The Last Royal Luna

It was close to 11 when I sent Blake on his way. I kept falling asleep and I knew if I let myself I would have him stay to hold me. I miss them all but I need to fix my heart and forgive them before they all hop back in bed with me. I keep telling myself to just forgive them and that what they did wasn’t that bad but it is hard. I fear people leaving me after losing my parents and learning that only a handful of people knew who I truly was. For the longest time that it installed this fear that no one will accept the real me. I need them to always want, need, accept, and claim the real me no matter what. I need to explain it all to them but it is hard.

I should of just had Blake stay because I can’t sleep to save my life. I just think of everything that I have been through and everything that has happened to the people around me. It makes me keep crying and I hate seeming weak like this. It is better than being angry right now with how I have been acting.

‘Hey are any of you awake?’ I link the guys.

‘It is too hard to sleep without you. Why does it sound like you have been crying?’ Knox asked. His sleepy voice is deep and raspy.

‘I am sorry for everything I have said and done today. I love you all so much.’ Blue is whining in my head wanting her mates.

‘We are the ones who are sorry. We will never leave you and never not want you. You are the world to us.’ Asher linked back.

‘Can you all come to my room? I need to be the middle of a doggy pile asap.’ I barely got the link out before I heard door slamming across the floor and several pairs of feet running toward my room.

I answered the door laughing my a*s off at the guys. Some of them must have been naked because the clothes they threw on looks crazy. One had a dress shirt with sleep pants and another a sweater with swim shorts. “Ok get naked and get in bed where you can.” I ran and jumped into the middle of the bed waiting for them.

I woke up expecting to be in the middle of a doggy pile while still feeling sleepy and it being morning. I did not expect to wake up at three am to a phone call from Charles. He saw a few vampires around the town they are in that do not belong there. He is sure they are going to find them within days so they need to meet soon. I agree to late afternoon so we can still see some training before heading out. I made sure he knew I didn’t have a plan in place just yet on where they were all going but I would speak with the guys in the actual morning and figure it out. He thanked me and he was glad we had worked it out. His leader is nervous about meeting but is willing to go in unarmed so I agree to do so as well.

The next time I woke up it was to the door banging at six am and it was the Beta’s mate, Sarah who looked super pissed. I put my head down and took a deep breath before opening the door the rest of the way. I heard the guys moving around so hopefully they would interrupt all this nonsense. I was over females getting pissed at me. I need my friends back around me so I know not all females be crazy.

“Good morning, Sarah. What can I help you with?” I smiled at her. I am ignoring the steam coming out of her ears.

“Who do you think you are telling my mate he has to go with you to meet vampires?”

“Umm.. What?” I had no clue what this girl was talking about.

“You heard me. He told me how when you meet up with these vamps, who you trust like a ignorant person would, he and the Alpha have to go with you. Why should they have to protect you? You have enough mates so they should be able to handle it. Isnt that the reason the goddess made you such a w***e?” Yup. Sarah has been talking to Karen and I am going to have to kill them both.

‘Alpha. Send your Beta to my room to get his mate before I tear her into tiny little pieces. Also I don’t want you or the Beta at my meeting with the vamps. Thanks.’ I linked Alpha Roger.

‘What the hell is Sarah doing now? He is on his way, as am I. I know you don’t want us there but I think it would be good for us to go as well that way we can all be on the same page. I want to be able to trust vampires and witches again. So I think this is a good start to that as long as it pans out.’ He sounded out of breath so he must be running here.

“Your mate and your Alpha are on their way to deal with your s**t. It is too early and I have not had any coffee to deal with your a*s.” I started to shut the door but she put her foot in the way. I was half tempted to just shut on her foot and break it.

“Ryder… Just open the door and I will get rid of her.” Asher put his arms around me and kissed my cheek. Good thing he is cute or id shut his foot in the door next. I opened it back up and let him stand in front of me to deal with her.

I told the guys I was going to take a shower and that I would be ready for a big breakfast with them after. I know we were going down to the dining room where a lot of the pack eats so I was excited to see all the different members. I rubbed Asher’s back listening for just a minute of their conversation and almost shoved him to the side to take her out with the way she was speaking to him. She is not better than him and she is lower on the pack hierarchy so she should know to respect him. I had to walk away so that he knew I trusted in him to handle it.

I heard the Alpha and Beta get there right as the water got hot. I could tell it was getting heated out there but I couldn’t focus on it. The twins decided to join me for the shower but I made sure they knew it was only to get clean. There would be no dirty business this morning. They whined a little but got over it. I felt so much better afterwards from the love I got and the feeling of melting off the bad energy from yesterday.