One Sided Love

Alex

-Fuck.... there is seriously something wrong with me.... I can't control n lust n anger when ever im with kate... she bring the best n worse in me.... but still if something happen to kate by my action I would have never forgive myself ..... she looked so scared of me like im going to kill her baby... damn those feelings kill me...

Shawn enter the room n looked a little disturbed n said

'what happen to kate she is not looking good may be you should...' may be he looked into my expression n realized im the one who upset kate

He said ' man! What the hell is wrong with you if you hate her so much then dont marry her... but fucking realized that she is pregnant with your child whom you are clearly abandoning before the birth.... you r such a bastard'

I looked to him' shawn dont fucking start I know what im doing n you r my lawyer so fucking support me'

He said 'I wish I wasn't your lawyer.... the fucked up thing do did in prenup is beyond unacceptable n how can you fucking disown your unborn child.... what's the baby fault dude.... for god sake looked at your actions n think what r you doing to this child'

I replied 'I don't want this baby ... I never wanted this ... emma is my only child she deserves everything .... Emily was my world n I lost her but emma is only thing left of Emily I will never fucking share myself with other baby.... she is my first priority not that baby' I know im acting as a cruel bastard but that truth I can lose emma.

Shawn looked disgusted with me n said that its time to look after the marriage thing

When I enter the office I looked kate father's was there n having a word with kate... welk honestly it was looking he was accusing kate again about something the way kate was listening with broken expression ... at that moment I felt to go n defend her but I stop myself n thing its not a moment... when I wss closer to then I heard kate father's saying

'good riddance' ' whore of a mother' ' a disappointment'.... by looking at kate I can imagine that it was truly killing her... never understand why can't he accept kate his own daughter ... n then I thought this is exactly i was doing with my unborn baby.

The next hours was blur we got married...signed some documents ... kate father's hug me n completely ignored her.. my mother telling kate to eat something ... then kate n me were sitting in the car and going to fucking home sweet home. Kate

I was so tired with today happening that felt I sick... after my incident with Alex.. I try to keep quite in the car n looked outside the window....Alex was also tense but I don't know about what now....so I didn't bother him....when we reached home I stood awkwardly in the lounge no idea in which room we r going to stay.... Alex want to cabinet n made a drink for himself n keep looking me very strangely... he came closer to me then slightly run a finger in my cheeks by then he looked behind me n his expression changes and he become again heartless angry man ... when i looked behind what he saw that makes him so angry... it was the large picture of Emily n Alex wedding day displayed in the sitting area.... he said

'your room is ready it is two door next to emmas.. go n have rest... the maid will do the unpacking of your stuff tomorrow'

I was little confused he said my room does he mean he will still stay at his old room not with me.... will sometime I really want to laugh at my thoughts that why would he want to share a room with me... im just an unwanted wife... a disappointment like my father said Alex said ' dnt stand here like that, look Kate today my emotions are every where so plz dnt test my patience

I moved to my new room, without my husband... so that's how I start my new journey. 00000000