Chapter 45. You're Perfect
Konstantin
Within the time it took me to snap out of my shock, Lily had left the office. “Fuck!” I cry out, following after her and trying to call her over the link, but getting nothing. She can't have gotten far, and she can't leave the pack since the Bond Anchor is complete.
/“Lily, please,”/ I beg, /“where are you?"/
/“Kon?"/ The voice of my brother came. I forgot that since he’s Alpha, he can hear every conversation over the link.
/“Lily and I had an argument, and she’s run out,”/ I explain, catching the remnants of her lavender scent as I run to my motorcycle.
/“Need my help?”/ he asks, referring to his Alpha ability to bend someone's will over the link with a simple command, but I say no.
/“I know where she'll be, don’t worry,”/ I say, then tune out of the link as I make my way to the Estate.
I know my mate, and I know all her hiding spots, especially those places where she likes to be alone. The area that brings her the most peace is right at the lakeside behind the mansion - the exact place I ran to after I claimed her.
Fuck, I m such an idiot. I know she had been suffering from this and tried to help her as best I could, but I wasn't aware of just how deep her pain and turmoil was. I should have known. I should have been a better mate and stopped the toxic thoughts plaguing her.
Yes, I would love to be intimate with her again; I would love to worship her body once more and feel how she tumbles around me. But it can wait; I can wait until she’s ready for me once again.
Fuck, I love her, I would never do anything that would push her away from me, and now it seems as though I have. So why would she think that I'm impatient and only have sex on my mind? What exactly did I do to make her feel this way about me?
/“It's her mind,”/ Vulcan suddenly speaks up. /“Our mate's mind is tainted by her abuse and fears she’s not good enough to be by our side.”/
This just pisses me off even more. Stefan may be dead, but he’s left a permanent fucked up impression on Lily. It just makes me want to kill him over and over again.
At the thought of the cunt, I think back to her words which caused me to freeze up. The demonic side of her enjoyed what Stefan did to her, enjoyed the abuse and pain he inflicted on her. I know I shouldn't be upset or affected by this, but I am.
Yeah, Lily couldnt help it because he was pulling in her demonic side, but it still fucking sucks. Besides that, what the fuck must she not be going through, knowing that the Succubus side of her enjoyed the abuse?
/“That's exactly what I meant,”/ my smartass wolf speaks up again, and I grit my teeth.
/“I know she’s stuck inside her head right now, so we need to show her that all those bad thoughts are unfounded. She's still as perfect as the first time I laid my eyes on her.”/ I tell him and hear him grunt in approval
We are near the mansion, but I kick off from the bike and shift immediately when I catch her scent on the breeze. My eyes spotted her little cherry red sports car parked near the mansion and knew I had guessed correctly.
I walk towards the clearing and shift back when I see her pacing the grass next to the lake, naked as if she had been running as well. She shakes her head. “No, you're wrong! I am fit to be a mother!” she exclaims, hitting her head with a closed fist.
“Konstantin loves me; he wouldn't leave me and take the twins. We're his family! He doesn't just want me because of the Mate Bond!"
/“Go to her, Konstantin!"/ Vulcan urges, his ears flattened against his head at the sight of our mate. I breathe out and approach her, releasing my scent so she would know it's me. “Lily,” I call, and her head whips towards me.
“Konstant...in,” she trails off, her bottom lip trembling and her eyes flashing silver. “You came for me."
I nod. “I'll always find you, no matter where you go off to,” I say, coming to a stop in front of her. I run a finger up her arm and wrap my arms around her waist. “You're my mate, baby; I know you better than anyone.”
She chuckles when I say this and shakes her head. “You would still want this spoiled body for a mate?” she says sadly, the tears slipping down her cheeks, and 1 tilt her chin to face me.
“I will still want you when you're old and wrinkly, baby, and even then, you'd still be the most beautiful woman in the world to me,” I say while wiping away her tears.
Her breath hitches. “I need help, Konstantin, so much help...” she trails off, and I draw her closer, allowing her to cry freely into my chest.
The sound of her sobbing echoes around the woods, and I can do nothing but soothe her with my scent and voice while running a hand up and down her back. I honestly did not know how much she needed this, how much she needed to cry and let me know how much she was hurting. And to be honest, I feel like an absolute tool for not noticing her struggle after all this time.
Eventually, her crying eases up, and she looks up at me with tear-stained cheeks and red eyes "You're too good for me,” she says.
I shake my head. “You're made for me, and that makes you perfect in my eyes. Don't ever think lowly of yourself again, baby. Please know that I will never leave you and that I will always wait for you, no matter what.”
Before she could respond, my lips were on hers. Her kisses are salty because of her tears but still tastes like the sweetest cherry. I hold her close to me and can kick myself as I feel my cock harden against her. The last thing we need is sex, but her scent has my mind clouded, and all I can think about is claiming her.
However, as I am about to stop us, she jumps up and wraps her legs around me. “I need you," she murmurs, sending my head in an absolute spin.
I break off the kiss and hold her tightly against me, my cock throbbing against her exposed, slick pussy. “Are you sure, baby? You're ready?”
She nods. “I need you so much right now, Konstantin, please...” she begs, grinding herself against me, and before she can protest, I lift her up and slam her down on my waiting shaft.
“Fuck,” I breathe out through gritted teeth, loving the feel of her walls hugging my thick length. She digs her nails in my shoulders as I continue to slam into her, needing more this, more of her. After a year, she still feels perfect; everything about her is still as perfect as the first time I claimed her.
She throws her head back, her moaning driving me crazy, and when she opens her eyes to look at me, my eyes widen, and my cock nearly goes completely limp.
Her eyes are yellow.
I understand it now... why she needed this and why she needed it right now. We were nowhere near making love; this was fucking and primal, but Lily needed it.
The sound of her moans echo through the forest and makes me thrust into her harder. I grab her perfect ass and bring her down faster, her arousal already trickling down my inner thigh. Her moans get quieter, and she stiffens against me before letting out a scream that has me digging my claws into her thighs and fucking her faster.
I didn't want our first time together after a year to be like this; I didn't want to fuck her. I wanted to take my time and show her how much I worshipped her body. Call me fucking soft, but I wanted to make love to her; I wanted it to be special.
Yet, as she scents me, my mind starts to go fuzzy, and I forget my train of thought. As I fall under a green haze of ecstasy, the only focus is pleasing my mate, and nothing else matters. Nothing at all.