Love is Weakness. [1]

Conan.

To say I’m angry is an understatement. She has been to the one who has killed Avril. While I was looking for her she has been to him, to Eadon. All my hopes of redemption for him are gone. Anger and betrayel surge through me as I drag Anastacia to our house, my house. I can’t believe she did this. I can’t believe that she of all people would do this to me. I search in my minds for any indications that she was going to choose him. I can’t find any. All of her emotions and all of her support seemed real. She must be a really good liar. When we get to the house I drag her to the basement. Down is a small room that my dad used to lock wolves in. I can smell her tears, but I’m beyond control. I throw her in the cell. She looks at me with pleading eyes but I quickly shut the door. I can’t fall for this again, ever. I sit myself down against the door of the cel. Taking some deep breaths I try to focus on getting calm again. Orcan is hurt, he is laying on the floor whining and it only adds to my anger, to my pain. I don’t understand any of this. Would she still believe that I tried to attack those kids? Would he have offered her something? A family maybe? I offered her a family too, I offered her my pack. I gave her a room in my house. I have fought for her.

You fought to survive.

Orcan looks at me with accusing eyes. Would this be my fault? Because I turned her down? Eadon must have been good to her since the beginning. But he killed Avril, she saw that. She cried on her funeral. I felt the pain coming off of her. Why would she do this? I drop my head in my hands and feel lost. I don’t understand anything of my life anymore. It used to be so simply. I ran the company and the pack. We were safe and we had good lives. I can’t even remember the last time I trained the pups. I hear Anastacia’s sobs growing louder so I get up and walk away. I will not fall for it this time. I will find out why she has done this and I will deal with it.

After having talked to Tiffany, ensuring her that I didn’t do anything to Anastacia without admitting I locked her I go back home. I lay down in front of the cell. The sound of her breathing tells me that she fell asleep. She probably cried herself to sleep. Orcan is still in pain in my head, so I shut him out. I lay there on the cold floor staring into nothing. I focus on her breathing and try to shut out all my thoughts. I swear I can hear my heart breaking, though that’s impossible. I don’t understand, why would she hurt us?

I wake up to sobs, her sobs. I immediatly stand up before I remember what happend. She betrayed us. I take my phone out of my pocket and see that it’s only 6 in the morning. Most wolves will still be sleeping. I look through the small window of bars into the cell. Anastacia lays on the bed with her back to me. Her whole body is shaking as I hear her try to keep in her tears. She’s failing I realise as the salty smell of her tears fill my nose. I don’t know what to do. The punishment for betrayel is very simple, but I have never had to punish my own Mate before. A scream comes from outside. Anastacia gets up and runs towards the door.

‘It’s Eadon, he said he was going to hurt Tiffany!’ she screams to me. My eyes go from the direction of the scream back to Anastacia in confusing. Against better judgement I open the cell door but I don’t wait for her to get out. I run up the stairs and get out of my house. When I run towards my backyard I see three people stand at the end of it atleast 600 yard away. Anastacia runs past me and I quickly grab her by her arm. She hits me across my face.

‘Let me go! He won’t hurt me.’ I let her go and run with her. I eye the situation. Tiffany is holding her arm and I can smell her blood. Duncan is in front of her, almost standing nose to nose with Eadon. Eadon dashes forward and hits Duncan in his face. Duncan’s face cocks sidewards. Eadon puts his knee in Duncan crotch. Duncan falls down and Eadon kicks him in the face. He holds up a knife to Tiffany’s face. My anger pushes me to go faster and I use my wolf strength. However Stacia is way ahead of me and she jumps into Eadon. Tiffany let’s out a cry of pain and falls on the floor next to them. I see Eadon and Stacia struggle as I run up to them. I quickly check on Duncan and see that he’s still breathing, barely though. I try to get in between Anastacia and Duncan, but they’re rolling around so fiercly that I can’t get to Eadon without Anastacia.

The fighting stops. They both stopped moving. Anastacia is laying on top of Eadon, blood is coming from underneath them. The world stops turning, atleast in my mind. I hold my breath and every sound fades. Duncan’s faltering breaths are silent, Tiffany’s cries are gone, all I hear is one beating heart. I slowely take a step towards them. I kneel down, feeling the blood wetting my jeans. I softly roll Anastacia off of Eadon. I close my eyes before I open them again to look at her. She looks straight at me. Shock evident in her face, knife in her hand. I look down at Eadon and see that the blood is coming from him. She must have stabbed him right in his heart. Anastacia gets up never letting go of the knife. She sits down next to Duncan and I just watch her. I feel like I’m in shock, I don’t know. I probably am. I see her bow her head to Duncan’s nose. I realise she is listening if he’s still breathing. She turns his head to the side, blood pooring out of him. I hear footsteps approaching us fastly.

‘I’m so sorry, I’m so so sorry. I never meant for this to happen. Duncan, please don’t die.’ I hear Anastacia cry. It takes me a minute to register her words. When I do anger fires up my body. I get up and pull her arm up, dislocating it from the force I use.

‘YOU KNEW?!’ I scream at her. Pain is everywhere in her face, I don’t know if it’s from her shoulder or what she did. ‘AFTER EVERYTHING YOU KNEW?!’ She doesn’t say anything back as tears fall from her eyes. ‘I TRUSTED YOU! I RISKED MY LIFE FOR YOU. AVRIL DIED FOR YOU AND NOW, NOW DUNCAN WILL DIE TOO! EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT.’ Orcan is trying to break through to me but I break our link. Anastacia is looking at me in pleading eyes. Tears fall from them so fast, but with every tear I get more angry. ‘STOP CRYING, YOU MURDERER!’ She tries to open her mouth and I wait. I wait for her to say something, anything to defend her. Nothing but painful sounds come from her mouth.

I see that she’s still holding the knife and I grab it. I cut open her hand and she quickly draws it back. Then I do the same with mine. I grab her arm and bring her hand into mine.

’I, Conan Emissos, will never have you as my Mate. You're a selfish murderer. You will never be my Luna. I will never have a Luna. And sure as hell not a human one.'

She stumbles back. I feel a weird sensation going through my body. It burns, but not in painful way. I see Anastacia look at my with pain in her eyes. She grabs her arms and falls on her knees. A scream comes from her mouth. I'm shaken away from my anger. What have I done?