The Luna's Hidden Destiny

(Mila)

I stood in the shower, letting the hot water trickle down my body as I hung my head. My hands clenched into fists as I tried so damn hard to push this rage down. It was unrelenting and blazing like wildfire as the heat began to consume me. Those flames licking at these invisible gaping wounds that can only be healed by my mate. By the man that knows me inside and out..the one who completes me in every way possible.

Glancing up I turned the water to cold, the heat causing me to pant as I crouched down and hugged my knees, letting my hair cascade around me as I looked at the water swirling down the drain. What was happening to me? I felt this once before..but it never touched this level..maybe because the grief of watching my mate die overshadowed any anger I felt. This though..this was unavoidable..I felt it taking over every inch, every nerve..It was becoming unbearable.

‘Mila, we have to do something, we can’t sit here and wait!’

Calypso growled, her patience completely gone now as she paced back and forth in my mind. The action driving me crazy from the constant movement. I couldn’t handle anything else..I was hanging by a thread.

“We can’t..we promised Rowan.”

I gritted through my teeth, shutting my eyes tight as I tried to breathe steadily.

‘No! Every second that passes we risk the chance of him being killed. Then there is no life worth living..there is nothing for us..absolutely NOTHING!’

Calypso snarled, her teeth subconsciously baring as she began to pant. I threw my hands up, slapping my palms over my ears as if it would stop her voice from infiltrating my mind.

‘Please..just..just let me think.’

I whimpered, rocking back and forth as the war within me began to rage

I have never felt so much anger and confusion in my life..and I was honestly scared..I was afraid of what I would do..I was afraid of what I did do. I killed her without a second thought..I watched her life slip away right beneath my hands and I felt no remorse..I felt nothing. If anything I felt relief, knowing that woman would never hurt Rowan again.

‘I am done sitting..I am done hiding. Don’t you feel it Mila? The power we possess..’

Calypso was mad at me..I could tell she was about to take control and I wasn’t ready yet..I didn’t know what she would do if someone tried to stop us..which I knew they would. She could go blind with rage..

‘Coward.’

She hissed as I put up that block..her words making me cry as I knew they were true..I didn’t know what to do..I felt so lost.

I sat in the shower for another twenty minutes, finally cooling myself down as I took a deep shuddering breath. Gathering every ounce of strength I have left to stand and turn the water off.

“Be strong..you can do this..” I told myself as I went to get dressed, pulling on one of Rowan’s hoodies and a pair of black leggings. I needed his scent with me..it calmed me, soothed me..tethered me to this world when I felt like I was slipping from reality.

As I went to slide on my shoes, I heard a soft knock at the door. Sadie went to speak with Tristan so I thought it might be her returning but as soon as I got closer to the door, I knew who it was.

Grandpa Felix Scott..I hadn’t seen him since that day I woke up and felt too upset to visit him again. I didn’t want to burden him with my feelings..I didn’t want to burden anyone.

“My girl, how are you?” He greeted me before pulling my body flush against his chest and giving me a tight hug. My body melted beneath his touch as I felt the warmth of comfort radiating off of him.

I gripped his neatly pressed shirt in my hands and didn’t speak, knowing if I did those tears would come flooding out.

“Come, let’s sit.” He whispered, tucking me into his side as he walked me towards the couch and rubbed my back in a soothing motion.

After sitting down, we sat for a few moments in silence..the feeling of Grandpa Scott being here made the air more breathable as I was feeling somewhat in control of my emotions again.

“I’m sorry.” I breathed shakily, fluttering my eyes open as I met his piercing blue-grey gaze. Felix Scott had such kind eyes..ones that make you feel warm and fuzzy..ones that make you feel like you could trust him with anything.

“My girl, don’t be sorry for feeling..never apologize for that.” He stated before brushing a loose lock of hair out of my eyes and smiled down at me sadly.

“If you felt nothing at all..that is when we should be worried.” He added, wiping a stray tear from my cheek that managed to escape.

“Grandpa..what..what do you think I should do?” I whispered, hoping he had all of the answers..wishing he would know exactly what to do or say.

Grandpa Scott glanced towards the door before placing his finger to his lips, motioning for me to be quiet.

‘Sweetheart, you know what you have to do.’

He spoke gently into my mind, making my brows furrow as I studied his expression carefully.

‘What does your heart tell you to do? Your wolf Calypso?’

He asked curiously, his hand reaching for mine as he squeezed it softly.

‘She..she wants to find him..to go out on our own.’

I admitted, studying his handsome face as he nodded softly. Not seeming fazed or upset by my confession.

‘And you? What do you want to do?’

His blue eyes bore into me, making my heart race as his question swirled around me. What did I want to do..I knew without a doubt what I wanted to do..I wanted my Rowan..I wanted to find him and save him.

Without me even answering, I could tell Grandpa knew. Pulling my hand to his chest, he held me carefully, glancing towards the door once more before returning my gaze.

‘Then what are you waiting for? If anyone can find him..it’s you, my girl. And you don’t have to go alone..she is loyal to you..she will help you find him.’

He added, making me glance towards the door now, realizing Sadie had returned. She did say she would follow me…is this the right thing to do? I knew deep down it was the only way..I don’t want to sit back any longer..I don’t want these people around me to suffer any longer. There is a reason Ozzy wants me and I am determined to find out. I don’t want any more of my friends or family to suffer because of me..if they got hurt, I couldn’t live with myself.

I nodded my head to Grandpa Scott as he returned the gesture.

‘Tonight, you must go as soon as possible. Follow your heart and listen to the bond. I will handle everything else. There will be a car waiting outside to take you out of the territory. You can do this..you are so much stronger than you know my girl..you have something in you that you need to embrace..don’t fight it. Listen to it and follow your heart..promise me you will never doubt it.’

He looked at me with such conviction I found myself nodding my head as I heard the door open softly, my eyes meeting Sadie’s as she stared at me as if she knew.. I could see it in the way she moved..in the way her eyes darted to Grandpa’s and back to me. Sadie was the key to this..she saved me once before and I knew without a doubt she would stay by my side no matter what..But if her life is in danger at any point..I knew deep down I wouldn’t risk it. I will keep her and Rowan safe and end this on my own.

‘I promise Grandpa, I promise I will find him and bring him home..’

I whispered into the link, and as if my words were the map unfolding right before my eyes, I began to feel that tug on our bond..that string pulling deep inside of me like it was waiting all this time..waiting for me to make this decision and waiting to lead me to the man I love so damn much.

This was all or nothing for me..either way, I knew it would be the end. If he died…I die..so why not risk it all? Why not do what my heart has been telling me..what my wolf has been telling me.

‘We leave at midnight.’

I linked Sadie, watching as those aqua eyes gleamed with excitement. Was she waiting for me to come to this conclusion too? It has been three days and that has been long enough. I have wasted more than enough time and I refuse to wait any longer. The time is now..I’m done sitting back and waiting..I’m done being weak. That much I know..