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🐺Kody🐺

It’s been wonderful having Alester here... The rest of his pack on the other hand, not so much. Marcus is nice and so is Owen but they come from a pack where they were made to believe they were the best.

Many of them are stuck up but have been welcomed. The issue for me is they don’t think I’m worthy of being Alester’s mate. I hear their whispers and I see the looks of disgust they give us... me.

Alester tells me he doesn’t care what they think but it really gets to me. It’s been months of this and it is starting to become impossible to ignore.

Alpha Zane and Luna Tracy asked if I wanted them to handle it but I don’t want to be a burden. I’m already a huge burden on Alester. So much so I’ve stopped confiding all my doubts to him. He still asks but now I lie. He has so much to do.

Him and Marcus have started a special team of warriors. I am part of the team and those that tried out and didn’t make it blame my relationship with Alester. They think he picked me just so he can keep me close but that’s just not true.

The truth is I have Alpha blood in my veins. That makes me powerful and better than the average warriors. The only person who knows other than me is Alpha Zane. He’s actually the one that told me. He told me he could scent it on me but because my wolf isn’t with me the others likely wouldn’t pick up on it.

I guess it’s true because even Alester hasn’t noticed or he has and he’s waiting for me to tell him. I would but I don’t feel like a potential Alpha. I feel as weak and pathetic as they all tell me I am. Physically I’m strong but mentally I’m a mess.

“Hello Little Wolf.” Alester wraps his arms around my waist.

“Hi. Aren’t you supposed to be helping to build the training house with everyone?”

“I’m the boss so I’m taking a break to spend some time with you”.

“I miss you when you’re off doing team stuff”.

He makes it sound like I’m running the team. I’m just making sure we have everything ready in case we get called out. It’s really not that important, everyone checks their own stuff before and after I check it.

“Don’t be ri-ridiculous Alester”.

His eyes flash, Lex is feeling frisky he takes control and slips a hand under my shirt trailing his fingertips so lightly over my skin it feels like when his lashes brush my chest. It tickles but it also fans the embers of need to a flame.

We kiss a lot, it’s quite juvenile, if I compare it to Tessa and Sadie’s relationships with Marcus and Brandon.

I’m still too scared to be with him but he’s so patient and loving. We tried a while ago but I had flashbacks and nightmares and it just brought back a lot of traumatic memories. I thought I was ready but I’m not, which made me feel more worthless than I already felt.

Why should Alester wait for me and all my problems to get under control when he can have someone who can give him literally everything I can’t? This stuff weighs on me. I try so hard but he deserves and so much more.

“Little Wolf, get out of that gorgeous head of yours. I love you. You’re my mate and you’re who I want and who I need”.

He kisses my neck and turns me around, “You’re so incredible I wish you could see yourself the way the ones who love you see you”.

I lay my cheek on his chest while hugging him. His strong heartbeat helps to keep me sane.

“I’m ok, I’m just tired” I lie. I don’t like lying but he has other responsibilities.

Alpha Zane treats Alester like he’s his son and Alester works hard to deserve it. Our Alpha is a great wolf and man. I know I’m lucky that Sadie was from here and rescued me too.

“Kody I know you’re lying to me but it’s ok. You don’t always have to tell me how you’re feeling. I just want to make sure you have what you need from me”.

Guilt stabs at my heart. Alester kisses me with such passion I feel his love. It’s not just once in a while either. It’s literally every kiss no matter how brief. I just wish I could believe that I deserve it.

Marcus comes up and asks him a question which gets him distracted so I slip away to my room.

"I would have liked to have said goodbye to you but I understand you need some time alone. I’ll see you for dinner. I’ll bring up something amazing”.

I don’t reply. I have so many conflicting thoughts going through my head. I know how he feels but aren’t we supposed to do right by those we love? Isn’t what’s right to let him be the powerful Alpha he will be with someone who can return to him all the love he gives and give him cubs?

No matter how much I’d want to, that’s not something I can ever give him.

🐺Alester🐺

“He’s pulling away again, Marcus, and I don’t know what to do”.

“I’m sure things will be fine. Just keep reaffirming your feelings for him and he’ll learn to trust it”.

“I’m trying but this feels different than when I fucked up and rejected him”.

“You’ve heard what wolves from RavenWood have said. I’ve been trying to stop it but they are going to say what they want”.

“I don’t know why so many of them came here if they don’t like him”.

“You’re mom didn’t say who your mate was. Just that it was a man and your father didn’t approve. I guess they expected someone more like you”.

“He’s better than me. He’s kind, selfless and strong. His soul is so pure”.

“We know that, the girls and Brandon know that, but everyone else just sees how he clings to all of us when they are around. I don’t blame him. If I was him I’d likely be a sniveling mess on the floor, never able to be around anyone. We know how amazing he is and we know how much you love him but they don’t”.

“I want him to feel safe in his home and he doesn’t”.

“I know. They will come around. When he gets more comfortable with the added wolves they will see he’s perfect for you, because he is”.

He’s right. When Kody stops being thrown off by the groups that keep heading to Blue Moon he’ll be able to relax. It’s been a lot of change these few months and he’s been handling it really well.

"Hello my love, the kitchen is making roasts tonight but if you want something else I can ask them for something else for us”.

“That’s fine. Thanks”.

It didn’t sound fine but I’m positive it’s about how he’s feeling and not about dinner. I wish I could make everything alright. That my love could ease his mind. Seeing him hurt, hurts me.

I’m still mad beyond all reason about what happened to him, I truly wonder if his mother knew what she was doing to him when she left him there. I shouldn’t blame her. I should go to black blood and kill them all myself. They dared to touch what belongs to Lex and I. It’s a battle of will I fight nightly when Kody has nightmare after nightmare.

With so many new faces his nightmares started getting worse again. I’m surprised he gets enough rest to train with us. Sometimes he slips away and naps not far from where the cubs play. He loves being outside. Some nights we sleep outside beneath the stars. I wrap Little Wolf in my arms to keep him warm and safe.

Maybe tonight we’ll camp out again. When I’m finished helping Marcus I grab food for Kody and I. He’s just showered and is pulling his sweats on over his cute ass. It’s a shame I wasn’t a few seconds earlier. He wheels around and covers himself before he realizes it’s me.

“You sc-scared me ha-half to death”.

“I’m sorry Little Wolf. Would you like to go and sleep outside tonight?”

“Yes please”.

Thank goddess, I was expecting him to say no.

We eat and head out to his napping spot. I lay out the first blanket and wrap him in the other. It’s supposed to get a bit colder than normal tonight and because his wolf is gone he doesn’t produce as much body heat as me. We lie back together and stargaze until he falls asleep.

I press a kiss to his forehead, “Good night little wolf”.