Chapter 12:
Flashback to Amaya’s memories
Mom: “I see that you're still alive.”
Amaya: “Mom, why don't you stop them?”
Mom: “And why would I do that? Good thing your father is dead. He would be ashamed of you. Look at you. We dedicated our lives for this and what do you do? You're useless. So many lives were given and what for? For you to be born a human? I guess that's our punishment. I wish I could’ve killed you the moment you were born but you’ll serve your purpose. Do you understand that's the reason you're still alive? Poor you…you have no clue. Like being born a human wasn't enough already. God had to punish us like this. Thankfully I have your brother. My biggest pride and joy.”
Amaya: “How could you do this to your own daughter? And what's the purpose I have?”
Mom: “All in good time, you'll know. You’ll have no choice. Sometimes I really do pity you. But I can care less about you.”
In Amaya’s head: Everything hurts so much.
Azar: “Doll, come on. Stand up, you can do this. Stand up and fight. Don't you dare give up on your life. You need to be strong. for me.”
Amaya: “Azar?! What are you doing here?! You need to leave, now!!”
Azar: “I won't hurt you.”
Amaya: “You don't understand, I'll hurt you. (present time Amaya wakes up crying)”
In Amaya’s head: This felt so real like I'm living it all over again. For some people sleep gives comfort and rest. For me it's nothing but nightmares and demons from my past. I don't remember the last time I dreamed of something nice. The only time I didn't have a nightmare was while Azar was comforting me. I've always dreaded going to sleep. Like my reality wasn't cruel enough, even in my dreams I couldn't escape from it but this was different. What was Azar doing in my dream? And why did I tell him that? No, no, no. It can't be. It makes sense. It can't be true. I'll never let them hurt him. They're monsters. It is true…they should all be dead. I should’ve never been born, not like this. Maybe it's all in my head. Maybe I'm imagining things. I think I still have a fever. I need Azar. Maybe I should go see if he's still sleeping. I don't know. I can't just fall in love with him like a normal human being. It's too soon for that. It must be the mate bond. But either way…I need to be around him. I need to be as close to him as possible. I never even thought of it and now it's all I yearn for. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't silence my thoughts and stop my brain from going crazy. I wanted to be near him again. Nothing gave me sweeter pleasure than his strong arms around me. I felt so secure and protected. What the hell…I'm going. We only live once, right? There’s no way he'll turn me down. He made it very clear that I'm his mate. (Azar’s sower)
In Azar’s head: I can't get Amaya's soft lips off my mind. Her scent, her tiny body in my arms and the jealousy…I was shaking with rage when I realized others wanted her.
Blaise: “We need to mark our mate. They need to know she's ours. Everyone needs to see it. I'll kill everyone who looks at her like that again.”
In Azar’s head: You see what you're doing? That's the problem. We’re not able to control ourselves. We can't mark her. I've never heard of a wolf having a human mate. How can we possibly know that I won't kill her when I bite her neck to mark her? So calm the fuck down. She just started trusting us. The last thing we need to do is scare her. not to mention hurt her. She was tortured her whole life. We need to provide her comfort and love. That's all that matters. The other things can wait.
Blaise: “You're right. Our mate is too fragile.”
In Azar’s head: Exactly. Don't you dare try to take over and do something we’ll regret for the rest of our lives.
Blaise: “But she wants us. You've seen how she asked us. How her body reacted to us. she wants us like we want her.”
In Azar’s head: I have. I can smell her. The scent is stronger and stronger. Did she just come into my room? (Azar’s room)
Azar: “Doll, is everything okay?”
Amaya: “I couldn't sleep so I thought…”
Azar: “Yes?”
Amaya: “Can we sleep together?”
In Amaya’s head: Oh dear lord. His eyes just turned red. I know what that means.
Azar: “Sleep, you say? Are you sure that's all you have on your mind?”
Amaya: “Stop teasing me, I meant sleep…nothing else. It's fine if you don't want to. I'll just go back to my room.”
Azar: “Wait. Of course you can stay but are you sure that everything is okay?”
Amaya: “I'm afraid to sleep alone. I feel more safe with you. Even in my dreams when I know you're beside me and there's something else. To be honest, I can't stop thinking about you and her kiss and I wanna be near you. I think I can feel our mate bond.”
Azar: “Make yourself comfortable. I'll just go put something on and I'll be right back.”
In Amaya’s head: I don't mind you staying naked.
Azar: “You're so adorable when you blush.”
Amaya: “I'm not blushing.”
Azar: “Sure, hop in bed. I'll join you in a second. Are you feeling comfortable?”
Amaya: “Yes. You’ll be a great pillow for me.”
Azar: “Sweet dreams, my little flame. (the next day)”
Amaya: “WAKE UP!!”
Azar: “What's wrong, doll?”
Amaya: “We're gonna train.”
Azar: “That's why you're screaming?”
Amaya: “Yes.”
Azar: “You scared me to death. I thought something bad happened to you.”
Amaya: “Sorry.”
Azar: “It's okay. When did you sneak out of bed? Neither me or Blaise felt it.”
Amaya: “You were sleeping like a baby.”
Azar: “The best sleep of my life…having you in my arms. You really want us to do this?”
Amaya: “You promised.”
Azar: “I'll keep my promise. Stay right there, I'll be ready in a second. Okay let's get going. (in the woods)”
Amaya: “Ready to get beaten, wolfie?”
Azar: “Wolfie?”
Amaya: “What do you want me to call you?”
Azar: “Call me mate or your alpha.”
Amaya: “I didn't know that you were the alpha already.”
Azar: “I will be really soon.”
Amaya: “Fair enough, my alpha.”
Azar: “Show me what you got, doll.”
Amaya: “Oh I will. (an hour later)”
Azar: “Are you okay?”
Amaya: “It's not fair. You're too fast and strong.”
Azar: “I told you so. Did you hurt your hands from hitting me?”
Amaya: “Everything hurts.”
Azar: “I’m sorry.”
Amaya: “I really am powerless.”
Azar: “You're not, I'm impressed with your moves.”
Amaya: “You think I'm stupid? You didn't feel a thing.”
Azar: “We’ll practice. I know it will help you now. Let's go home.”
Amaya: “But I wanna train more.”
Azar: “You can barely stand. How does a hot tub sound to you?”
Amaya: “You have a hot tub?!”
Azar: “I do.”
Amaya: “What are we waiting for then?!”
Azar: “Want me to carry you?”
Amaya: “Yes please. (in the hot tub Azar’s home)”
Azar: “When I thought you couldn't get any more gorgeous. Join me.”
Amaya: “Do you like what you see?”
Azar: “I love it.”
Amaya: “How about now? (they kiss)”
In Azar’s head: Amaya took off her tiny bikini. I stood no chance against her beauty. The most stunning woman in the world is standing here and she's all mine. I couldn't wait a second longer to feel her lips on mine again. Each time we kissed, sparks were flying everywhere around us. And I knew she could feel it.
In Amaya’s head: I knew this was the perfect moment for us to finally unite. I couldn't wait any longer. So I decided to be bold. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. Not in front of my mate. I didn't need to hide my scars. He made it perfectly clear that he finds me beautiful the way I am. The need for him was growing stronger with every second. Especially now, pressed against him.
In Azar’s head: Our kiss deepened. Desire for each other is so strong. But that's when it hit me. Her scent…it changed!! Blaise was running wild.
Amaya: “Please don’t stop. I don't want you to stop. What's wrong?”
Azar: “No!! Oh God…your heat started.”