SWNOVELS Chapter 8 What Is Love
Love is when you love their flaws (Flaws)
Love is when you stick through the shit even when it's hard
Love is when you need, not just want 'em 'cause of what they got
When you tell 'em you love 'em just to make sure they ain't forgot (Ooh)
What is love? (Love)
What is love? (Love)
What is love? (Love)
What is love? (Love)
I don't care about your past, I don't care about your last
I don't care about the niggas that you kissed or that you smashed
Kb Mike -L.O.V.E.
Zach's Pov
I close the door behind me, how could he mark her? I knew he wanted her but didn't know he would go that far. The fact is I did what I had to do for my family but what about my heart?
It's like it was yesterday when I expressed myself and told her how I truly felt, my chest hurt just Thinking about it. Sigh
"why me moon goddess"
Flashback sometime ago
"Come on Zach" Kim yelled as she jumped into the swimming pool cannonball style. I chuckled a little she is just too cute, I should talk to her if I don't she'll find her mate. I breathe a few times then run and jump in behind her, as entered the water I could feel it cool my whole body on this hot summer day.
Once I reached the top and caught my breath I opened my eyes and there was Kimberly Johnson. She was so beautiful, it was like I was blind and could now see. I felt as if she was my mate if I could choose my mate. I wanted to spend my life with her, through good times and bad.
Through Heaven and hell, I would even go against the moon goddess for her. I wanted to be the reason that she smiled or laughed. I just wanted her, not sexually but actually, like I wanted her to be my wife and have my pups make me the happiest wolf in the nation.
"Hey Kimberly, can we talk"
I finally found the courage to talk to her, whew this is way different from asking her to be my girlfriend. Okay, Zach, you can do this, I tell myself then she speaks.
"Umm sure, wanna get out?" she asked me while pointing at some beach chairs on the edge.
"No, it's okay we can talk right here," I told her while walking closer to her in the water, now we were face to face. She even smelled good while waist-deep in water, god I feel like I was down bad but I was.
Come on Zach don't fuck this up, Man we can do this. I breathe then start to speak.
"We have been together now for a few months, and I know we made certain rules for our relationship but I want to ask you something"
"Is there something wrong baby?" she asked looking very serious now, she might think I want to break up with her or something crazy.
"No, it's nothing wrong to say, I just want to ask you something important to me.......would you like to be marked by me?" I asked then waited for an answer, I had a feeling where this was going to go but I didn't care my wolf and heart wanted me to ask even if it meant heartbreak.
I don't know why he was so invested In Kim as I was, shouldn't he be waiting for our mate? Maybe she died or mated with another. Most wolves could wait but some couldn't that wanted love when they wanted it. I would love to find my mate but I would be way happier with Kimberly as my makeshift mate.
I couldn't tell her that though it would seem like I was settling for less, to her at least and it would fuel her decision to wait on her mate. Nope, I gotta try to convince her we are better together than separate.
She fidgeted in the water while she was thinking I could feel she was thinking about it but then again she wasn't. This was just a part-time thing film the real thing came and that made me sad.
"I Don't want you to feel forced, I Love you, Kimberly Marie Johnson, I've been infatuated since we were children. I can't see myself with anybody else, this too is true love at first sight. I want to wake up to you and go to sleep with you, I want to play in the Park with my son and daughter that we raised together. I want you to be my wife, to cherish and hold till death is part. It sounds crazy but you complete me, my love,"
"I'm completely and utterly in love with you" She just looks at me with so much love I feel like I'm going to yell out to the heavens, Then she speaks to me crushing my heart just as fast as she made it swell.
"I love you too but you know I can't, I'm saving that for my mate," she said with tears in her eyes. "I Don't want to hurt you but I can't lie to you and let you mark me, my wolf would hate me," she said now crying in my arms. I understand that she truly cares for me and my heart but she has to care about others too not just me.
I sigh and hold her right then I tell her "I will always love you, even if you Don't love me anymore. My heart beats and bleeds for you, don't you ever forget it" Then I cry a little too knowing she will never be mine how I want her to be.
The one that got away.....
End of flashback
I wipe my face from the tears that appear from thinking about my problems, even though she hates me and what I did. I won't abandon her, I love her more than life itself to abandon the one you so-call love, means you never loved them at all.
I have to save her if that is the last thing I do, but first Lynn has to get far away Saint won't let me go unpunished if I help her escape.
All's Fair in Love and War
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This was some Ensight on how Zach truly feels, this isn't some Crush he truly loves her. This makes things hard because he has to choose what's the best thing for his situation, get his ex out of captivity or make sure his sister safe. Yet he's trying to do both, love makes you do the wildest of things even if they can't reciprocate that same love.
What is love?
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-T