His Alpha's Guardian

"You sure that you want that, Kataleya? Being a member of the Guardian's Court is not easy. It will test you and could quite possibly break you, depending on who you are assigned to.”

“I can handle it. I need something to take my mind off of this. Off of him, even if it is just a temporary solution,” I whispered the last part. While I know this will not solve my problem, I just need some time to figure out my next move and how I will bounce back from this

“Fine, 1 will make you a deal. I will introduce you to Tate and Carlos, but only if you come clean to your family about the pregnancy and your miscarriage. You don't have to tell your pack, but I think you should at least come clean to your family. They have a right to know what is going on and why you are not able to handle his death. You have lost a lot in the last few days, Kataleya. What difference would it make if your family and Justin's family knew about the miscarriage?”

He had a point, I guess. Even though, the thought of telling them about my miscarriage scares the fuck out of me. I already feel like I failed them...what difference will them knowing about the miscarriage make?

I sighed. “Fine, I will tell them about the miscarriage.”

It was now the next day and Edward told me that Carlos and Tate were going to be at the pack house to meet with me in about an hour.

Yesterday, I did as Edward asked and I told both my family, Justin's family, and Beta’s family, even though Oliver already knew about the pregnancy and the miscarriage. Everyone was shocked, but I think the realization dawned on them about why I had sunk into such a deep depression. I was not myself. His mom and my mom cried for about thirty minutes. His mom hugged me and told me that it was not my fault and Justin would not have blamed me for the miscarriage happening. I didn't even think that I had thought about Justin blaming me for the miscarriage until she said that and then I realized that was a fear of mine. If he was still here, then would he have blamed me for his unborn child dying? I have to believe with all my heart that he would not have blamed me and he would have understood my reasoning for everything that has happened since his death...

I even had a conversation with Elijah and my father. They were both going to look after the pack for me temporarily while I attempted to be a Guardian. They know that getting out of the pack house might actually prove to be beneficial for me. Michael was heading back to hopefully win his mate over and to help the Gamma and the rest of my warriors finish training the pack to where their training and skill level should be.

I was now standing outside the pack house waiting for my guests to arrive. I heard a rustling in the nearby woods, but when I looked that way, I could not see anything. Since I left the hospital and even my room in the pack house, I could not shake the feeling that someone was watching me. I thought I saw a shadow in the distance, but I think that was my eyes playing tricks on me.

About five minutes later, I see a car pulling up to the pack house and two tall men exit from the vehicle.

The driver was tall and he was a gorgeous dark color. His hair was black and his eyes were a light green. His other counterpart was tall, but slightly shorter than the other man. He was nicely tanned and had light brown hair and dazzling blue eyes. Both men were wearing tailored suits. The first man was wearing a black suit, while the other was wearing a nice, gray suit. Both men walked up to me and I held out my hand to them.

"Welcome to the White Fang pack. I am Alpha Kataleya.”

“Alpha, thanks for inviting us. My name is High Elder Tate and this is my lovely mate, Elder Carlos.” The one that had been driving the car said to me.

I led them into the pack house, taking one final look at the forest, not able to shake the thought that I was being watched. I led them up to my office, hoping that Oliver had not made too big of a mess. This was going to be my first time here since he died. While we did not share an office, we each had space reserved for the other in our offices. I knew from Oliver that his scent was still heavy in the room, but other than that, everything had remained the same.

We stepped into the room and I almost broke down. The first thing that caught my attention was the sandalwood and orange blossom that were dominant in the room. I could feel the moisture building on my cheeks and I quickly wiped my eyes before I turned to look at Carlos and Tate.

“Go ahead and take a seat.” I told them as I walked to my seat behind my desk. I kept glancing at his desk and it looked just the way he left it. I could feel the tears pricking at the back of my eyes and all I wanted to do was break down again. I couldn't though. I had to remain strong.

"So, you had an interest in being a Guardian?” Tate asked me.

I nodded my head, not trusting my voice right now.

Carlos looked at me sympathetically, “I can tell you are struggling to be in here. Is there somewhere else you would rather meet us?”

I shook my head no and before I could ask my next question, Tate had already answered it. “I know it seems weird that he was able to tell that you are upset and your discomfort. Carlos is an empath. It is easier for him to sense the emotions and feelings of others. While he is not able to read minds, typically the emotions of those around him allow him to discern what is going through the other person's head. Not only is he an empath, but Edward told us about some of the things that have recently happened to you, so that we were prepared for what we were going to be stepping into We don't like being surprised.”

I guess that makes sense.

“Alpha Kataleya, tell me, what are you hoping to achieve by becoming a guardian, even though it is only temporary?”

“I want to forget. Let me rephrase that, I don't want to forget Justin. I want to be so busy that he is not consuming my every thought. I am hoping time away from the pack where I grew to love him will help me decide on my next course of action. I want to get to the point where I can think of him without crying my eyes out, where I can return to my home that I shared with him without breaking down...I have been staying at the pack house on the Beta floor because I can't handle his scent lingering or the fact that his stuff is still there. I just want to feel like everything is going back to normal,” I finished in a whisper.

Tate was the first one to speak, “What about your pack? Who is going to be the pack’s Alpha while you are gone?”

“My father and youngest brother will take over my pack while I am gone. I have already talked to them both and they have agreed that if I decide to pursue this, that they will stand behind me and temporarily take my role as Alpha.”

“It seems that you have thought this through,” Carlos commented.

“I have. Will you please give me a chance to prove to you that I can do this?”

Tate and Carlos looked at each other and I could tell that they were mind-linking. “Fine,” Tate said, “but just know that this will be hard, not only on your body, but your mind. The things that our Guardians go through are not for the faint of heart and it can break you if you are not careful. Are you sure this is something that you are ready for?” he asked me.

“Yes, sir. I am beyond ready for this opportunity, should you present it to me.”

“Training lasts two months. Be prepared to leave by five in the morning tomorrow. Make all your arrangements today. We do not wait for anyone.”

"Of course, Elder Tate. Let me have one of the Omegas show you to your room and then I will begin my packing and preparations.”