me about the plane crash." Sin is crying now with tears cascading down his cheeks. I peer over at Sunny and find that he is also crying along with Sin.

Our brother has been holding this torment in for so damn long and I didn't even realize it. What kind of brother does that fucking make me?

"Sin." I drawl out his name not quite so sure as to what to say to him. What can I fucking say?

That I should have been a better brother and been there for him? We were all grieving but that doesn't excuse me from not realizing how bad off my brother was.

I fell so damn ashamed.

"I'm sorry. I should have been there for you. I didn't reali...." I couldn't even finish my own damn thought. I start getting choked up.

Fuck!

This is all just too damn much!

I spring up from my seat quickly and start pacing the living room.

I'm the fucking eldest I should have known. It was my damn responsibility. What a fuck up I ended up to be? Mom and dad would sure be so fucking proud of me. I failed all of them.

All of these random thoughts keep blowing through my mind like a damn fucking wild ass hurricane.

"Slay it is not your fault. It's mine. I am always fucking up. Every time I think I'm doing something right it always seems to go fucking wrong. Like with Thorn. I thought if I called her father he would just come and take her away so she wouldn't be such a threat to you or Sunny. I didn't even think about him wanting her for his Luna or what he was planning to with her. Or even what he would do to you two. I only thought of how I could get rid of her. That's my problem Slay. I do things before I even think and I rarely think of the repercussions that it may bring." Sin stands up from the couch walking over to me. When he reaches me he places his hand on my shoulder gently, stopping my frantic pacing.

"This is all on me. I have lived with what I've done and said to our parents for three years now. It has been eating me up alive. I've lashed out and did some really shitty things that I will have to pay for, for the rest of my life. This is not on you Slay. It's all me. You have always been the best big brother any brother could ever ask for and I'm so fucking sorry for everything that I've done but I'm going to have to live with this. Not you. Do you understand me?" I can't understand why Sin is so desperately trying to console me when it should be the other way around. I look down at him in utter confusion.

"I'm the eldest it is my job to make sure all of your traveled on the right path. To know when you needed me and be there for you. To look after you no matter what. Why the hell are you trying to console me when it is I who should be consoling you? I'm sorry Sin, I knew something was bothering you but I didn't realize it was something so damn crucial. I should have fucking known!" I grit out, jerking his hand away from my shoulder mad at myself for not being a better damn brother.

"How could you have known Slay? It's not like you were in the room with us when I acted like a complete ass. I did this. Not you. I'm also the one who so callously hurt Thorn and I don't think she will ever forgive me for doing it either. But there is one thing I can do." he says pointing over at the still opened portal.

"I can go with all of you. She may not want me there but it's the least I can do after putting her through all of this I need to make amends and help my brothers and my mate conquer her Realm." I'm actually surprised that Sin would even want to do something so drastic for us and especially for Thorn.

Maybe his confession to us finally will actually start to help him? One can only hope so anyway.

"It's fine by me but I want to make one thing perfectly clear before we go. I will not ever mate or bond with you and I'm only doing this to help those in the Invivus Realm. I could actually care less about the damn throne. And when we have finish our task I will come back here and be Slay and Sunny's Luna but I will never be yours. We will never be officially mated Sin." Thorn exclaims to Sin standing at the top of the landing of the stairs. Looking down at us with clear disdain playing on her face.

Surprising all of us, she states what she wanted to say very venomously then turns around heading back into her bedroom, leaving us alone yet again, as the door quietly closes behind her. We all stare up at the landing.

I look at Sin standing in front of me, he's staring at the landing with remorse shadowing his face.

It's not like he didn't ask for this. A little part of me thinks but then again I can somehow understand now why he is the way he is. But no excuse is going to be good enough for what he did to Thorn. Not to Thorn anyway.

I sigh, as pity engulfs me, but not for myself. All of my pity is aimed at my foolish brother Sin.

Shaking my head robotically the one thing that flows through my mind as I stand there watching Sin looking upon the landing so broken heartedly is,

Let the fucking adventure begin!