Her King

Regina’s POV

I hate being vulnerable.

I don’t know why but I hate the idea of being weak.

I like to have control over everything, even on my emotions. And when I don’t have that control I feel frustrated...and at this moment in my life, I don’t have control over a damn fricking thing.

I wish I could make things better with a snap of my fingers.

After my meltdown, I shut myself off completely as I realized something which I was trying to brush it under the carpet since I found the truth about Atlas... I wanted to be his equal, but I can never be.

It is stupid because I know I can never match him or his abilities. Who am I in front of him? He is one of the most powerful creatures, while I am just a normal human.

I am so mad at myself for falling weak in front of Atlas. I want him to see as a strong person so when the time comes then he doesn't hesitate to rely on me.

I always wanted to be the strength of my significant other. Because isn’t it the beauty of any relationship when you both can support each other and becomes each other’s strength?

However, mine and Atlas' relationship is different. It is just something from the fantasy world, a human fell in love with a gorgeous supernatural being. The only difference is that we were destined to be together, there is no denial in this neither we are turning away from our feelings. His truth never mattered to me even after knowing everything, he is still the same Atlas to me.

His beast never scared me, I was and am still awestruck with his real self.

The same thing happened with Theo. Never once this thought crossed my mind that in front of me is a deadly and dangerous vampire, I just felt he is someone who is in pain and I need to be there for him.

Strangely, I have these strong feelings in my heart for his brothers. These feelings are nowhere romantic, however, these feelings are undeniably strong. I am protective and possessive over both of them like they are my own, which is so weird.

Just because they are Atlas's brothers I feel connected to them. I suddenly feel like a part of this lovely and weird family.

Atlas truly changed my life. Well, all in a good way.

However, the fact still remains the same that I can never be good enough for him.

I let out a small sigh, and not even a second has passed when Atlas is by my side looking at me with those mesmerizing violet eyes which are full of concern.

"Is something bothering you?" He asks pulling me to his side while pressing his lips on my hair. "You have been so quiet since we have returned home."

He is so respectful and never crossed any boundary that made me uncomfortable. His affectionate gestures like holding hands, or kissing my head, or giving me a simple hug bring so much joy to my heart. As they are nothing but filled with love.

It amazes me as I never knew simple gestures can also leave such a strong impression on a person's heart.

"Nothing, I am just in my self-pity mode," I mumble with a frown while I play with the collar of his t-shirt.

Once in a while, I go through this self-pity phase. Thankfully, it never lasts long, but still, it is long enough to make me upset and annoyed with myself.

"You are so strong then why are you feeling like this?" He frowns.

"That's the thing I am not strong."Sitting straight, I rake my hand through my hair feeling frustrated as his words sound like he is mocking me which I know he is not, "This makes me feel I am not good enough for you."

"You are you." I give him a pointed look, "While I am just weak."

I am just a weak person...weak human.

"Regina!" he says my name with such a command that I nearly still in my spot, "You are my Queen, and the queen is never weak." His eyes are blazing like he doesn't like what I have just said.

"You are allowed to feel weak at some times because we can never always stay strong. However, this doesn't mean that you are weak." He holds my face in his palm, locking his eyes with mine, "You don't have to worry about anything because I will be there for you always. That is what I am born to do, to hold you when you'll need support, to give you my strength when you will feel weak, and to love you till the last moment of my existence."

"Atlas." I breathe, holding his wrist tightly in my hand, "This is all I want to be for you... your strength, your support. But the truth is I can never be."Closing my eyes, I swallow the lump of emotions which is choking my throat.

"I want to be someone on whom you can depend on, I want to be your strength..." Shaking my head, I glance down, "That will never be possible, and you can't deny that. There will never be equality in our relationship."

Slipping his hand into my hair, he lifts my face with his thumb. Reluctantly, I meet his gaze, golden ring flickering around his iris. However, what catches my attention is the smile that is adorning his lips.

Hands down, for me he is the most handsome man walking on this earth.

"Do you know how handsome you are?" I whisper completely entranced by him nearly forgetting everything else.

"Yes." He nods his head with a mischievous glint in his eyes, "When my queen is so strikingly beautiful, so even I have to look good. Otherwise, how will I manage to match the standards of my queen?" His thumb caresses the side of my face.

"Atlas." I roll my eyes but still can't stop my cheeks from getting warm.

His compliments always get these weird reactions from me. I am not someone who blushes or becomes shy but leave it to Altas to make me feel like a shy teenage girl.

"Regina." He holds my hand as his expression turns serious but the smile remained on his lips, "You will never need me the way I need you. You might be dependent on me for support, however, my existence depends on you."

"You wanted to be my strength? But you don't know that you are more than that." He smiles, "I am nothing without you. You are my soul... my reason for living. Without a soul a person is nothing, just like that, I am nothing without you."

"I can't even survive a moment without you." Leaning forward, he kisses my forehead, "You are my strength, you make me the strongest man on this world, at the same time you are my biggest weakness."

The sincerity behind each of his words clenches my heart in a beautiful way. My heart swells with so much love for him that it makes me wonder how it hasn't exploded yet.

"I need you more than a person needs a breath. You are the one for whom my heart beats, you are the one who I was searching for throughout my lifetime. You are my salvation, Regina."

Closing my eyes tightly, I try to stop myself from crying because I know he saying the truth... his eyes are showing his truthfulness.

Everyone always wishes to have true love in their life and I was no different. But I also knew it is nothing but a wishful dream of mine which can't be fulfilled. However, Atlas is the beautiful reality of my dream he is my true love and I am so blessed to have him in my life.

Taking a deep breath, I open my eyes causing few tears to slip down my face.

"Atlas, I love you," I say the words which almost sounds hollow to my ears because what I feel for him can't be confined in these three words. "I don't how to define my feelings, but what I know is that, these three words are not enough to justify what I feel for you. I am incomplete without you, every single moment away from you makes me realize how much you mean to me. I don't know whether I will ever be able to put my feelings into words, however, I promise to show you how much you mean to me with every breath of mine."

Drawing me into his chest, he holds me tightly against him. He just keeps holding me, like he never wants to leave me.

"I love you, too, Regina." He leans back and allows me to see the tears which are swimming in his eyes. "I love you..." He whispers and he completely takes me by surprise when he presses his lips against mine.

What a pleasant and heart-stopping surprise!