SWNOVELS Chapter Plans Change
Even though I lived the last few years thinking that I was going to be forced to take over a pack that had no interest in being lead by me, I fought to make a difference. I wanted to take all their doubts and shove them in their faces and make them see that I wasn't just a pretty face but that I could do a better job than my father.
However, their resistance was due to lies and injustice passed down for centuries that no one ever had the nerve to challenge. Then again, they were content with it and no one had ever been harmed by the way they were ruled which was another reason to leave things be. My ego was the one taking the hit and if there was one thing people didn't appreciate, it was an Alpha who was full of pride and refused to listen to their people.
Those were two things my father never did, at least not that I noticed while I was growing up and yet he still did an amazing job with the tasks he was given. He was fair but stern with just the right mix of empathy thrown in, which was the total opposite of my characteristics. I was rash, brazen and sarcastic and I hated when people tried to call me out on things.
Maybe this dream enlightening was a good thing, maybe I was starting to understand why I wouldn't be a good leader after all, and instead should be on the sidelines like my mother always was. And maybe Anderson was right, I would never be able to handle all these problems without going mad. Even though it hurt me to come to this decision, I think I would be best for me and my father's pack to part ways.
My eyes flickered open as streams of light danced in my window. The sun was shining and everything seemed peaceful, calm, like all my worries drifted away with the early morning fog and I was finally seeing clearly. I rushed to the bathroom and had a quick shower before running downstairs to grab some breakfast.
I noticed everyone looking at me as I hummed cheerfully to a song in my head while biting into an apple. Noticing that they weren't going to stop glaring, I wiped the juice from my lips and smiled.
"Good morning everyone. Isn't the sun gorgeous? Mother nature sure has blessed us with a beautiful canvas to start our day." I skipped to the front door and opened it before walking out onto the front porch.
I heard footsteps behind me as I jumped off the front step and continued munching on the delicious red fruit in my hand. I felt someone grab my elbow and pull slightly making me stop in my tracks.
"Ok. Who are you and what have you done with our friend?" Mik said as she looked around as if another version of me would suddenly appear out of thin air and hit her in the arm.
"What are you talking about silly? It's me, Ember, your best friend, the same girl you grew up with your whole life."
"Uh, yeah, you look like Ember but you're acting like Mrs. Rogers." She said with a huff as her and Kam stared at me in awe.
I doubled over in a deep belly laugh as tears streamed down my face. I knew what she meant but I felt so free from trying to be someone that I wasn't that obviously it was confusing everyone that I knew.
Standing back up, I looked at them both and couldn't help the happiness I had felt from the moment I woke up this morning.
"Honestly, it is me. I had the most amazing awakening last night while I was asleep and I think it may have changed everything. I don't want to be Alpha anymore." I said as I watched both their jaws hit the ground.
Turning on my heel, I continued biting into my apple as I walked towards Bishop's pack. Now was the time I faced my inadequacies and found out if he truly loved me and wanted me to be with him. Ever since he started teaching me his Alpha ways, I had a strong feeling that it was helping him step back into his role as well but just in case he still had his doubts, maybe offering to be his Luna would give him the last push he needed to take back over.
Before I could reach the border, I got pulled back again by my best friend.
"What do you mean you don't want to be Alpha anymore?"
"I changed my mind. That's all." I shrugged my shoulders as she peered at me.
"You can't just give up like that, think about all your hard work, all the time you spent trying to prove to your father that you should be running the pack after he steps down. Think about how we always said the three of us would make huge changes and now you're saying you changed your mind?"
The anger rolling off of her was so strong it made me furious but I knew she was wanting a better answer than what I gave her and I would explain but first I needed to talk to my mate and see if there was still a possibility of a future with him.
"Mik, I know you want an explanation and I will give it to you, to both of you, but I need to talk to Bishop right now." I gave them both a pleading look hoping that the mention of my mate would somehow hit home to them.
They both nodded and Mik said, "Go talk to him and make sure this is what you really want before you agree to forever with him. I may not be the best at relationships but I understand the need to be with your mate, hell I never wanted him but here I am giving it a try and so should you. And whatever decision you make, we will be right there with you, always."
She gave me a hug then released me letting me walk into the woods. They will never know how much strength they give me and how much I depend on them.
When I passed through the clearing, my skin began to tingle and the smell of oak and musk invaded my senses taking my breath away. I closed my eyes and reveled in the feeling as my fingertips began to vibrate with his closeness. He brushed my hair off my shoulders with his hands then planted a soft kiss on my shoulder.
"Back so soon?"
His deep voice did wonders to my body, filling me with need and desire. He circled around me, no doubt taking in the smell of my arousal, then stopped in front of me lifting up my chin. Opening my eyes, I stared into his deep brown gaze and melted.
"I never want to leave, Bishop. I want to stay here, with you, forever." I leaned in and waited for him to bend down and just before his lips met mine I said, "What do you say? Make me your Luna, please!"
So she really is happy with her new decision, but will everyone be as happy as she is?
Mik and Kam are every girls dream of a best friend. They are the epitome of a true support system and I can honestly say, if it weren't for those two keeping her grounded, she would have been dead by now.
HOLY GEEZ! What do you think Bishop will say? Will he be happy that she wants to be his or will he push her away again? And does he even want to be Alpha again?