I'm the Alpha's World

My eyes flutter open many times before I accept that I'm awake. I glance at the clock to see its one in the afternoon, and I look back at Sebastian as he sleeps peacefully. Usually he's gone by now.

I yawn and throw the covers off my body only to immediately cover back up. I'm naked. I feel a certain soreness below my waist and it all comes back to me. My cheeks turn dark red and I think back to last night, about everything that happened. His hands all over my body, the intense kissing, the thrusting. I shake my head and fall back against my pillow.

We, we...

You had sex.

Don't say that word! I groan at my wolf. I hate that word, it sounds so, dirty.

Because it is and it was, she says and my eyes nearly pop out of my head.

We are no longer talking about this!

I roll on my side and stare at Sebastian, he was inside me. Oh goddess, I need some fresh air and a painkiller.

Slowly I slide off the bed and perform a mix between a sprint and a tiptoe to the closet. I shut the door behind me and throw on a pair of fabric shorts and a t-shirt. Once I'm all covered and comfortable I sneak out of the closet and through the bedroom door. Henry causes me to jump and have a mere heart attack when I turn and see him in the hall.

"Good morning." He chuckles and we walk downstairs together.

"What's so funny?"

"Oh, nothing at all." He grabs a cup of coffee from the counter. "Did you hear anything really late last night, possibly Sebastian's name over and over again."

My jaw drops and my cheeks turn even darker then before, heck, my entire body might be red.

He lifts he cup to me and sits down at the small table in the kitchen. "Henry, please never talk about this again." I beg and sit down beside him.

"No problem, it's probably the last thing I want to discuss at breakfast."

Suddenly I hear footsteps nearing the kitchen and I shoot out of my seat, but it's too late, when I turn for the door Sebastian is walking in. Shirtless and bare. I hold back my shriek as he looks down to me. "I have to go, to the uh, bathroom." I mutter and slip past him only to hear him chuckle behind me.

I can't face him, it's too embarrassing. Apparently I sounded like a sex maniac last night. I cringe at my choice of words and lock the bathroom door behind me.

I want to burry myself six feet underground and not come up until this has passed over, it will pass over right? Henry better not hold this over me for the rest of my life. I plop down of the toilet seat cover and drop my head in my hands. Why do I have to be so awkward? Oh yes, because I'm Evangeline and nothing can ever go smoothly.

"I have to pee." Henry's voice comes from the other side of the door and I roll my eyes.

"Go to the other bathroom."

"I can't hold it." He wines.

I open the door only to have him push past me and shut it in my face. A sigh leaves my lips and I lean against the wall and wait until he's done.

"Why are you still here and not suffering in the awkwardness?" He comes out with a pout.

"Because I was having a moment in there until you and your tiny bladder ruined it."

"Oh come on, you can't run away from this for ever, well at least until tonight and the party starts all over again." He smirks and I smack his arm. "Ow."

"Stop being an annoying third grader and leave me and my sexual awkwardness alone."

"Evangeline, you're the one that's making this entire situation awkward, so what? You and my older brother did the dirty and its no big deal."

I sigh and cross my arms. "Henry, what am I supposed to say?"

"You don't have to say anything, all you have to do is act normal like nothing happened." He suggests and leads me back into the kitchen. "Just remember, it's no big deal."

I nod and hold back my blush while we enter the kitchen. Sebastian is sitting at the table casually drinking coffee while I'm having baby panic attacks in the bathroom. Obviously I knew this wasn't something completely new to him, but I wish he was acting weird just like me. I wouldn't feel so alone then, alone with my sexual awkwardness.

I hold my breath and sit down at the table, beside Sebastian and across from Henry who is giving me a thumbs up.

"Would you like to try some coffee or are you still waiting until you're thirty?" Marina comes up behind me with a smile.

"I'm still waiting." I mumble and knot my hands together on my lap.

"I'll still be ready then." She turns away and Henry gives me a weird look.

"You're waiting until you're thirty to try coffee? I guess some activities can wait a few years and other cant." He holds back his laugher as I kick him in the shin.

I mouth 'I will kill you' at him only making him more amused. Only Henry would build up my confidence only to watch me humiliate myself.

Suddenly Sebastian's hand makes contact with my thigh and I can't hold it in anymore, like a volcano ready to explode, it's the word vomit all over again. "We had sex okay!"

My hands immediately slap over my mouth and Marina drops a plate to the kitchen floor. Sebastian lets his coffee slip from his hand while Henry stares at me with his eyes popping out of his head.

"Shit." Sebastian mutters from the coffee now all over him and I sink down in my seat.

Marina snaps back to life and hesitantly hands Sebastian a dish towel.

"Oh my... This is the best morning I've had in years." Henry pipes up and takes a sip from his mug. I glare daggers at him and I shoot out of my seat. "I'm going to go for a walk, a really really long walk."

I flee the scene of my crime and head straight out the front door not daring to look back.

I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I repeat over and over again in my head as I try not to have a mental breakdown from the never ending flow of embarrassment. The worst part is, I do it all to myself.

"Evangeline slow down." His voice calls from behind me and suddenly I feel as if I'm in a street race like the ones in the movies.

I spin around and see Sebastian jogging towards me while wiping the coffee from his upper body that is still very bare. "Will you put on a shirt or at least use the dish towel to cover something." I groan and glance away from him. The last thing I need right now is to have my horrible hormones get in the way.

Another small chuckle slipped from his lips and he he'd the towel up to his torso. "Is that better?"

"Yes."

He walks up to me and places his free hand on my shoulder. "You almost gave Marina a heart attack."

I pout and look down. I should apologize to her, I'm pretty sure no cute little older lady would've wanted to hear that. Her poor mind was full of little older lady stuff and now it's full of 'Evangeline just said she had sex'.

"Look, you don't have to be so nervous, just take a deep breath and calm down. What we did was normal, almost everyone in their lifetime is going to have sex."

My face scrunches up when he says the word, sex. I don't know why it bothers me so much. "You sound like my dad, if he ever talked to me about this."

"Well I can't say I've had to explain this before."

"You don't have to finish, I just have to get used to this so we're going to have to keep having sex until it's not weird anymore." I glance up at him.

Sebastian opens his mouth to say something but he stops. "You know what, whatever you think is best."

I smile and grab his hand. "You can take down the dish towel now."