In My Desperate Time

“I don’t know his weakness. It seems that he has no weakness.”
I say to Steven.
“Besides, I haven’t been in Virginia for a long time, so now I know nearly nothing about Frances. I guess I should catch up the
news about him.”
The expression on Steven’s face relaxes a bit, and he says with a smile, “Now you start to know that he who has a thorough
knowledge of the enemy and himself is bound to win in all battles. So why were you so impulsive before?”
His words make me feel ashamed of myself, and in my heart I feel sorrier for him.
“I will arrange a place for you to live, as well as the work for you. I can still make sure that Frances can’t find you if you don’t want
to show up.” Steven says in a deep voice.
I shake my head and say, “I think a place with the good and bad mixed together has the most information. If I want to know more
Frances’s secrets, I have to work at that kind of places. I’m not afraid he will find me, and even if he does, I won’t admit my
identity before I have a way to deal with him. As long as I insist that I’m not Jane, what can he do to me?”
Steven doesn’t object to my idea, and just says, “As long as you’re happy. I’ll send someone to secretly protect you at the bar
where you work.”
“How do you know I’m going to work at a bar?” I ask him with surprise.
“Or what else could it be? Is there a place more mixed and complicated than a bar?” he laughs and stands on his feet, walking
towards outside, “Call me when you have a decision.”
Steven leaves. But my heart can’t be at peace for a long time.
I don’t know if I can get back what Frances owes me, but I’m afraid that I’ll never be able to repay Steven for what he has done
for me.
Two days later, I get a job at Heartbeat, the largest bar in Virginia.
The bar has a large scale and the best-known of it is the nightly pole dancing show. I know Frances. He always keeps a sense of
pride and superiority, and he would never come to such a place. So I’m not really worried about running into him here.

I don’t look very pretty, but there are full of flirtatious people here, so I can’t get away with being teased even though I’m just a
waitress.
It’s lucky that Steven has sent his men here to protect me secretly, and he also told the boss of the bar to look out for me, so I
hasn’t run into any big trouble yet.
After running around the bar for hours, I get a little tired and find a place at the corner to rest a while.
And the manager always turns a blind eye when he sees it.
On the stage, beautiful women twirl their enchanting body beside the pipe. The men around the stage look straight at those
pretties, flirtatious words rising one after another among them.
“If I can fuck one of those pretties, it must feel like in heavens!”
The sudden voice makes my whole body freeze there.
Andrew!
He is released from the jail!
Expecting to have nothing to do with him anymore, I lower my head and turn aside to avoid him.
But in the next second, I feel my hair is pulled by somebody.
“You bitch, turn around!”
Andrew rudely pulls my hair and turns my body around, right with his hideous face before my eyes.
“Damn you! You have caused me so much pain. I would recognize you even if you become ashes! Weren’t you proud before?
Didn’t you climb onto the rich’s bed? So, you have been dumped so quickly and come to this kind of place to get fucked by men,
huh?”
It’s been a long time since I saw him last time. But the way he talks is still so unpleasing to ears.
I raise my head stubbornly and say to him with disdain, “So? It’s better than someone here who just can’t do it. How dare he
dream about the dancing girls on the stage!”

“I can’t do it?! You must fucking try it! It’s a shame that I’ve never even slept with you when you were my wife but you were slept
by someone else!”
As he is saying, he drags me over to the bathroom.