My Hot Alpha

"Having second thoughts?"

She shook her head. "No just sad to be leaving. I've lived here all my life; this is my home and I'm going to miss it."

"It'll always be your home Alanna."

"I'm terrified I'll hate it." She poured herself some coffee before sitting opposite me. "I have this fear that no one will like me and that I'll not fit in." "Moving to a new place is scary. I was terrified and look at me now." I smiled. "Shacked up with the Alpha carrying his child."

"Did you have a fight?" She asked.

"Not yet."

"What happened?"

"It's not what happened it's what doesn't happen. He never tells me anything and then last night at your parents. Your mom kicked us out." "No." She gasped. "My mom?"

"I don't feel connected to my wolf. I can count on one hand how many times I've shifted. I don't get why he won't teach me."

"The dreaded shift." She spoke.

"The what?"

"For you to feel truly connected to your wolf you have to shift and let her take control. Then it's all about how you handle the shift, the communication and of course gaining back control."It seems that some sentences in this chapter require you to read the complete chapters on J o( b) n i b.com in order to avoid an incomplete reading experience. Why was I only learning about this now? "And how do I do that?"

"You shift and let her take control"

"Well, I know that, but will I know if she's taken control?"

"You'll know. It's hard to explain but you'll know."

"Why doesn't he tell me anything?" I asked.

"Honestly I think he's scared."

"Scared of what?"

"In case you can't gain back control. You should talk to him. Make his listen and make him see you need this to happen."

"But I do need this to happen. I'm a werewolf just like the rest of you and yet he treats me like I'm some fragile little doll that can't take care of myself. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling left out, I'm sick of feeling like I don't belong. Sometimes I wish I was still back home."

I don't know where that came from, but I felt better for saying it.

"You need to talk to him and tell him how you feel. If you're not happy then tell him."

"It's not that." I sighed. "I just want to be able to know things and understand what's going on. I want to feel like I'm part of the pack. He's all I have and yet sometimes I don't feel like I have him at all."

"Don't say that." She reached over placing her hand on top of mine. "Your family."

I shrugged. "I'm going to get ready for your leaving party. I'll see you over there."

"With bells on." She grinned.

I decided to put everything to the back of my mind. I wasn't going to cause a scene and ruin Carter and Alanna's day. Today was their last day and I was going to send them off with the biggest smile on my face. My drama could wait till later.