In My Desperate Time

At this moment, I deeply felt my inability. Even if I am eager to revenge, even if I want to tackle Frances Louis, confronting
Frances Louis at close quarters is just like hitting a rock with an egg. I couldn’t fall asleep on the plane, and I was thinking about
how to tackle Frances Louis. After washing briefly, I have a sleep.
In my dream, a beautiful baby walks toward me and murmurs, “Mummy, I miss you so much. Mummy, give me a hug.” The word
hurts me deeply. I couldn’t stop crying. I rush to hug the baby, suddenly a tall man shows up.
“Get away.” Frances Louis shouts. Then, he chokes the baby’s throat and lifts the baby up. I watch the baby gradually stop
struggling, I want to get the baby back, but Frances Louis pushes me hard and I fall on the ground. Beneath me, red blood oozes
out. Pain, piercing pain. The cut seems to hurt again, but my heart hurts more.
I cry and wake from the dream. Recalling the scene in the dream, I couldn’t stop my tears. Frances Louis, this name seems to
root in my heart. I loved him before, but now I hate him.
Someone knocks the door. I check the time and suggests maybe it’s Steven Song. Wiping away the tears from my face, I get up
and open the door.
Steven Song stands in front of the door with fatigue. He makes a long sigh after seeing me. “Jane Noyes, tell me, how can I help
you get rid of all these?”
“Sorry, I trouble you again.” I simper and look at him with regret.
“I said before, you never need to say sorry to me.” He becomes gentle. Putting his suitcase down, he sits on the bad and says,
“next, what’s your plan?”
It’s a difficult question. I came back on an impulse, and I never think about my next step. So when I get off the plane, I am
completely muddled. I shake my head and smile bitterly at Steven Song, "If I really have an idea, I must have gone to Frances
Louis right now."
“You...” Steven Song shakes his head and says helplessly, “ Fortunately, you haven’t totally lost your mind and gone to Frances
Louis on impulse, otherwise I don't know how to help you. "
“I know you care about your baby and your hate won’t end even if Frances Louis dies. Maybe what you want, is he being painful,
being more painful than dying. At best, he would pay the price for his sins.”

Steven Song’s word is totally what I want. I nod and can’t agree more. “The best way to tackle someone is to know what he
cares about. Only after learning his weakness, you can make him more painful than just dying.” Steven Song continues.
“However, what’s the weakness of Frances Louis?” I ask.
Though I have spent a long time with Frances Louis, I still don’t know what he cares. He always seems to be cold. If really there
is someone he cares about, I can only think about Whitney Jordan.
So, does it mean I should do something to Whitney Jordan? Or her baby? I remember that Frances Louis doesn’t divorce
Whitney Jordan because she is pregnant. It could show that the unborn baby is very important to him.
However, as a mother who lost her baby, how can I allow same thing to happen again?