In My Desperate Time

Mindy turns around and looks at me in surprise, “You’ve decided to keep the baby?”
I nod to her with a determined look.
As she also will be a mother soon, she can understand my feelings. She nods and says, “I respect your decision. I’ll be with you
to protect the baby. If the baby is a girl, I must let her be my son’s wife when she grows up.”
“Jane Noyes. Jane Noyes.” the doctor’s calling my name. Mindy and I look at each other and then we walk out of the hospital
with hands holding.
Outside the hospital, the sky is blue, and I’ll do my best to give my baby a bright future, just like the brilliant sky.
“Jane, there are two things you need to bear in mind. First, don’t let anyone else know that you are pregnant. Second, you have
to think of ways to get away from Frances as soon as possible.”
I can’t agree with Mindy more. It’s impossible for me to hide when my belly gets bigger if I don’t leave Frances early.
But with Frances’ help, my family’s life has finally settled down. If I leave him now, he must be going to ruin their peaceful life out
of anger. I don’t want things to go like this.
“I really don’t know what else I could do now. I feel that I may never be able to get rid of Frances for the rest of my life.” I say
desperately.
“You forget one thing, my silly girl. You said Whitney is pregnant and she lives with you and Frances now, do you remember?
You can try your best to promote their relationship. When Frances is deeply into his wife, how could he have time for you?”
Mindy advises me and gives me a blank look.
But she doesn’t know that I love Frances. It’s just hard for me to push the man I love to the other woman.
However, for the sake of my baby, I nod approval of her idea.
This is, perhaps, the nature of motherhood.
Child is always the first in a mother’s heart.
I become more cautious after I decided to keep the child. On the one hand, I have to take good care of my baby, and on the
other hand, I couldn’t let Frances and Whitney know I’m pregnant.

My biggest concern, however, has inevitably occurred.
I have a severe morning sickness.
As the old sayings goes, having talents and pregnancy are the same, because time will finally expose them.
I could only eat sour things secretly every day to suppress my urge to vomit. When it’s out of control, I would go to the bathroom
to have a big vomit, pretending I’m having a stomachache.
I have lost tons of weight within a few days.
This day, when I am vomiting miserably in the bathroom of my room, Frances suddenly comes in, and I hurriedly flush the sink,
pretending to wash my hands. I turn around calmly and complain, “Can’t you just leave me alone when I’m using the bathroom?
You scare me!”
Damn it! I have forgotten that my room is connected with his by the bathroom. He hasn’t come to my room these days, and I
thought he has lost interest in me. I can’t be so careless next time.
He ignores my words and walks over directly, saying in a deep voice, “You have kept rushing to the bathroom these days, what’s
wrong with you?”
“Nothing, just spoil my stomach because of eating too much.” I reply quietly.
Fortunately he believes my story, which makes me feel relaxed.
The next moment, he’s walking towards my room.
“I’ll sleep here tonight.”