Chapter 17. The night was over!
“What are you thinking about?”
“Nothing”; I lied, but he was a tough guy to fool.
“That’s not true, you’re thinking of something.”
“Yes, I was thinking of something I don’t want to say!”
“Why, you can tell me anything that comes into your mind.”
“Ok, ok. I was thinking that maybe this event could have made you pass the desire to ...” I left the sentence hanging because I thought that at that point he would understand what I was referring to; but no, he forced me to finish the sentence.
“The desire to?”
“Yes, I’m talking about the after party.”
“Is there also an after party?” I gave him a playful slap on the hand that was resting on my thigh and he smiled.
“Myra, the desire for you will never go away. You are the girl who ignites my desire in a single instant, the only one I always want. Except that ...“, he lowered his gaze for a moment, his expression seemed pained, then he continued: “I don’t want you to feel obligated to do something when you don’t feel well.”
“But I’m fine, my headache is already gone!”
“Many times you hide the pain from me and this makes me think that I make you suffer.”
“No Nathan. I want to fight the pain because it always comes when it shouldn’t. I want to ignore it and hope it goes away; but sometimes it’s so bad that I lose the fight and have to take the medicine right away.”
“You are so strong, Myra. I don’t want you to hold anything back, I want you to be free to do and say anything you want and when you want, when you are with me.”
“I’ll try to remember it!”
“I love you so much, Little Bird!”
“I love you too, Beautiful and Damned!”
“Still with this nickname?” He asked me, poking his forehead.
“You will always be in my eyes!”
He came over and kissed me softly, we were disturbed by the rumor and footsteps of the guys who were getting on the bus.
The evening was over!
When we got to the hotel the girls greeted me and went to the room. Nathan did not stop in front of the door of my room, he continued straight towards his room.
“That was my room”; I said pointing to the door, but he looked at me for a moment with a look that encompassed all his feelings at the moment secret, continuing to pull me by the hand.
“For tonight, it’s not!” Had the long awaited moment come, or were we just going to sleep together? It was rather strange to think that we had waited so long for something that probably wasn’t going to happen. Sleeping with Nathan would have been wonderful, but disappointing if she hadn’t unwrapped his birthday present. Those were just my thoughts, what would actually happen, I would find out once I entered that room.
“Walter?” I asked in a low voice, for fear that someone would hear me, tugging on his hand softly.
“He has found another accommodation for this night.”
Nathan, crossing the threshold, did not let go of my hand, he pulled me lightly to let me in and with his foot closed the door behind me. With a quick movement he walked over to me, his lips brushing my cheek near my ear.
“I thought I would leave you at the door of your room. I thought I would not go through with it. I thought badly! I want everything of you. The good and the bad, everything. I want to be with you always. I never want to let you go. Last night I stood outside your door. Falco couldn’t accept your distance. ” My heart was filled with joy and pain. I was flattered to hear those words, I too had reluctantly left him the previous evening; they also triggered painful feelings in me. I couldn’t help but think about how they would suffer when I left this world. At that moment no sensible words could release my lips, so I pulled away slightly to look him in the eye. They were loaded with feelings, some shared, others secret, others ready to be expressed. He didn’t say a word either, he came over and placed his lips softly on mine. He kissed me with all the love he had and I did the same. The deep feelings threatened to overwhelm me. Without intensifying the kiss he pulled away and asked me: “Are you ready to give me your gift? I’m willing to wait another moment. I’m willing to do anything for you, Little Bird.”
Was I ready? Was I ready? I couldn’t believe my ears. I was more than ready for this moment and he was really asking me.
“I was born ready to live this moment with you!”
He rushed to my lips like a hungry man. Our tongues fought each other and I eventually gave up. I would have given him anything, anything. He shifted his attention to my neck, then down to my chest, my breasts. Suddenly he picked me up and carried me to the bed, put me down and started unbuttoning his shirt. Slowly, too slowly, one button at a time. He tossed it onto the chair in the corner when he managed to get it out. He walked over to me again, reached down and with his fingers grabbed the hem of my dress, slowly lifted it over my head. I was in my underwear and bra, but not for long. He stretched his arms out behind me, my face was in the niche of his neck, breathing in the intoxicating and exciting scent of him. Nathan undid my bra with a fluid movement, with his fingers he removed the strips, stroking the entire path of my skin until it fell with a thud to the floor. Finally he put his fingers in the elastic of my panties and with his eyes fixed on mine, he pulled them down. He held out his hand inviting me to take a step out and kick them next to my bra. His gaze inflamed me, he studied me, he admired me, he looked at me, he contemplated me, he loved me. I thought I would feel uncomfortable being naked in front of a man, but his eyes weren’t intrusive, he wasn’t there to judge. I felt like a goddess revered, loved and ready to give myself to the man of my heart.
“You are beautiful. You are perfect. You are more than I deserve. I am the luckiest man in the universe.” I smiled at that last sentence, nervously put a lock behind my ear, looking down. He put a finger under my chin and forced me to look into his eyes.
“Do you grant me the honor of loving your body all night?” I began to breathe heavily, my heart was pounding beyond belief, my hands were eager to touch him, and my body was more than ready to be loved by this wonderfully perfect man. I said yes with a nod, smiling mischievously. He didn’t even wait another second, he kissed me impetuously. That night I had given away everything that a woman had most precious. Nathan was my perfect half. He was my only love. We were lying in bed embracing, I had rested my head on his chest and I don’t know why, maybe I wanted to know better the sensitive side that he was hiding, I asked him: “How was your mother?”
“She was beautiful. She was kind. She was very loving. I remember one day when I was 8, she took me to a birthday party and kissed me in front of all my friends.”
“What was wrong with that?”
“They were all there, absolutely all of my friends and they would never stop telling me that I was mom’s boy.”
“Maybe, yes. If you said it like that, maybe she should have given you lots of kisses.”
“You are terrible! You know now that she is gone I would give anything to go back to being that child and have her kisses, hugs and caresses. I miss her so much ...”
“How did your parents meet?”
“They didn’t get off to a very romantic start as they usually do.”
“Weren’t they Mate?”
“Yes they were. My mother had another Mate, before my father. He was not a good one, he raped her, used her, and then threw her away. He died soon after in an attack he wanted to launch to widen his pack. My father was the pack doctor who had been attacked, they met and discovered that he was her second chance Mate. Of course, after all she had been through, it was hard for her to trust a man at first. With time, patience, and love, my father gave my mother the desire to live and love life again. There is a phrase she always said when she told her love story with my father: Love conquers all. ”
That night we slept tightly in each other’s arms. My world view had changed. My desire for him was momentarily sedated. My soul was at peace. Everything was in his place, and I was in a deep state of bliss.