Never Have I Ever: Wanted my Brother’s Rival

“Are you ready for the special surprise I told you about?” Eli grinned at the camera, his eyes bright with genuine happiness.

The chat was filled with messages, but I kept my attention on my boyfriend.

He was sitting on my bed, wearing one of my old dress shirts. The material was worn, and the thing was big on me, so it hung off him like a dress.

I loved how he always made a point to wear something of mine while he was working. We’d never discussed it, but I kept my dresser stocked with options when he came over on the weekends.

He also had quite the collection of my shirts and sweaters in his room, and knowing he was wearing my clothes when I wasn’t around was way more arousing than it should have been.

“Today is going to be a bit different.” Eli tilted his head so a lock of his hair fell over one eye. “Once I hit my strip goal, I’m going to use my new toy.” He chuckled as his eyes flicked over the screen, reading the comments. “No, not the tentacle dick. Girthy is good, but that thing is more than I can handle on a regular Friday night.”

He reached for something off cam. “This is what I’m going to be using.” He brandished the dildo I’d made for him, waving it like a sword so the silicone flopped back and forth comically.

“I got it today and haven’t had a chance to use it yet, but something tells me it’s going to be amazing.” He shot the camera a secret smile that warmed my chest.

Ding.

The soft chime alerted the cammer they’d received a tip. I kept the option on so I didn’t have to watch the chat to know when someone tipped him.

“Thank you, Suzanna.” He put the toy down and got up on his knees. “You want to know about the auction, huh?” He slipped the top button free.

Someone asked this every show without fail. Until now, Eli had been vague and said he and the winner were still working out the details. I’d opened a new account I only used with him so I could watch anonymously and hadn’t touched my old account since the flood. He was the only one I wanted to watch.

Ding.

“Thank you, Gerryberry.” He slipped the second button free and shot the camera a crooked grin. “Yes, I’m back at my friend’s house this weekend.”

Ding.

“Thank you, Jayjay. No issues at my place anymore. I just like spending my weekends here.” He undid another button.

Ding.

“Thank you, Jolene, love your song.” He winked.

Ding.

He chuckled and undid two more buttons. “Trust me when I say you don’t want me to sing it to you. My little brother puts his hand over my mouth when we sing ‘Happy Birthday’ at home. I can’t carry a tune to save my life.”

Ding.

“Thank you, Suzanna. Right, the auction.” He slipped the last button free and stripped off the shirt, revealing a tiny pair of sheer boy shorts that barely contained his dick.

He sat back on his heels. “The winner and I came to an agreement.”

Ding.

“Thank you, Suzanna. The agreement is between us, but I can tell you I’m not a virgin anymore.”

Pride surged through me at his announcement, and even I couldn’t ignore the wall of messages filling his chat as people expressed both curiosity and outrage.

“I’m dating someone.”

Eli had asked what he should share about our relationship with his viewers after the epic blow job that had ended with me bent over the couch while he ate me out like it was his job to make me come as hard and fast as possible.

When my brain had come back online, I’d told him it was up to him. I didn’t want to interfere with his work, and I trusted him not to share anything that could identify me.

“It’s new, and I really like him. So yeah, not a virgin anymore.”

Ding.

“Thanks, Farmerbobby.” He got up on his knees again and stroked his dick through the shorts. “But my partner isn’t in the business, so any personal details about him or our relationship is off-limits.”

Ding.

“Thank you, Oddball. And no, partnered content isn’t something I’m interested in doing.”

Ding.

“Thanks, Oddball. But you’re wrong. My partner didn’t forbid me from doing it. I’ve chosen not to.” He sat back on his heels, a serious look clouding his features.

“I know this is like breaking the fourth wall and ruining the fantasy, but I also think it’s important to share information because it can help people. I’ve decided not to do partnered content because I’ve learned I don’t enjoy anonymous sex. For years I thought there was something wrong with me because I didn’t feel attraction the way I thought I should.” He paused, his eyes moving quickly as he scanned the screen. “I’m not sure if demi is the right label for me. I’m not sure if any label fits, to be honest. But I do know there’s nothing wrong with me. Everyone is built differently, and everyone likes and wants different things.”

He bit the corner of his lip, his telltale gesture that he was holding a comeback in, and I flicked my gaze to the chat.

uniquecorn: a camboy who doesn’t like sex? So you’re just a big faker stealing money from people????

Anger simmered under the surface of my skin, but Eli grinned cheekily.

“I never said anything about not liking sex.” He ran one hand down the center of his chest in a slow, languid move. “In fact, I’ve discovered I love sex with the right person. And you’ve never tipped anyone, so even if what you said was true, it wouldn’t affect your cheap ass.” He winked, tapped his mouse pad, and booted the viewer from his room.

“Go, Eli,” I cheered in my silent office. “Bold words for a gray user.”

“Anyone else have issues with my relationship? Or do you want to see me fuck myself with a dildo?”

Ding.

Ding.

Ding.

Eli spent the next few minutes sassing his viewers and posing as the tips trickled in and inched him closer to his goal.

“Thank you, Suzanna.” He blew the camera a kiss. Her tip had pushed him past his goal. “That means a lot to hear.”

“Ready for the good stuff?” He stroked himself through his shorts, teasing his dick into full hardness.

“No cum goal tonight. I don’t think I can hold out if I’m using my new toy.” He picked it up and lovingly stroked it. “It’s so perfect. I know I’ll come in no time.”

My dick, which had been rock hard since he’d gone to set up for his show, pulsed and throbbed.

Time for part two of my plan.

I sent him a small tip, just enough so I could add a private message.

cynner: run your tongue over it

He widened his eyes and let out a little gasp. “Thank you, Cynner.”

I didn’t particularly like hearing him use my handle, but I loved seeing his soft pink tongue sliding up and down the length of the toy.

I’d thought of this the other day. Watching Eli on cam never failed to get me hot, but being part of his show and using tips to send him secret messages was next-level sexy.

cynner: suck on the tip the way you do when you’re driving me crazy

“Thanks, Cynner.” He sucked the tip into his mouth and moaned softly.

Ding.

Ding.

Ding.

Ding.

“Thanks, Suzanna, Bunny, Hammer, and Hotroddy.”

cynner: finger yourself nice and slow while you suck it

The tips poured in as Eli sucked and licked the toy, his hand behind his back. I knew he’d already stretched and lubed himself up, but I loved seeing him tease himself.

cynner: on your hands and knees and show me your hole

His eyes flashed with amusement and heat as he turned so his ass was facing the camera.

“Fuck.” I pressed the heel of my hand against my erection.

He pulled his cheeks apart and let me see all of him.

cynner: imagine my tongue is on you, licking and teasing that perfect hole while you moan for me

His cheeks flushed pink, and he clenched around nothing.

Fuck, that was sexy.

cynner: on your back, legs spread wide

“Thank you, Cynner.” He flipped onto his back and did as I said.

cynner: stroke yourself for me

His breathing picked up as he gripped his cock and slowly ran his hand up his length.

Cynner: taste yourself

The tip chime was going nuts, which gave him the excuse of not having to thank anyone unless they dropped a huge tip.

He swiped his finger over his slit, pressed it to his mouth, and licked, swirling his tongue around the digit.

cynner: now use your finger to play with your hole. Pretend it’s mine and I’m there with you. I’m sucking your perfect dick while I tease you

Moaning, he pulled his finger free of his mouth and reached under his leg so he didn’t obscure the view as he toyed with himself.

Ding.

“Thank you, Juniper. Glad you think so because I’m really feeling it tonight.”

cynner: push your finger inside yourself. Nice and slow. I want to see how good it feels

His eyes glazed over, and he dropped his head back with a loud groan as his finger disappeared into his hole.

cynner: now two

cynner: we both know you can take it

A second finger joined the first.

cynner: now rock your hips and fuck yourself on them. Get yourself nice and ready for my cock, sweetheart

“Fuuuuuuck.” He shifted, his hard cock bouncing as it stood straight up.

Eli’s token counter kept climbing as the tips poured in. Most were small, but they added up. It would seem people were enjoying the show.

“I need more,” he whispered, his eyes on the camera.

Fuck, he was beautiful. All spread out with his skin flushed and his eyes glazed. His legs shook slightly, and his stomach was taut as he clenched around his fingers.

cynner: use the dildo. Get it ready

He had to sit up to slick it with lube, then looked at the camera for my next instruction. My already neglected dick screamed with the need for friction.

cynner: keep your eyes on the camera for this part. Let me see how good it feels to have my cock in you while everyone watches

cynner: nice and slow, just like I would if I were there

Eli slowly pushed the toy inside himself, his low pants and soft moans filtering through the room.

Fuck, that was hot.

cynner: tell everyone how my cock feels

“It’s so good.” He let out a shuddering breath. “So big. It’s stretching me so good.”

cynner: now give your fans a good show while you fuck yourself

cynner: do it exactly how you’d want me to fuck you

cynner: let everyone see you come apart on my dick

Eli slipped back into cam mode and played up his reactions, moaning and grunting and rolling his hips as he fucked himself on the toy. The chat and tips went nuts.

The only part of him he couldn’t fake were his eyes, and the soft affection mixed with lust and need was exactly what I saw when we made love. That part was just for me, and I fucking loved it.

cynner: you look so hot, sweetheart

cynner: I’m so hard, but I don’t want to come yet

cynner: I want to watch you, see you come apart on my cock

“I’m close,” he whimpered and reached for his dick.

cynner: no

cynner: hands off

cynner: that’s mine

cynner: all of you is mine

cynner: come on my cock, sweetheart

“Holy shit.” He shuddered and closed his eyes, his rhythm faltering. “I can’t…”

I waited until he’d opened his eyes again. So many tips were coming in I didn’t want him to miss a single message.

cynner: you can

cynner: and you will

cynner: come for me, sweetheart

cynner: come so you can feel the real thing

He cried out, his entire body shaking like he’d been electrocuted as he shot over his tight stomach.

Coming hands-free when it was just the two of us wasn’t anything new, but he’d told me he couldn’t do it on cam because he had to think about too many things and couldn’t let go enough to get in the right headspace.

Knowing he’d been able to during a show because I’d told him to almost pushed me over the edge, but I kept my hands off my dick and focused on my boyfriend.

The tips kept rolling in as Eli fucked himself through his orgasm, being as theatrical and over the top as usual.

A smirk tugged at the corner of my mouth. I was the only one who knew it was fake and he was playing a part for them.

“Holy shit.” He winced and shifted so he could pull the toy out without it being on cam. “Holy. Shit.” A laugh bubbled up from his chest. He tossed the toy aside and sat cross-legged on the bed.

The chat was filled with people commenting on how awesome the show had been, and the tips kept coming. He smiled and answered questions, but I could see the impatience in his eyes.

“Sorry, Danger, no pillow talk time tonight. I have a busy night ahead of me.”

I snort-laughed at how dejected and tired he sounded. We didn’t have anything planned, but he made it seem like he had a mountain of chores to get to.

“No show tomorrow night either. I have a date.” He blushed, a real one that stained his neck pink. “But I’ll be back online on Sunday. Thanks to everyone who tipped. Be sure to subscribe to get the notifications and check my Twitter for updates.” He blew the camera a kiss. “Have a wonderful rest of your evening.”

I exited out of the site and slammed my laptop closed.

When I strode into the room, Eli was on his hands and knees, already positioned at the edge of the mattress.

“Fuck me.” He spread his legs wider. “Need you.”

“Jesus fuck.” I shoved my sweatpants and briefs down and tore off my hoodie and shirt.

He licked his lips and stroked his half-hard cock.

I positioned myself behind him, gripped one hip, and rubbed my cockhead over his hole.

“Hard,” he demanded.

“Nope.” I pushed just the tip inside.

He tried to move back, but I held him in place.

“West.” He dropped his chest to the bed and fisted the comforter. “Need you.”

“You have me.” I pushed in until his body had swallowed my cockhead, then pulled right back out. “When I say so.”

He got back up on his hands and looked over his shoulder, his eyes bright with challenge and fire.

“Are you saying you don’t want to fuck me?” He blinked innocently. “You don’t want to fuck me with your big, hard cock? You don’t want to come inside me and fill me up?”

“Brat.”

He knew how much his dirty talk affected me, and unlike him, I hadn’t come yet, so my control was precarious.

“It’s okay if you don’t want to,” he said serenely. “I can always get myself off while thinking about how much I want you to fuck me.”

“God, sweetheart.” I tightened my grip on his hip, and my dick throbbed.

Fuck. At this point, I’d be lucky to get all the way inside him before I blew.

“I pictured it. You on top of me as I fucked myself with your cock. I wanted it so bad. I wanted everyone to see how good you make me feel. How hard you make me come. But I love that they have no idea.”

“Jesus.” I gulped in a breath and slowly pushed my cockhead into him.

“I love how no one knew I was performing for you. How they thought that was for them. But you know what? It wasn’t. Not a single second of it was for them. It was all for you.”

With a loud cry, I slammed inside him.

“Fuck!” Eli’s body rocked on the bed as I buried myself in his tight hole.

Needing more contact, I pulled out of him and gently slapped his ass. “On your back so I can see you.”

He rolled over, his arms and legs spread wide and a knowing grin on his face.

“Brat.” I lay over him and shoved inside. Velvet heat encased my cock, and I gave in to the lust and need swirling inside me and fucked him hard and fast. I wasn’t going to last long.

He arched into me. “Yes!”

“Do you want to come?” I asked between brutal thrusts. He didn’t always want another orgasm after a show.

“No. Want you to fill me.” He raked his nails over my back, leaving trails of fire in their wake that pushed me over the edge.

I came hard, shuddering and shaking over him. He wrapped his lithe body around mine, clinging tight. The pleasure rushed out of me like a broken damn.

When we were finally breathing normally, my soft dick fell out of him.

“We have a date tomorrow?” I asked dazedly as he pressed soft kisses into my neck.

“Do you like baseball?”

“I do. Do you?”

“In theory.” He pulled his face out of my neck. “The game seems interesting, but I’ve stayed away from any kind of sporting event since… that night. But Matt and Jax invited me to come watch their game. Then they want to go to some trivia night thing at The Blue Door. Do you want to go?”

I rolled us over so he was lying on my chest and stomach the way he liked.

“Yeah. Sounds fun.” I pressed a kiss against his lips.

He melted against me and he took over the kiss.

“I’m really happy you’re my boyfriend,” he said softly, brushing his mouth over mine.

“I’m really happy you’re my boyfriend too.” I smoothed his hair back from his face and tucked the wayward strands behind his ears.

I wanted to say so much more, but he wasn’t ready to hear it yet.

“So, what’s this busy night we have ahead of us?” I asked when he finally pulled away from our kiss with a smile and laid his head on my chest.

“Lots and lots of snuggles and gearing up for a busy weekend of peopling.”

“I’m down. What other peopling do we have to do?”

“I promised Kai I’d bring you to meet him if you ever became my boyfriend.”

“Is he going to tell me not to hurt you and promise to kick my ass if I do?”

“Yes.”

I chuckled and rubbed his back.

“And Alex will be there too. He’ll probably say the same thing. So will Matt and Jax, and Beck and Finn when they meet you as my boyfriend and not the property manager.”

The way he kept repeating it and the little inflection he put on boyfriend gave away how much he loved saying it. Perfect, because I loved hearing it.

“I like that you have so many people looking out for you. I promise I’ll never hurt you, but I’m happy you have them.”

“If only I could have my brother too.”

The sadness in his voice broke my heart. I hated that this thing with Gray still hung between us.

“I’m sorry, sweetheart.”

He shrugged and nuzzled into my chest.

“So, what are we doing with Kai and Alex?”

“Lunch on Sunday, if that’s okay.”

“Sounds good.”

“There’s something I should tell you.”

“What’s that?”

“Kai and Gray work together. And we all grew up together, so he knows everything about what happened back then.”

“Oh.”

“I told him it wasn’t your fault and we didn’t know the whole story. But he was around for all of it, so he might be in overprotective mode.”

“I’d be surprised if he wasn’t. Does he know about the auction?”

I knew he’d told his roommates. Who else knew?

“Yeah.”

A pit of dread formed in my stomach. “He probably has lots of thoughts on that.”

“Nothing as dark as you’re thinking. Kai’s about as sex-positive as they come. He’s one of the only people outside my family who knew I cammed before I told my roommates.”

“Your family knows?” I couldn’t hold back my surprise.

“Gray and my parents do.”

Something niggled at the back of my mind. “Sweetheart.”

“Hmmmm?”

“You told me the guy you kissed was a coworker of your brother’s. Was it Kai?”

“What?” He popped his head up and stared down at me in shock. “No. Ew. Kai’s like a brother to me. I’ve never thought of him that way. But one thing you should know because it might come up is that Kai and Gray work at a club in the city.”

“Oh. Okay.” I rubbed his back while he traced his fingers over my cheek, toying with my stubble.

“It’s a strip club.”

“Oh… and they’re…”

“Strippers, yes.”

My brain stuttered at the blunt way he said it.

I cleared my throat. “That’s an interesting career choice.”

He grinned. “Figured I’d tell you beforehand so you didn’t do a spit take or choke on your food if it came up.”

“I appreciate it.” I huffed out a laugh at his impish grin. “Anything else I need to know about your friends before I meet them?”

“Nope.” He rolled off me and sat up. “Let me grab a quick shower and get dressed. You give off a lot of body heat, but my butt is freezing.”

“Hurry back.” I slipped one hand under my head and stroked my dick with the other.

“Behave.” He shot me a stern look. “Otherwise, we’re going to find out how you like getting fucked by my new toy.”

My jaw dropped, and he laughed.

“What? You’re telling me you’re not curious? How many people get to literally fuck themselves?”

“Keep talking like that, and I’m ordering another kit so we can make one of you.”

His eyes sparkled. “What? You don’t think it would be hot to fuck yourself with a toy of me? Or maybe we could do it together next time I use it on cam.” He licked his bottom lip, and his cock chubbed up the slightest bit. “That would be so hot. Knowing you’re using a toy shaped like me while I’m using one of you.”

“Get my phone out of my pants. I have an order to place.”

Laughing, he scurried over to where I’d dropped my sweats and dug through the pocket.

Life with Eli was never boring, and I’d never laughed more than when I was with him.