Leave Me Alpha [#6]

2 month pass by

It’s been 2 months since me and Asher got back together.

When Charlotte rejected Asher, the next morning we came back to Asher’s pack, we found out that her and Holden were mates. It was nice. They were happy.

We were all happy. There was no more rouge attacks. Everything was falling into place. It was like the rouges didn’t want to trouble us anymore.

“Sweetheart, you have to take it.” Asher sits down on the bed, handing me a plate of fruit.

I was pregnant. Yes I wanted a kid, but I didn’t think I would get pregnant on the first go. Emily told me I was pregnant with a baby boy. And Asher was more than happy.

He couldn’t stop smiling. He wanted a family, and he gets a family.

“Asher, I’m okay. I’m literally full. If you make me eat more, I’ll be sick” he nods quickly.

“Okay sorry. How about we just rest?” I nod as he sits next to me, and pulls the cover over us.

“Asher, you’ve become a big softy” I blurt out and he chuckles

“A softy? I’m not a bear, sweetheart. And don’t you like me being nice to you? Or do you want me to be mean?” I shake my head

“Nice. You can’t be mean to me. I’m carrying your baby” I smirk

“Our baby” he nods as I close my eyes, feeling the baby kick.

“What’s wrong?” Asher asks

“I think your son wants to get out” I groan, placing my hand on my stomach.

“I think you’re about to pop” Asher mumbles and I roll my eyes, feeling liquid down my leg.

“Yep. Take me to the doctors. Now” I say and he nods jumping off the bed.

“Okay, I’m going to pick you up, sweetheart” he says, lifting me up, bridal style.

“Am I heavy?” I whisper looking up at him and he smirks

“Light as a feather.” He walks out of the room.

“Charlotte! Call the doctor!” Asher shouts and she runs out of her room, with Holden behind her, pulling his shirt down

“Now?” He looks at me

“Yes now! Go get a fucking doctor. Sweethearts, in pain” he shouts, walking downstairs with me to the hospital room, Asher built for me.

“It’s going to be okay” he lays me down on the bed, kissing my forehead.

“It better be.” I groan just as Taylor runs into the room, with a nurse behind her.

“We’ll be staring, luna. Don’t worry” she says, as Asher closes the door.

“Asher, come here and let me hold your hand. You said I could squeeze it as much as I want” I exclaim, taking deep breaths,as he runs to me.

“Of course sweetheart” he holds my hand, and I squeeze it.

“Am I hurting you?” I ask, looking up at him.

“Nope. Can’t feel a thing” he kisses my head, as I groan.

“Just a couple of more minutes before we can start, luna” I nod at her.

“Are you happy?” I ask and he nods

“More than anyone can imagine” I smile, more like grim

■■■■■

“A boy, born at 2.34. Weight, 6 pounds” I take a sigh

I know how Hailey felt, but she gave birth to twins. Bless her.

“I love you sweetheart” Asher whispers against my forehead, as he places a kiss.

“I love you too” I whisper closing my eyes, slightly

“Are you tired?” He asks and I scoff

“Is that a question to ask?” He smirks

“Maybe, we could try for that other boy, we wanted” I push him away.

“Let me rest” the doctor walks over to us, with the baby in her arms, placing him next to me.

“I’ll leave you to alone for a while. When you’re ready, call me in, and I can write the name, on the birth certificate” I nod as she walks out.

Asher sits down next to me, looking at the baby, which is in my arms.

“He looks like me” he says proud of himself.

“How can you tell? He’s just been born” Asher shrugs

“Well he’ll be like me” I nod

“What are we naming him?” I ask

“Ethan” I nod

“Ethan Hayes” Asher smiles at me.

“I love you sweetheart”

“I love you too” he places his lips on mine.

“But I love you more”

“I love you more than dark chocolate” I whisper and he chuckles

“You don’t like dark chocolate”

“Okay. I love you more than....cake”

“I love you more than pizza” he whispers, against my lips

“That’s unfair. Nothing can beat pizza. Pizza is ....pizza!” I exclaim and he chuckles

“I love you so much” I nod

“I know” he smiles

He’s happy. And I’m happy.

■■■■■

Crying.

“Asher wake up” I mumble, pulling the pillow over my head.

“Sweetheart” he groans, and Ethan gets louder.

“Asher” I mumble and he removes his arm from me, and sits up

“Fine. Tomorrow it’s your turn” he groans, walking towards the small cot in the corner.

“Come on, let’s let your mommy sleep” he whispers to Ethan, before walking out of the room

All night Ethan was crying. I need some sleep.

****

“Sweetheart” Asher mumbles, against my cheek.

“Asher” I groan, opening my eyes and looking at him.

Ethan is placed next to me, in the middle of the bed, and Asher on the other side of him.

“Morning” I mumble, smiling at him.

“Afternoon. Emily and everyone’s here” I nod sitting up slowly, stretching.

“I’m going to have a quick shower, then I’ll feed Ethan, and then come downstairs” I say and he nods

“I’ll tell them, but before that” he smirks at me

“And I’ll kiss you” I whisper as he leans over Ethan, towards me.

I place my lips on him, and he kisses me passionately.

He hoovers over me, placing his hands under my shirt, un-clasping my bra, his hands squeezing my boobs.

Ethan starts crying, and Asher groans, in my neck.

“I don’t think we’ll get time to ourself” he mumbles sitting up, and picking Ethan up.

“I know. Can you look after him?” I ask and he nods, walking out of the room.

Sometimes I think to myself that am I doing the right thing?

I haven’t told Asher anything. Nothing about me. I haven’t told him that I have been raped, or that I... I kill people. But I can’t help it. I can’t help it, that I turn it to this monster. It started when I was 16, after I got raped.

I killed so many people, and I don’t even know what for. Sometimes I get angry, and I lash out. For no reason. If it wasn’t for Emily, and her powers, I think I would have been dead.

It eats me up, every day, just thinking about the people I’ve killed. They had a family, mate, and I took that away from them, in one shot.

All it takes is, one shot. I try my best not to get angry.

When Charlotte came back and Asher was with her, I felt it. I felt myself getting angry, and my hand, turning gold. But I stopped it. I thought about all of the good thinks, I did. And it went away.

I’m happy now. And if I tell Asher, he may, leave me. Because I’m not as perfect as he makes me.

I shake my head, forgetting about everything.

I get out of bed, and walk to my closet. I pick out a loose, big shirt, and some leggings. I head to the bathroom to have a shower.

**

“Grandma, do you think everything is okay now?” I ask as she holds Ethan in her arms.

“Yep. There’s been no attacks. I think they’ve gone, left us for good” she says as Charlotte walks into the room with Holden.

“Can I pick him up?” She asks and Emily nods, handing him to her.

“I have to go check on Alec” I nod as she walks out.

The whole royal family came to see Ethan. Except my parents. Which I don’t really care about, because if they did come, they would say stuff that would make me angry. Anyone says anything about Ethan, fuck them.

“He looks like Asher” Charlotte says.

I always thought that she was bad, but when she rejected Asher, I knew she was good. I was happy for her and Holden.

“He does” Holden says and I smile

“That’s good right. We’ll have another Asher running around soon” she laughs

“One Asher is enough. I can hardly look after him” I raise my eyebrow

“What do you mean?” I say and she looks up at me.

“Oh. I meant before, like when me and Asher were still together” I nod slowly.

“I’m going to take Ethan and put him to sleep” I say standing up.

“Oh, please can I keep him for a couple of minutes? He’s so cute. You can rest for a while, if you want. You look exhausted” she was right. I had to rest.

“Okay. But if he starts crying or anything, let me know. And I’ll come and get him” she nods, smiling brightly at me.

I walk upstairs, just to see Vincent walking out of the guest room.

“Tiger. We’re all going to go home now. I can’t leave the pack alone” I nod, hugging him tightly.

“I’ll miss you” I whisper and he hugs me back.

“You better” I roll my eyes, letting him go.

“Shall I help you?” He shakes his head

“You rest. You look exhausted” I laugh

“Everyone is saying that to me. Bye” I kiss his cheek and walk to Asher’s and I, room. I open the door to see Asher asleep on the bed.

I smile closing the door behind me, slowly.

“Come here sweetheart. Where’s Ethan?” He mumbles, pulling the covers aside for me. I lay next to him, as he throws the covers over me, wrapping his arm around me.

“He’s with Charlotte” he nods, his eyes closed.

“Go to sleep. We’ll be awake all night” I giggle, closing my eyes

“Night”

“Night”

*****

“Asher! I- I don’t know-” I hear Charlotte’s voice as she runs into the room. I open my eyes, and sit up, slowly.

Asher’s pulling a blue shirt down, and looking at her confused.

“What’s wrong?” He asks

“Ethan--I don’t know ho-” I growl, standing up

“Where’s Ethan?” I ask walking closer to her. She steps back, slightly.

“Someone took him. I think it was that girl, Selena. I laid him on the floor, and got up to get him, his favourite bear. I came back to see Ethan not there. I looked everywhere for him. I went to the forest to see Selena, running out of the boarder with Ethan in her hand” she whispers scared.

“Fuck.why would you go to the forest?” I growl, and slap her.

“Because I was looking everywhere for him. I searched everywhere, except the forest. So I went to look there.” She whispers

“If you couldn’t look after him, you should have called me!” I shout, as Asher wraps his arms around my waist, pulling me away from her.

“I’ll get him back, sweetheart. I promise” he whispers to me.

“Asher, I tried, I did-” I growl at her.

“Get out of my face!” I shout, trying to jump at her. She runs out of the room, and I turn to Asher.

“Let me go. I need to find him. I need to find my son!” I shout, punching him, trying to push him away.

“Sweetheart, calm down. He’s my son as well. I promise to get him” I nod, slowly.

“They can’t hurt Ethan. I’ll kill them. I’ll kill her” I whisper and he nods, placing a kiss on my forehead

“Calm down. I’m going to get him back.” He let’s me go and runs out of the room.

I know Asher’s scared, but he won’t show it. For me. He doesn’t want me to worry.

Don’t worry Asher, I’ll kill that bitch.