Konstantin: The Heartless Beta

Lily

I wake up, and that familiar migraine is back... the one I used to wake up with every morning after Stefan has been in to assault me. My eyes shoot open, and I sit up with my heart thumping wildly as I take in my surroundings.

Wait...how did I get back in bed?

A frown crosses my brow, and I look at the spot next to me, noticing Konstantin isn't there. What happened after he found me last night? I remember sobbing in his arms, and then him kissing me, but anything else after that... What?

Swinging my legs out of bed, I take a step towards the bathroom, but something feels off. By the full, uncomfortable feeling in my groin, it feels like I've had sex; hard, steamy sex. Wait, did Konstantin and I finally do it again last night? But why don’t I remember it?!

I run to my floor-length mirror and assess my body, noticing the claw marks still at my hips, and Konstantin's teeth marks were also still fresh in my neck...

What the Hell, we really had sex!

But why can't I remember a thing? It should still be fresh in my memory, right? We haven't had sex in over a year, and surely I would fucking remember it, right? Did we get drunk or something? Damnit...

/"Konstan-"/

/“Your demonic side took over last night, Lily; you scented our mate with demonic sulphur and made him pleasure you.”/ my wolf, Gypsy, suddenly speaks up when I am about to call Konstantin over the link.

I blink when she says this, then the reality of her words hits me. “WHAT?! What do you mean my demonic side took over?”

No, it can't be! That side of me is dead; it died when Stefan did!

/“You made him lay with you; he was like a mindless beast while you mated and could do nothing as you scented him."/

/“No! You're wrong; I would never do something like that to him! Not to Konstantin... I wouldn't..."/ /“But you did, Lily. You forced him, and there was nothing he nor I could do about it."/ She says, then looks at me with disapproval before laying her head down again.

I walk backwards and sit down on the bed again as disbelief coils in my stomach. I did to Konstantin what Stefan did to me for close to six months... I used him to fulfil my own selfish sexual desires while scenting him.

Bile rises in my throat, and I shoot up from the bed to run to the bathroom and empty the contents of my stomach. The only thing running through my mind is that I basically forced Konstantin to have sex with me... I forced my mate.

“This cant be happening...” I whisper to myself, dry heaving my disgust as nothing else would come out. “This can't fucking be happening!”

Sobbing, I lay down on the cool tiles floor and breathe out a sigh, feeling disgusted at myself for what I have done. Half Succubus, I know I will pass on this part of me to my children as well. They will have to go through this, need sex to fulfil themselves and use it as a means to control people. No... No, I can't allow that to happen. I need to shut this side of myself away and bury it; I don't want this fucking curse! They can't go through what I did; they can't live with this too!

Jumping into the shower, I try to wash the filth from me to no avail... I'll always fucking feel this tainted, no matter what I do. The fact that I'll pass this disgusting blood onto my children makes me hate myself even more. I couldn't control myself last night because I was already an emotional wreck, and just by feeling that way, I dragged Konstantin down with me.

I used him.

I fucking forced him. If that's not rape, then what is it?!

I level my breathing and set my heart to resolve with my mind made up. I cannot go on like this, I can't allow my children to suffer what I have, and I can't let others be at their mercy either. Kaia has the spirit of a slumbering demon inside of her; combine that with her Succubus genes and her powerful Volkov blood...she will grow up to be worse than Stefan and Morganna combined. Something needs to be done, and as I grab my cellphone to call a number I never would have dared to before, I know exactly what I have to do.

Konstantin

I'm drained.

As I make my way out of the bedroom, I turn back to look at Lily sleeping and wonder how we got back to our room.

Last night is something I don't want to experience again, and I can't help but wonder if the way she acted last night is the real reason she has refused to be intimate with me. She knew about that side of her; she knew that her demonic side was one of lust and craved it. I don't exactly know what happened, but I do remember her yellow eyes.

So, where does that leave us?

I have to... I have to tell Kai about this. /“Kai..."/ I call over the mind link; fuck, even my voice sounded exhausted.

/“I'm at The Slip,”/ he responds. I think he can feel something is off. He might not say much, but I know he observes anything. Not only that, but he'll never outright confront anyone; he would rather wait for them to come to him first.

This is why I'll never be a leader like him; Kai rules the pack as our mother did. He's a fair leader who people both fear and love because they know he can protect them. If I had to be in his position, I would rule with anger, so I'm glad it's not me.

The drive on my motorcycle left me even more exhausted, and by the time I walked into Kai's office, I nearly dropped to the ground.

Kai looks up when he sees me and frowns before rushing towards me and catching me before I fall. "You look like shit, brother. What happened?”

“Last night... Lily and I..." I shake my head and sit down on the leather couch in the entertainment section of the office, breathing out a long sigh.

He raises an eyebrow and sits down opposite me. “Bragging?”

“No, asshole,” I scowl, sitting forward with my elbows on my knees and my fingers laced together in front of me. "We had sex, yes, but Lily was... different. Things got hectic between us in the woods behind the mansion, then she scented me and...”

Kai frowns and leans forward with his hand over his mouth. “What do you mean things were different? It's normal for females to scent us as well when we mate, or is this because she's scentless?”

I shake my head. “She's scentless to others but not to me. Ever since I claimed her, I can smell her scent, and whatever she released last night was not it. It smelled like...” My eyes widen when I realise why it smelled so fucking familiar, and this thought alone pisses me off.

“It smelled like fucking Stefan Russo. She scented me and used me for sex last night; no fucking wonder I can't remember anything else.” I say and start pacing the floor.

Kai lets out a low growl, and when I look at him again, his eyes flash red. “She gave in to her demonic side last night?” He asks, looking as pissed off as I feel.

“I think she did. I mean, she was already so fucking emotional yesterday; I can only think that she was pushed over the edge, and it must have just culminated in what happened last night.” I say, raking my fingers through my hair.

My brother gets up and walks over to me, placing his hands on my shoulders and levelling me with a crimson gaze. “How are you feeling?” he randomly asks, causing me to frown.

I shrug. “Well, I'm fucking pissed off that she demonically roofied me, but-"

“Brother, your mate raped you last night and forced you to do something you can't even recall doing. How are you feeling?”

My eyes widen at his question, and I don't know what to say for the first time in my life. I have no fucking come back or cocky answer; I can't shrug his question off, and I can't just laugh about it. When he says it like that... it just feels wrong.

I shrug his hands off my shoulder and shake my head. “She didn't rape-"

“Konstantin, she did. She forced the entire act.”

“No, she didn't! I wanted to do it; I wanted to be intimate with her!” I exclaim, knowing I would have been shifting if I wasn't so tired right now. “I wanted it, Kai!"

My brother sighs and gives me an odd look. “Are you trying to convince yourself or me?” he says, then sits down and watches me again. “I'll call Marle to come over, but first, we need to get her out of the mansion and away from everyone else. We don't know what she'll try-"

/“Konstan-"/

I frown when I hear Lily's voice over the link abruptly cut off. “Kon, are you listening?” Kai asks. “Yeah, I... I think Lily just tried to call me over the link, but she stopped herself.” I say and wonder what could have happened.

Kai gets up, walks towards his desk and grabs his keys. “Good, I'll tell Marle to meet us at the estate.” He says while walking to the office door and looking back at me. “You coming?”

“What are you going to ask Marle to do?" I ask as I follow him out.

Kai looks at me apologetically. “We need to seal off the side of her that's dangerous to others, and with that, we might have to do the same to your children. Who knows what Kaia will grow to be capable of when she turns 26." He says, walking out, but I grab his shoulder and pull him back. “What do you mean when she turns 26?" I ask, feeling like I know what he’s talking about but not being able to put my finger on it.

"Don’t you remember what Marle said while she played midwife to Lily?” Kai frowns. “The witch put a bind on Kaia's demonic side before she was born, but the manifestation of her power will happen once she reaches the age of 26 - she'll become that demonic entity latching onto her, Kon. Your daughter will become the demon they tried to resurrect, and with Volkov blood running through her veins, she will be more powerful than all 5 Alphas put together.”