SWNOVELS Chapter A wolf
Ch 9
Jessara pov
I hear a knock on the door and can hear Killian asking to come in. I said I would find him when I was ready! Before I can even answer him I hear the door open and then shut again. But not before he states he left something for me. What did he leave me that could possibly make anything better right now? I pull the plug so the water can drain when I climb out of the tub and start drying off. I throw on a tshirt and shorts and when I head out of the room I don’t see anything anywhere that stands out.
“It’s on the bed!” He bellows through the door.
I turn to look and see a box with a bow on top. I slowly make my way over and sit on the edge of the bed setting the box in my lap.
“Might want to sit on the middle of the bed so you don’t drop it if you’re not!”
I smile when I move to the center of the bed, and slowly take the lid off when I see a note. I unfold it and see he has written a letter.
Dear Jessara,
My love, no matter what happened, please know I still love you. I will still stand by your side, and claim the pups as mine. Nothing changes! I don’t look at you any differently than I did the day I saw you looking out your office window. Or the day I saw you in your cottage. Or even the day I saw you hold Rikar for the first time. I will wait as long as I need to for you to trust me again.
With every ounce of love I have,
Killian
I just clutch the note to my chest and let the sobs envelop the room. I just stare at the box and I see a bunch of bubble wrap and while my hands are shaking I slowly unwrap whatever this is. I get down to the tissue paper and as I unwrap it I just stare in disbelief. Never did I ever think I would see this again. I feel the tears falling when I look down at my ceramic wolf. The one that was destroyed by Dillon when he wrecked my cottage. I clutch the wolf and letter to my chest when I get up off the bed walking to the door.
When I approach I can hear shuffling on the other side as it goes down the hall and wonder what he is doing. I grip the door handle and take in a deep breath when I slowly open it but see no one except flower petals all over the floor. I smile, wiping my nose when I look down the hall. The petals go as far as I can see in all different colors. I take a step and feel something under my foot when I see a small piece of paper.
“It all started with trying to find a pack...”
I smile when I look back down and see another piece of paper further away so I walk over to it picking it up.
“Then being an idiot for a few days... purposely skipping this part!”
I can’t help but laugh because yeah he was an idiot! I continue walking on top of the petals when I come across another note.
“Then there was a party...”
I spot the next one and quickly walk over picking it up.
“We mated then went for a run... a long run...”
I noticed the pedals still going and wondered how he got this done this quick! I look at the notes and spot the next one and quickly pick it up.
“Then you held our son....”
I noticed while I’m walking that I’m getting closer and closer to our room. I’m too excited to even think about it when I hustle along to the next one quickly picking it up.
“Then came a king and queen...”
I quickly search for the next one and it’s right in front of our open bedroom door.
I just focus on the note and pick it up to read it.
“I would never want anyone else by my side no matter what the circumstances. If you don’t want to come in I will understand but know the door will always be open for you! It will remain open until you are ready.”
I look into the room and just see Killian standing there.
“Jessara I know this will take time, and I’ll wait as long as I need to! No staff will be permitted up here and no one except us two will be in this section of the castle. Guards are outside the main doors and the food will be brought in and left for me to grab. I can leave yours at your door or you can join me here. The coronation is to happen in two days. I will be there, and if you choose to also that is your choice. If you choose not to, it’s understandable. Our other children would like to see you but know now is not the time. Dinner has arrived at the door and I’m wondering where you would like to eat at?”
I can see the hope in his eyes that I will eat with him, and I don’t want to hurt his feelings. He is trying to make me feel comfortable in knowing that what happened doesn’t change anything.
“I will sit at the table you set up.”
I see his eyes light up when he goes over pulling the chair out for me. He waits but when I don’t move he steps away from the chair to go get the food. He slowly walks around me while I make my way to the table sitting down with my hands in my lap. When he dashes down the hall. I hear the tray table rolling with the plates when he walks in rolling it against the table. He sets the food out with the drinks when he sits down looking at me.
He takes the tops off and I stare down at the steak, veggies with dinner rolls. When I see the food I try to smile, but It’s hard to do right now. He picks up his silverware digging in when I just look at my food.
“Are you going to eat?”
I jumped at the sound of his voice and started crying. I cover my face with my trembling hands when he sets his silverware down apologizing.
“I’m so sorry Jessara, I didn’t mean to scare you! I just don’t know what to do or say.”
I try to calm myself down and wipe away the tears and try to grab ahold of my silverware. When he reaches over to try and help I drop everything and place my hands back in my lap. He stops and leans back in his chair looking up at the ceiling. I know he is getting frustrated, and I’m also. I don’t want to be afraid, and know it will take time. I take a deep breath and try again with the silverware. I slowly start cutting my meat and taking bites. I can see him peeking to see what I’m doing, but seems afraid to move.
After a few minutes I hear his stomach growl and let out a small laugh. He laughs as well and moves slowly to pick up his silverware. I stop to keep my eyes on him the whole time and start moving again when I feel it’s ok. It’s not that I don’t trust him, but right now I’m unsure of anything or anyone, mate or not.