In My Desperate Time

I thought I had been ready to live with Whitney under the same roof, and at least I could know her movements, so I could better
protect myself.
But it turns out that I really underestimate her. She’s far more horrible and scary than I imagine.
The old Mr Louis has been out these days. Whitney chooses herself a guest room to live in. Frances doesn’t come to my room
these days, neither does Whitney go to his.
Everything seems to be going well.
If it didn’t happen to me, I would never know that a man’s mistress and his wife could live harmoniously under the same roof.
But it is just a fake harmony, things hasn’t change until this evening.
When we are eating at the table, Whitney suddenly puts a pregnancy test stick on the table, and says to Frances shyly,
“Frances, I’ve been pregnant.”
I take a look over the stick and see there are two clear lines on it. It is a sign of pregnancy.
How could they get a divorce now that they have a baby now? Even if Frances wants to, the court would not allow it.
Frances just gives a cold glimpse at her and says quietly, “You are not going to tell me that this child is mine, are you?”
“Of course it’s yours. Don’t you remember that night......”
She doesn’t continue but these few words are enough to arouse pictures in mind.
Frances says nothing, tacitly admitting that what Whitney said is true.
I feel bad in my heart and eat desperately with my head lowered.
Whitney’s face beams with a happy smile.
“I’ve already told mom and dad about this, and they’re happy that they finally have a grandchild.”
My hand under the table touches my belly unconsciously.

The baby in my belly is also his child. But my child is destined to be hidden as a secret, would never be known by the Louis
family.
A week will be over till tomorrow. Tomorrow, my baby will disappear in this world forever.
A strong sadness swells in my heart. But it doesn’t help, I can’t protect my baby and don’t let him come to this cruel world is the
best choice.
The next morning I go to the hospital after sending a message to Mindy.
After an examination at the hospital, Mindy and I wait outside the operating room.
A pregnant woman with a big belly holds a little girl about three years old by the hand. They walk past me but stop then.
“Are you going to have a baby too? My mom said little baby is very cute. I can play with your baby when it’s born.”
The girl’s innocent smile touches me deeply.
At this moment, I feel more reluctant to give up my baby. Tears roll down my face as I gently touch my belly.
Perhaps the pregnant woman sees me not look right, so she takes her little girl away.
Mindy also sighs when seeing me sad like this.
“Jane, I know it’s hard for you to give up the child, but you have to consider it clearly. Keeping this baby would do no good for
both of you.”
My resolution was literally shaken just now, but Mindy’s words wake me up again. I shake my head and say to her, “Don’t worry, I
won’t be silly.”
She feels relieved and nods to me when hearing my words.
A young girl in front of me in the line reluctantly walks into the operating room, accompanied by her mother.
She cries sadly when coming out.
“Oh, my baby. I saw him. He’s such a little creature, but he was gone now. I’m so cruel. We could have given him a home, even
without a father. I can raise him alone. Oh, mom, I lost my baby. I’m so sad, I......”

The young girl faints before finishing her words.
But I am deeply touched by her words.
I have no right to end such a little life. The baby should be raised to be a grown-up now that it has been brought to this world. As
a mother, my duty is to try my best to protect my baby.
I couldn’t be so cruel to my baby!
After a considerate thought, I stand on my feet and say to Mindy, “Mindy, let’s leave here!”