Chapter "I'll never come back to you again"
This bright light was hitting my face, who opened my curtains, I groaned internally. I tried to open my eyes but I did not even have the energy to do that. Something was poked into my one hand and someone was holding the other.
I tried to move it, “Enna, hey can you hear me” I heard my brother’s voice. I tried to answer but my throat was so dry I could not say anything. I tried to open my eyes but it was too bright I immediately shut them. I heard the sound of the curtains getting pulled.
“Try to open your eyes now sorellina”, Liam said. I opened them slowly. Liam was standing there, he looked so tired there were bags under his eyes. “Hey how are you feeling”, he asked. I looked around a drip was injected in my hand. There was water on the bedside. “Water” I tried to say in a cracked voice.
He quickly poured some in a glass and helped me drink. With his help I sat, I looked at myself there were a lot of bandages on me. “Are you okay”, Liam asked me once again. “Jayson was also hurt, is he okay”, I asked. “Yes”, he said. “Did the other guy tell you who sent them”, I asked him.
He had a grim look on his face and he gave me a brief nod. I knew what it meant. I closed my eyes and rested my head against the wall. “Did he tell where he is now”, I asked. “No”, Liam said, “but it’s over now, they’re dead” he added. “You know it’s never over brother, I should have moved away when you first said it”, I said.
“Enna you need to see Jayson”, he said. I am dying to do that, I thought. “I don’t think so Li”, I said. “He’s been coming daily to ask about you, he asks to just see you once but you said not to let him come to you so we don’t allow him”, he told me.
I wish I could tell him how much I want him to be here with me. I know me pushing him away is hurting him as well, I wish I could make him mine forever. I took in deep breaths because my throat was tightening and my heart was aching. I don’t want to cry in front of Liam, I am already burdening him enough.
“Where’s Becky”, I asked Liam hoping to divert both of your minds. “She went to buy some medicines” he paused because we heard the door to our house open. “She’s back” he smiled. We heard her coming upstairs to my room, “baby I got” she stopped when she saw me sitting on the bed.
She put everything aside and sat next to me. I could see she was equally tired and stressed, tears were welling up in her eyes. “Look who’s alive” I joked. She threw herself on me and hugged me really tight. “Oomph looks like you want to kill me”, I said in a painful voice because every part of my body still hurts.
“Stop saying shit like that”, she said crying but loosened her grip on me. When she pulled back, I said, “hey I’m fine, see just some scratches”. She wiped her face “why do you do that to me, you know I almost had a heart attack when I saw you in Li’s arms”. “Oh, I knew you would keep me alive” I winked at her.
“I’ll beat you to death someday”, she said making me laugh. “Don’t make me laugh it hurts”, I said. “How long have I been out by the way”, I asked her. “Well I sedated you because I knew once you’re awake you’ll do stupid things again, so yeah almost a week” she answered. “Are you kidding me, why is it taking so long for me to heal”, I asked her.
She shared a look with my brother, they both looked worried. “I don’t know Enna; you were hurt pretty bad. Your whole stomach and chest were open. I could see your heart” she said. I scrunched my nose “that sounds disgusting, sorry you had to fix that up”. She laughed at this. “But still, sedation should not work on me to that extent”, I asked.
“Enna there’s something you need to know; I mean I’m not sure but this is all I could conclude”, she said. Before I could say anything, Liam said “we can do all that later, you need to rest now”. “I can see the worry dripping from your face brother, tell me what’s wrong”, I asked him. Both of them were quiet, “come on tell me, I’m fine now, tell me” I said.
Becky held my hand “Enna, I-I think that it’s like your lycan’s not helping your body to heal”. I was confused “what do you mean Becks, I don’t think this ever happens”. She sighed “I know it doesn’t but I think it’s because you are rejecting your mate”. I did not know what to say, I have never heard anything like that before.
I was lost in my thought; I did not hear what Becky said after that. “Enna are you listening to us”, she said again. “I’m sorry, what”, I said. “Sorellina we think you need to meet Jayson, that will help you heal better”, Liam said.
“I’m not meeting with anybody; I don’t care if I don’t heal”, I said in a raised tone. Before they could argue I quickly added, “I’ve decided, we’re leaving this place. We’d go back to Italy or anywhere else but we’re leaving this place as soon as it can be arranged”.
“You’re not in your right mind Enna, we’re not going anywhere not until you’re completely healed at least”, Liam said. “I’m completely in my right mind Liam”, I said. “I’ll not allow you to make such a stupid decision because I can literally see your future if it’s not with your mate” he shouted at me and left my room.
“What happened when you went to meet him that day Enna”, Becky asked me. I closed my eyes thinking about it, him holding a knife. “He knew everything already”, I said, my eyes still closed. “What do you mean”, Becky asked.
I looked at her and smiled trying to not cry “he knew everything for a long time but he didn’t come to me as he promised. When he saw me in his room that night, he grabbed a knife as his defense because my mate was scared of me”. Becky’s eyes widened and tears started falling from her eyes.
“I’m so sorry Enna”, she said. “But you have to give him another chance, I know his actions hurt you but he’s a human, it’s natural that he got scared. You can’t let him go for this” she added. I chuckled “you don’t understand love. I’m not mad at him or upset with how he reacted”.
“I mean at that moment yes I was, it hurt more than when that guy tried to rip my heart out. But he followed me out when I left. I was so lost in my emotions that I forgot about those men outside his house. He followed me because I left and that put his life in danger”.
“The only thing going on in my mind when Liam told me that they were after us was, if something happened to him and I’m left behind to live without him, just the thought was killing me. That very moment I decided that I’m leaving this place as soon as it’s over”.
“Don’t do this Enna, you won’t be able to live without him” she cried. “At least he will” I smiled at her. “You’re being stupid Enna” she raised her voice. “What would you do if it was about your mate’s life”, I asked her.
She did not say anything because she knows there is nothing more important for us when it’s about our mate’s life. “There has to be another way”, she said to herself and left me alone in my room.
The moment she left tears started falling from my eyes. It was like everything inside me broke down. The wounds were hurting less than the ache I was feeling in my heart.
My phone was on the side table and the notification light was blinking. I picked my phone and saw there were hundreds of texts and voice messages from Jayson and V.
I played one of the voice messages from Jay. “Amore, I know I hurt you but please give me another chance. I was confused, please tell your brother to let me meet you” his voice boomed from my phone.
I could feel the pain in his voice. I know he’s hurting as much as I am. I don’t know how I will be able to leave him. I listened to all of his messages and cried more with each one. I fell asleep with his voice playing in my mind.
I woke up to this intoxicating fragrance in my room. When I opened my eyes, I saw he was sitting at my bedside, looking at me. He looked tired and stressed, his hair was tousled but he still managed to look breathtaking. Is this a dream, was my first thought. I raised my hand to touch him, he held it and kissed the back of my hand.
The sparks, the tingles, his scent all of it was too real to be a dream. “Are you a dream”, I asked him. He smiled sadly at me, “how are you, Amore”. I was sure now that I was not dreaming but I told my brother to not let him see me.
I pulled my hand from his grip and I could see the hurt in his eyes. I managed to sit on my own and called out my brother’s name. He rushed to my room. I got up from my bed using all the strength in me, “what are you doing Amore” Jay asked worriedly.
I did not react to him and kept staring at my brother. I took wobbly steps towards him and said in a threatening tone “I thought I told you that I don’t want to meet anyone brother”. “Don’t be silly Enna and sit down you’re not healed enough to move” he said.
“I asked you something” I growled and pushed him to the wall. I was really weak, just one move from Liam, and I won’t be able to get up again. But I was really angry, “because even your brother understands that you can’t leave me without giving me another chance” Jay shouted.
My eyes widened hearing that. It only fuelled my anger, “it was not your place to tell him, Liam you can’t make decisions for me” I shouted at him. Becky also came running to the room. She rushed towards me “shit Enna, what the hell are you doing, if your wounds open it’ll make things worse”.
“Did you know about all this”, I asked her. I could see the answer on her face, “even after I told you how I was feeling” I said in a very low whisper. “Enna I’m doing this for you, leaving him won’t do you any good” Liam said.
“And staying here won’t do him any good. You bastard, his safety means more than anything to me. If it was about your mate wouldn’t you do the same” I shouted at him? He did not say anything because he knows he’d do it.
“You can mark”, “don’t you dare say that right now, I’m not ruining his life like that” I hissed. “Enna please, you’re bleeding, you need to lie down right now” Becky came to me and grabbed my arm but I pushed her away. Anger flashed in my brother’s eyes.
I smirked “getting what I mean dear brother. I love her more than anything but just a slight push makes you angry, how should I feel then”. “Enough Amore” Jayson shouted, “you don’t have to be so mean to them, I asked to see you once. If you hate me so much then fine, I’ll go never come back to you again”.
Everybody stilled hearing his voice. This is what I wanted, I wanted him to leave by his choice. Then why does it hurt so much when he actually said it. Why does it feel like my whole world collapsed, why does it feel like I won’t ever be able to breathe again?