My Hot Alpha

Day 4.

Once more day to go but surprisingly I wasn't in pain, my skin wasn't burning and the bleeding had stopped. I felt different which I guess was to be expected now we were fully mated. Finally.

It felt like we were never going to get here but I was just glad it was all over with. I had new obstacles to tackle and I wasn't in the slightest bit ready to do so. I poured myself some tea and got comfortable on the couch.

Jake was out patrolling with Jack. He asked me to join him but I declined, again. I still didn't feel 100% connected to my wolf. I knew she was in there; I did feel her at times but something felt off and I couldn't put my finger on what. I wanted to be like the rest of them.

Shift on command but I couldn't.

Did it make me any less of a werewolf?

I had no idea.

I played around on my phone for a bit but got bored. I watched some tv to pass the time and got bored. No one was around and Jake could be out there for hours.

I had nothing but time on my hands and nothing to do with it. No job, no plans, no university and I had yet to sign up for some online courses. Although I did still have my job at the gas station. Even though I had never worked a shift. I wasn't quite sure what happened with that.

Sighing I ran a hand down my face. I never thought this is where I would be after I finished high school. I thought I would have been living it up at university with Lana.

Another person I had to make amends with. I hadn't heard from her since Saturday and I wasn't sure if I should be worried or not. Pete was with her so I knew if anything was wrong, he would have told Jake.

Right?

I had to get out of this house and stay out of my head. Being on my own was only making me overthink everything. For once in my life, I had to start putting myself first.

My relationship with Lana wasn't great now but why should I be the one to fix it when I wasn't the one in the wrong. As for my gran, I couldn't help but feel guilty. I know I shouldn't considering everything that had happened. She lied on many occasions and yet I still couldn't bring myself to hate her.

I got to my feet and went in search for my bag and keys. I know I wasn't supposed to leave the house but surely now because I had marked him it was safe to do so.

I guess I'll find out.

Pulling open the front door I jumped. "Were you really going to knock?". Nobody ever knocked, they all just walked right in. As we know Jakes house was an open-door policy when it came to his family and the pack. "Taking precautions". She smirked. "Wasn't sure if you'd have been having s*x or not".

"Really Alanna?".

She shrugged. "Where are you going?".

"A drive".

"You're really not supposed to leave the house in case something happens".

"Are you here to keep me company then?". I couldn't keep staring at the same four walls for much longer. I would drive myself insane.

She smirked before removing the bottle from inside her jacket. "I brought some vodka in case you needed it".

Of course, she did. Vodka shots were Alanna's answer to everything.

"Are you going to invite me in?". She asked.

I moved to the side letting her past.

"How have you been coping?".

"I'm fine". That was the truth. In the last four days this had been the best one. I was starting to feel normal again.

"No pain?". She frowned.

I shook my head.

"Still bleeding?".

Again, I shook my head.

"Wow, you've got it easy. I didn't stop bleeding until a week after my heat stopped".

It wasn't easy at all. The pain I endured over the last few days wasn't easy in the slightest. I wouldn't wish what I went through on anyone.

She made herself at home, shoes kicked off in the living room, her jacket thrown on the couch.

"Are we drinking this?". She had already sourced two glasses.

I wasn't drinking straight vodka on a Wednesday afternoon. "I'd rather not". I could just imagine the look on Jake's face if he came home and I was drunk. "And I don't think you'd like to go back onto early patrols". "Good point". She put the bottle away before sitting at the table. "Where is that brother of mine anyway?".

"Patrolling with Jack".

"I'm assuming you kissed and made up?".

"We did".

"I hope you throat punched the bastard".

I couldn't hide my grin. Alanna sure did have a way with words. "I marked him".

"Thank god. You didn't half drag that out".

I made a face. "I think you'll find that was your brother and if we didn't have all these rules to follow it would have happened ages ago".

She rolled her eyes. "The both of you are just as stubborn as each other but we won't talk about that. Anyway, I'm glad you're finally mated and happy. You are happy right?".

"I'm happy". I smiled.