SWNOVELS Chapter Chapter fifty six
‘’I’ll take it up my Luna’’ Charlotte offered and I declined.
‘’It’s fine Charlotte I can do this by myself. You look very tired you should take some rest’’ I advised which I knew she might not take.
‘’Thank you’’ She smiled and then took off. I carried the now packed food in the basket and I made my way for the stairs.
‘’Raina’’ Henrietta called just when I wanted to climb the stairs. I stopped and looked back at her.
‘’Yes’’ I answered carefully making sure not to sound angry and also making sure she knew that I did not appreciate her current new attitude towards my new found friendship with Lucy. I had expected her to support me as a friend she had always claimed to be. Not wanting to fight with Ri I just forced a smile at her and said,
‘’We will talk later Ri’’ I said as politely as I could say it. Without giving her much chance I left the dining and made my way up to Lucian’s office.
As soon as I got to Lucian’s office I stood in front of it for a while, shocked that he hadn’t asked me to enter even without knocking. This started letting me over think my decision of bringing him breakfast. Maybe I should have just left him alone and come down to eat when gets hungry, no I can not watch him work that long without feeding himself. You are disturbing him, no I am not, I am just simply caring for somebody that I seem to like very much.
Already irritated with all my overthinking and second thoughts I opened the door without knocking. Was it not locked? I know everywhere in this pack is always locked so why was his door opened?
‘’Rain’’ Lucian said without looking up. I forced a smile I knew he wouldn’t see but did it to make myself feel better about disturbing him when he clearly wanted to be alone. How selfish could I get?
‘’Yeah, just thought you could use some food’’ I said quietly moving to drop the basket on the table, before I could let go of the basket Lucian hurriedly snatched it out of my hand this time actually looking up at me. I tried to smile but I failed when I stood still in fear of what he was going to say, I really did not want us to go back to where we started from. I should have thought this through, this was a terrible idea I thought to myself.
‘’I’ll leave now. Have a nice day Lucian’’ I said turning to walk away. Not that I expected him to stop me or try to have a kind of small talk with me but I expected a thank you and a reason for him snatching the basket out of my hand when I wanted to drop the basket but I got none. I closed the door behind me and let out a long sigh, making sure not to cry I rubbed my face with my now sweaty palm and walked away from the floor. I should not overreact, I am Luna and this is a part of my many many duties.
I walked slowly to the garden outside letting my mind take me over the events that just took place few minutes ago. Making sure to erase any trace of my foul mood so Lucy wouldn’t think I was too weak to become Luna. Where is all of these coming from? I asked myself. Why I’m I suddenly this weak. This is not me and I know it. I hate this. I hate feeling this way. I don’t want to feel this way anymore.
‘’Still waiting for you to actually work inside Rain’’ Lucy’s voice brought me out of my trance, Taking a long deep breath I walked inside and sat down on the floor the same way Lucy always seats.
‘’So sorry for the delay, I had to get Lucian breakfast first’’ I said cheerfully to avoid any form of questions from Lucy. She smiled and for a second I really thought that I was off the hook.
‘’Nice try Raina but I really need to know why you took a little while to come in. Is something bothering you?’’ She asked gently. I almost burst out in tears because of how comforting her voice was but I knew that I needed to be stronger than this if I wanted to earn their respect so I smiled and answered her.
‘’I was nervous about all of these’’ I lied effortlessly.
‘’Why?’’ She asked.
‘’I have a bad feeling about keeping all of this away from Lucian’’ I lied agin. I hated lying to her about this but I knew what I needed to do.
‘’We can still involve him if you really want to involve him in this’’ Lucy suggested. I quickly shut downs the idea.
‘’He’s very busy, I don’t think he will appreciate being disturbed’’ I explained to her.
‘’ I knew it!’’ She screamed. I looked at her confused. She knew what?
‘’I’m lost’’ I confessed.
‘’Did something happen when you went to give Lucian his breakfast?’’ Lucy questioned. I looked away from her and said,
‘’Nothing happened’’
‘’It doesn’t seem like it’’ She countered.
‘’And I said nothing happened, drop it’’ I snapped.
‘’I’ll be here when you need to talk’’ Was all she said before continuing.
‘’Let’s start the class’’ She said. I sat up well as I paid keen attention to what Lucy was explaining because I did not want a repeat of what happened the last time.
‘’Now try that’’ She instructed me and I complied.
I took deep breaths and allowed myself to repeat the same procedure she did obeying every instruction she gave but unlike the outcome she got I got the opposite and this got me upset.
‘’You can give it another try’’ She tried to encourage but I already burst into tears.
‘’You’re not fine Raina and that’s why you can’t get this right. You need to be calm’’ I did not feel any better, instead I snapped.
‘’Stop yelling at me?’’
‘’I barely raised my voice Raina’’ She replied calmly. I sighed.
‘’I’m sorry’’ I apologised feeling sorry for the way that I spoke to her. She was just trying to be helpful and I am here being so ungrateful for her time and patience.
‘’It’s okay Raina’’ She said.
‘’Let’s try again’’ I begged.
‘’We will but first, I need to knowing what is wrong with you’’
‘’It’s nothing’’ I lied.
‘’Raina’’ She scolded with a frown.
‘’Do you think Lucian is fed up?’’ I asked.
‘’ Fed up of what?’’ She squeezed her face confused at my question. Realising how stupid my question must have sounded I moved to stand up when I felt a strong pull on my shoulder making me fall back down.
‘’ You need to stop doing that’’ I frowned.
‘’ You also need to stop bottling up all of your emotions and let us help you heal’’ She said but her voice sounded like she was begging me to open up about everything.
‘’I don’t do that’’ I tried to defend myself but Lucy was not having it.
''You do Raina. Please I want you to talk to me about what is troubling. I will only listen if that is what you are fine with'' She offered. I gave a weak smile.
''I am propbably overreacting but I feel like Lucian is not very happy with me'' I confessed. Lucy moved closer to me and sighed.
''Why do you think that?'' She asked. I frowned.
''I don't know. When I went to drop his breakfast he didn't talk say a word to me which is very unusual. I know it is childish to be so worried but I am. What if I did something and now he thinks all of this is not worth is time? I'm too much trouble right?'' I asked hoping and internally begging that she will agree with me on this.
''Don't think like that Raina. Lucian is still very much interested. He's probably
very busy and has to finish whatever work he has on his hands'' She explained. I nodded in agreement to what she said even though I did not feel very convinced about what she said to me. I really do not what to miss this class again because I need to understand what kind of magic or whatever it is that I have before I can actually explain to Lucian what is going on in my life. Tha'ts if he's even still interested.
''Yeah I guess so' I tried to say non chalantly but Lucy wasn't really convinced.
''Raina I know we started on a very rough road but I am really concerned so whatever it is that is getting you all worked up please talk to Lucian about it as soon as he is done with work'' Shw pleaded.
''Thank you very much for that Lucy. I think I am now ready for the lesson''
''You're still very much not in a right place to learn this so why don't we start with something small?'' She asked. Of course I agreed with her because I knew that I could truly not give it my all.
''Ok then let's start with learning about what magic you have''
''I thought you did not understand it too?'' I questioned because I reme,bered when I asked about it and she said she did not know anything about it.
''Yeah I didn't know before but now I do'' She said.
''Ok. Can you explain now? because I reallly need to understand this stuff'' I groaned already gettting frustrated with not understanding what wa going on.
''Ok, first, something you said or did must have triggered this magic out of nowhere if you never knew about it before now'' She explained.
''With what I have gathered I think these magic where given to you to protect you from some kind of danger and about you just discovering I think it has to do with the situation'' She continued.
"Situation?" I asked, confused about what she meant.
"Yeah, maybe the danger you were kept from is now here'' She answered my question.
"I'm sorry but how did you come up with this?" I inquired
"I read some old boooks" She answered once again.
"And this book knows me and what situation I am in?" I frowned.
"No but with how you go the power and how much strength radiats off you I know this must be the case" I decided to believe her.
"Ok. So what do I do now that we know there is some kind of danger" That part of her explaination still lingered in my mind.
"We wait" That was her reply.
"Wait?" I asked to be sure that I heard her right.
"Yes, we wait and see if there is truly any problem that awaits us" She reapeated herself.
"Why will we wait for whatever trouble is coming our way?" i still think her idea is a very stupid one. What did she mean wait? Wht the fuck will we wait fir trouble to get to us without preparing in some sorth of way.
"We have no idea what to expect. How do you prepare against something you don't know Raina" I knew there was truth in what she said.
"We don't tell Lucian about this?" I needed to be sure that we were on the same page.
"That's up to you. You tell him tonight if you want to" Lucy said.
"I can't thank you enough Lucy. Thank you very much_"
She cut me off,
"You don't need to thank me. I am helping a friend" She said with her soul captivating smile. It warmed to hear it from her that we are friends.
I leaned forward and brought her in for a heart warming hug.
I do hope we remain friends.