SWNOVELS Chapter 6
I came back later to watch her sleep, I wished it was this easy for all of us. In less than twenty-four hours, she has made a dent in my life already.
She had a nightmare earlier and watching the CCTV footage of how she pleaded for a certain Alpha not to kill her shredded me into pieces.
She didn't deserve any of this, no human deserves to go through things like this but this life was unfair to everyone. I wanted to hold her in her sleep and watch her take each breath like they were precious but I was scared of her reaction. I didn't want to scare her off, I wanted to take things slowly with her. We are going to be together forever and there's no need to rush things.
She tossed around and when she finally opened her eyes, my breath hitched. I was supposed to go out of there so I don't trigger another of her episodes but I couldn't bring myself to walk out. I wanted to be there for her during every stage. She wasn't letting me do this for her, she wasn't allowing me to be there for her. It hurts more than anything else and I don't know what to do.
I hated my helplessness more than I hated the fact that I could only stare at my mate after years of waiting for her.
I took the seat close to the bed and I watched her shift uncomfortably, I didn't like the feeling one bit. I was going to do this with her slowly and I really hoped it worked out.
I tried to take her hand and this time she didn't flinch away from me.
She stared at me emotionless, as if she couldn't care what else would happen. When I touched her, she didn't react like she did the first time and my heart clenched.
I proceeded without getting discouraged. Not even this neutral facade would stop me from being with my mate.
We already established the fact that I was the Alpha here and she wasn't going anywhere until she understood we were mated and we would be forever.
The way she stared emotionless scared the crap out of me, almost like I was dealing with a robot.
I didn't want this for her or myself, every one of her acts hurt me deeper than I wanted. Never for once have I thought we would reduce to this.
I didn't know a single action of a person would turn me into a dunce. I hated this feeling of being powerless.
"You have to be present for Luna training every morning after breakfast..." Edna was speaking and Maya stood up before walking out of her sitting area and she proceeded to walk towards the door.
She has been acting aloof since we told her everything and everyone was hanging barely on a thin thread.
"Don't you dare walk out on me this instant? What the hell is wrong with you? Do you think you're the only one affected by all of this?
Stop acting like a coward and get your life together." Edna screamed and I recoiled at the way she sounded.
No one deserved to be shouted at
like that but Maya had been getting on everyone's nerves. I low-key waited for Maya's reaction because one minute, you could tell what she would do and the next moment, she was practically unpredictable.
"How about you lead the way by getting some damn manners bitch. Don't fucking yell at me" She replied before she walked out of the building,
Edna stood up in a flash and I placed my hand over hers. She didn't need to go after her or do anything to her. Maya was still healing and we all knew that.
It was a huge change in her life and she wasn't taking it the right way. Maybe we needed to try another routine without her getting jumbled up.
"What if Y'all are actually doing it the
wrong way. This lady is new to all of these, she has known nothing but pains all her life. She lashed out at you because you thought she would be comfortable with that emotional manipulation of the goddess Knowing what she was doing. Guess what?
Not everyone is a fan of the goddess and a bonus point is that she grew up in a monastery and those nuns rarely believed in the goddess. I was raised in a monastery too. Let her breathe and take things to step by step and You'd see how much of a great result it will yield,"
Daniel said and Edna turned to look at him sharply. She looked like she wanted to rip him to shreds with her claws and the only thing he did was shrug his shoulders. Daniel wasn't scared of anyone. "How do I take things slowly when she's not even giving me a chance to be with her?" I found myself asking and Daniel clicked his tongue again,
he was about to give me an earful when he finished. I know that too well. Teacher Daniel mode activated.
"Be her friend first, pretend as if you're not mates at all. Act as if you don't know you are going to spend the rest of your lives together and try to get to know her properly.
Allow her to trust you and let her feel the mate bond without pressure from you or anyone. If possible, suspend the Luna lessons and watch her slowly warm up to you. Tell her random things you don't tell anyone and You'd see her trusting you gradually." Daniel replied and I was elated,
everything he listed sounded easy but it was going to take a lot of time. If pretending as if we weren't mated would make her trust me then I'm willing to try it out.