Chapter 11- If Only...
Sabrina’s POV
"Allow me to turn him, so he can live a long life, to never age like you and you can be with him after raising the kids that you don't want to have with Aiden," Cayden says to me and I throw a book at him, which he catches with his fast reflexes.
"Get out. GET OUT!" I scream and he walks out with his hands in his pockets. Always finding an opportunity in people's misery.
How my sister finds him loveable is beyond me at this point.
"Just think about it. I know, poor timing and all." Cayden's face pops up from my door.
"I will never make him do that. He is a proud wolf and I respect that about him." I say.
"Have you asked him if he will do that for you?" Cayden asks me and I shake my head no.
"I can never ask him of that. I will never ask him to do something I would never do. What would be worse about turning into a vampire, is answering to you. You just want to make him one of your hybrids and I will not allow it. Get out of my face with that bullshit!" I say and I shut my door.
Cayden was a determined old man but this was not the direction to go. I want to be with Xander...
I would give anything to be with him but there is no way I would have him turn himself into a vampire to be with me.
Being with him has brought so many obstacles in my way. It has not been easy even when it soothes my soul to be in his arms. Even when the world seems like a better place, like I can take on the day and win in his arms, I still have to fight daily. Not just any problems but to be with him.
I would take a fight with many women, fighting constantly for his affection over this. I would wake up geared and ready to beat every bitch but this is the kind of bitch I can't seem to shake down. to defeat. She keeps on rising, promising me another day of agony until I finally give up, like right now.
I have given up on him, on our love.
I sent him packing without fighting, without asking questions, and trying to find a way to save him.
A short time with him is not enough to experience his love, eternity can never be enough. I need my whole life and more to feel a little satiated, to feel him.
Now all I have are memories.
A life cut short because of the family I was born into... So if this was the end, then I was going to say goodbye properly. I would go down to see the love of my life, one last time.