His Soul & His Shame

I woke up to the sound of banging on my door. I tossed and turned all night thinking about the stupid kiss which ignite the fire in me which had withered when I left home two years ago. It's dangerous to my soul and heart to be near Ezra. "Fay! Open the door right now or else I will kick it down," Izzy yelled from the outside of the door making me groan. I barely slept and she is disturbing the little sleep I was getting.

"Go Away Izzy!" I yelled out covering my face with a pillow and trying to block out her noise and knocking but she persistently started knocking again. I am not going to get free of her.

"This better be something worth losing my sleep over or else pray to God that....." I yanked the door open, my words dying in my throat.

"Surprise!" They both yell in unison making me look at them like I am dumb. I hate surprises and especially like these.

"Daniel? What are you doing here?" I asked, making his grin fall a bit but like always Izzy covered everything with her bubbly laugh and pushed me into the room Daniel tailing her.

"Don't be so surprised! I called him over since he is bored out of his mind during the holidays." Umm! She didn't even ask me first to invite him over! It's not like I am mad to see Daniel here but at least she should have informed me. "You are alright with me coming here, Right?" Daniel asked, raising her eyebrows in question. Seeing him like this made me put a stop to my inner battle of doubts and a grin starts to appear.

"Of course it's alright and I am happy that you joined us." I gave him a side hug and returned to my earlier place to stand.

"See! I told you she will be alright with this." Izzy chimed in while going through my phone.

"What are you doing with my phone miss bubble!" I snatched my phone from her hands and locked it not wanting her to snoop around.

"I just texted Joanna to come over for brunch." She is faster than me.

"I will freshen up and meet you guys down." I moved toward the bathroom and closed the door to get ready for the day which had been started with a blast and I don't know what will happen till the evening.

Once I check myself in the mirror and am satisfied with how I am looking, I went downstairs for the breakfast.

"Good Morning!" I greeted my parents and sat down in my chair, Daniel and Izzy are sitting opposite me.

"Good Morning! How did you sleep, Fay!" Mom asked, kissing my head and sitting on my right side. The sound of the doorbell gained our attention and Izzy shot up from her chair and practically ran towards the door like she is knows who is behind the door.

"I think Joanna came," I inform mom taking a huge gulp of coffee to wash away the remaining sleep lingering.

"Good Morning, Mr & Mrs. Moore." I choke on my coffee hearing the familiar deep voice behind me and his intense glare on my head.

I forgot about Ezra's brunch invitation till now. I know he will throw an Ezra tantrum right now in front of everyone but I need to put my foot down steadily to not let him walk all over me.

My parents greeted him back with big smiles and asked him to take a seat and to my not-so-much surprise he moved towards the chair beside me but at the last moment, Izzy pulled him towards the chair beside her making me raise my eyebrows in surprise.

Like, what the hell!

Ezra has a big scowl on his face and his jaw is clenched tight. I know he is annoyed as he hates it if someone touches him without his permission and Izzy is doing the exact thing.

"I can find myself a chair, you know!" Ezra gave her a tight smile and plopped himself on the chair. I know he is controlling himself from lashing out and I don't know why the change.

Izzy didn't even faze out at his words and just gave him a grin. I don't know what is with her and yeah I know she is some type of flirt but the way she is eyeing Ezra is making me uncomfortable. "YOU ARE STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM"

A loud voice yelled in my head making me cringe in my place. I was totally avoiding that voice for two years and was totally fine but seeing him in front of me with his beauty and charm, that voice is yelling out loud.

"It's good to have you with us, Ezra!" My Dad said filling his mouth with pancakes. A warm smile played on his lips. My parents always welcome Ezra into our home and never restrict us from anything as they know Ezra's condition and how his parents are separated but still living in the same house and leading different lives as they don't want people to talk about Irwin's complicated family.

"Fay invited me to come join for breakfast." Our eyes met making my stomach drop and the way he is looking at me is making me squirm. Why does he have to be so God damn handsome and make me feel alive and so many things I can't count right now.

I raised my eyebrows in question asking him when did I text him and why the hell is he lying! His eyes narrowed at my expression making me drop it and I averted my eyes not able to hold his burning gaze.

"Ezra! You didn't meet Fay's friend, right? This is Daniel and Daniel, this is Ezra." Izzy interrupted him when he opened his mouth ready to say something and Daniel is not only my friend, he is her friend too.

"Hey, Man! How are you doing?" Daniel forwarded his hand for a handshake and Ezra's eyes didn't leave mine trying to find something in them and I don't know what? And he saw the text Daniel sent to me last night and he is cooking his version of the story in his thick head.

He took Daniel's hand and shook it with the same tight smile he was holding from the start.

"Hi! I am great!" He is still looking at me and I just nodded my head at him and bowed my head down not having the energy to hold his gaze.

"Fay! I will take you somewhere. Please get ready after breakfast." I head snapped up but he is not looking at me anymore rather stuffing his face with pancakes with lots of syrup as he loves it.

"Where?"

"Can I come too!" Izzy and I asked at the same time and my eyes turned towards my friend who is behaving like all the girls who always flocked behind Ezra.

"I rather leave it as a surprise and No Izzy." Demanding Asshole, I threw daggers at him with my eyes throughout the breakfast and with the way he has an annoying smirk on his face I know he thinks he won and yeah! He won as I already made up my mind by going with him.

Izzy's smile dropped and her head bowed down in defeat. Seeing her sad made me feel bad for her but at the same time a small part of me is feeling giddy at his refusal and I hate that part.

I need to draw a thick line between us and I just want us to be friends and nothing more and he can't demand things from me and order me around. I huffed out loud and went to my room to get ready for the stupid surprise and I know it is nothing. He is just getting me away from everyone for himself.

He hates sharing me with everyone but he gets himself shared among others, I scoffed at that thought, and raided my wardrobe for an outfit.