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Ayla was curled up on the couch in her office, her face stained with dried-up
tears. I figured she had just thrown herself into her work, her education. To stop
obsessing over Hannah's punishment. Never did I expect her to hide her pain, I
didn’t even realize how bad it was. This had to be more than feeling a bit guilty.
And for some reason, she did not feel like she could share that pain with me. For
some reason I made her feel like she couldn't confide in me.
She must have heard me entering the room as she startled awake. Rubbing her
eyes, before smiling up at me.
“Hey, baby, I'm sorry I'm just so tired.” She sat back up, still pretending to be fine.
I told myself I was not going to probe her to tell me what was up. Before I found
her curled up with a tear-stained face I told myself I was going to let her tell me in
her own time. Now I couldn't anymore. I would always want to comfort her, as her
mate it was my purpose in life. All I wanted was to make her feel happy, safe, and
loved. It was clear she didn't feel like that now, I placed the tray with our food on
her desk and made my way over to her.
“Darling, I can see you have been crying please let me be there for you?” I sat
down pleading with her to let me in.
“You will think it is silly and we have so much more going on.” She sniffled but at
least it wasn’t because she didn’t want to hide things from me.
She just didn’t want to burden me. All I needed to do now was to show her that
she would never burden me. If I could help her carry her
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burdens, as she always helped me carry mine. It's what being mates is all about.
So that is what I tell her, giving her the plate of food in the meantime. Both to
have something to do and not stress out over the fact that I still feel Flet my mate
down. And because I wanted her to
eat.
“I feel guilty about Hannah, which is stu pid because I know she brought this
upon herself. Honestly, it’s not even her I feel guilty of but her pup. What if I
ruined their life before it even started?” I could tell she was holding back another
so b.
Ayla worrying about ruining a pup'’s life. Even if it was their parents who
potentially ruined it.
“Darling, I don't think it is silly. It's so kind and sweet like you are, and it is one of
the reasons why I love you. That being said you did not make the decision the
council did. Dad would have pleaded for Hannah to be executed and the
likelihood of the Council agreeing was high. You gave that little pup a chance at
life when its parents never cared enough to do so. I would have risked everything
to get you and our pup out of a dangerous situation. David just left them behind
like they are nothing to him.” Ayla listened to me while eating her food, something
I said made her stop. Thinking about something before she answered me.
“Because you love me Griff, you are the best mate I could ever wish for. And
you're going to be just as good as a father to our pups” Her hand absentmindedly
rested on her stomach when she told me she trusted me to be a good father.
Making me wonder if deep down inside, she feels she is pregnant. I heard it
happened to women before. It was not the most important thing now. And since
Ayla continued speaking I focussed my attention back on her. And to what she
was saying.
“They never mattered to him, Hannah was a means to an end. I have
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heard him tell her he was sure she would never get pregnant. In his mind, wolves
only could conceive if the Moon Goddess supported their union.” Ayla was
serious but I couldn't help scoff.
How can someone in line to be the next Alpha, who had to have some
education? Be so absolutely stu pid. There was no way he actually believed that
to be true. Ayla convinced me he was, but she never understood it either. That
was why he raped her, he figured she would get pregnant on the first try.
Showing her once and for all that he was meant to be with her.
Ayla had told us about her experiences, and the abuse she suffered. Never what
he told her during the kidnapping. Now she told me all about it. How he forced
her to play a happy couple. How everything he did was to show her that they
were meant to be together. How he was convinced that he could restore the mate
bond by being with her. How guilty she felt for playing along. Even if she had to,
because if she would have he would have only hurt her more.
I was horrified to learn all about what he had done to her. The full extent of what
she had been through. I don’t know why I never asked her about it, maybe I was
scared to find out what she had been through. Maybe it was because, I was
scared. Ayla had told me how much it hurt her to hear the recollections of what I,
our friends, and family had gone through when she was gone.
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It's probably why she didn't tell me
either, she is always trying not to
burden me with her problems. Even
as the future Alpha the pack’s
therapist would never tell me what
she discussed. Rightfully so, Ayla
was the one who had to decide what
she would tell me and what not.
Apart from burdening me with her
problems like she probably figured
was what she would be doing. Even if
it would never feel like that for me. It
must also be hard for her to go over
all the things she went through back
when she was kidnapped. The
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There was nothing I wanted more than to help her deal with all of this,
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But I was in way over my head. I
could not help her, I could be there
for her, I could support her, and
continue to show her I loved her. But
she needed professional help to deal
with all of this. After one of the first
session, she told me the therapist
had figured out she was still dealing
with the emotional effects of David
not only rejecting her. But the
betrayal that took place when he
betrayed her, and the bullying after. I
hated seeing how my strong mate
had to suffer so much. How she had
to use her strength to overcome her
past. She was great at it, maybe even
a little too great. Now people
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“Darling, I want you to know you can
always tell me everything. Nothing
you can say or do would make me
love you less. My purpose as your
mate is to help you carry all of your
burdens just as you are doing for me.
Still, there is only so much I can to to
help you and I do think you need help
to deal with all of this. Not because
you are weak, but because what you
have gone through is just too much
to bear for anyone” I told her hugging
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