Chapter 10:
In Amaya’s head: Being so close to Azar…pressed against his rock hard chest, stirred something inside me. I was right. There’s a bond between us and I don't wanna deny it anymore. I wanted to be near him. I needed to be near him. I needed to be with him. He put his strong arms around me, pulling me even closer. I could tell he was burning with desire and still trying to be gentle with me. He for sure was afraid that he's too strong for me and that he could hurt me. It’s so cute how he actually was trying to contain himself and this is how my first kiss went. I never imagined I could ever feel like this but now I finally feel at peace. I feel at home. Azar’s my home. There are so many things we still need to find out. How all of this is possible. There are so many things I should tell him but I'm not ready and I'm afraid of what he'll think of me after he hears all of it. I don't want this moment to end. We were together and that’s all that mattered for now at least. I wanna live in that moment not worrying about the past nor the future. I was never even kissed before, not to mention anything else. Now, I was more than ready to give myself to Azar. Tell me that is not the mate bond already working its magic. We’re mates. I don't know how and at this point I don't even care anymore. What I know is that I'm gonna fight it. We belong together and this kiss proved that to me.
In Azar’s head: I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Amaya asked me to kiss her and when she said she wanted me to be her first kiss…I lost it. For some reason, the day I saw her for the first time gave me another impression. I tried not to think about it but the way she was dancing with those men. I was sure she had done it. Not to mention that she's human. She never believed that she had a mate. Why would she be waiting for someone? But she obviously did and that made my heart beat so fast that I thought it would jump out of my chest. Blaise was way too excited. There was no more waiting. I need to claim her lips. As soon as our lips touched, electricity rushed through my body. I pulled her even close to me. Her lips were so smooth, so tasty. Her scent was delicious. Her skin is silky. She felt so tiny in my arms. So delicate. As eager as I was to be close to her, I deepened our kiss and it became rougher and rougher. I placed my hands and her beautiful face while I snaked one arm around her waist holding her in place. At that moment I got scared. I know exactly how strong I am. I'm the strongest wolf alive and my mate is like a little doll. I need to contain myself. I need to be gentle with her. Our breathing was becoming heavier and heavier. Things were getting more heated with every second passing. She wanted me. Her scent was mouth-watering. I could smell it. That made me and my wolf go insane with desire. My mind and body went into a frenzy. Mate wants us. Just being around her was more than enough for me and not only that she trusts me, she wants to be with me. Her small hands were placed on my chest, sending shivers down my spine. I need to stop this.
Azar: “Are you okay?”
Amaya: “Why did you stop?”
In Amaya’s head: I looked down and I saw that the water washed off the makeup I had put on my scar and my attempt to hide it. He probably saw it. I was ready to be his. I was and he stopped. I asked him why but he just took a deep breath and stayed silent. I tried to fight it but I felt so rejected and undesirable. He doesn't want me. I'm so stupid. Why would someone like him want someone like me? A broken girl and he doesn't even know the whole story. Tears started feeling my eyes and I knew I needed to run. I don't wanna be more humiliated than I already am. What was I even thinking?!
Azar: “Amaya, where are you going?! What happened? Amaya, talk to me. Why are you crying? Did I do something wrong? Talk to me. I can't stand seeing your beautiful face and tears. Please look at me.”
Amaya: “Why did you stop kissing me? you don't want me? Why don't you want me? Is it because of the scar?”
Azar: “NO!!”
Amaya: “Then what is it? I wanted you.”
Azar: “Look at me.”
Amaya: “Mhm?”
Azar: “Do you see the color of my eyes?”
Amaya: “Yes. They’re red again.”
Azar: “Do you know why?”
Amaya: “No.”
Azar: “They turned red from my desire for you. How can you even think that I don't want you? I needed to stop because I was about to lose control. I would take you and make you mine right there and then.”
Amaya: “But I wanted you to make me yours.”
Azar: “You're not ready for that and as much as I want it I'm not ready for that either.”
Amaya: “What do you mean?”
Azar: “I lose control easily and Blaise was too eager to play. you're human. I'm way too strong. I'm afraid that I can hurt you by accident.”
Amaya: “Oh, I understand.”
Azar: “I want you more than anything but we need to take things slow and don't you dare think otherwise. I told you already. And your scar…trust me. It makes you even more beautiful. It shows how strong you are. You’re my little flame. A fighter, a survivor. Never hide yourself from me again. I want you…all of you. You're my mate. Your hair is still wet. I don't want you to catch a cold. Let's go home.”
Amaya: “Okay. (Azar’s living room). You have a room, you know. You're making me jealous over here. Remove your hand from your neck, now!!”
Miranda: “This is what you wanted to see?”
Amaya: “I see the marks on your neck!! You marked each other!!”
Thorne: “We did.”
Amaya: “You mated too?!”
Miranda: “You can bet on it.”
Amaya: “My best friend is not a virgin anymore. Details!! Now!! Straight to my room!!”
Azar: “I'm happy for you, bro.”
Thorne: “Thank you. You'll see how amazing it is.”
Azar: “Amaya was right, stop making me envious.”
Thorne: “No need for that. I'm sure it'll happen to you soon. You’re out together, I can actually see you getting close to each other. How did it go?”
Azar: “It was perfect, we had an amazing time. A lot more than expected.”
Thorne: “What do you mean?”
Azar: “We went for a walk then I wanted to show her the waterfall. We went there, undressed and got in the water and then she asked me to kiss her. Things got really passionate and Blaise and I went crazy. It was so hard for me to control myself. So I needed to stop it and break the kiss.”
Thorne: “Why on earth did you stop?!”
Azar: “Throne, she's human. So fragile and I was about to lose control completely and you know how strong I am. I need to keep me and my wolf under control first. What if I end up hurting her?”
Thorne: “You're right. I haven't thought of that. What are you gonna do now?”
Azar: “I need a long cold shower. Stop laughing!! It's not funny!!”
Thorne: “Sorry. You better get going, before they turn blue.”
Azar: “They already did. (Thorne laughs - Amaya’s room)”
In Amaya’s head: Miranda was beaming with happiness. I've never seen her like this before. I was so happy for her. She has a mate and their bond is now completed. Now they’re bound to each other for the rest of their lives. I never thought my heart was about to explode from cuteness and that just from that…she went over every detail. how much I wanted that!! Why did he have to stop? After some time it was so hard for me to concentrate on her talking. When she spoke about the marking moment, I think my legs turned into jello. It made me think of the passionate kiss I shared with Azar even more.
Miranda: “What is it? Now that I think of it, why are your lips swollen and cheeks red?!”
Amaya: “We kissed.”
Miranda: “Eeekkk!! What's the problem then?”
Amaya: “He broke the kiss.”
Mirand: “What?! Why?!”
Amaya: “He was scared how it'll look for us. You know…him some crazy wolf that sets everything on fire and me being a fragile human.”
Miranda: “Oh…but he’s right bub.”
Amaya: “I know but I wanted it!!”
Miranda: “So are you feeling the mate?”
Amaya: “I don't know if it's the mate bond or what but I'm more than ready to be his.”
Miranda: “The mate bond for sure.”
Amaya: “I think I have a fever.”
Miranda: “How?”
Amaya: “The water was cold.”
Miranda: “Are you sure it's from the cold water?”
Amaya: “I assume. What else can it be?”
Miranda: “You're probably right.”
In Miranda’s head: Unless she's going into heat but she's human.
Miranda: “Get some sleep. You seem exhausted.”
Amaya: “I am. Hey!! That's just your excuse to get rid of me.”
Miranda: “Well I do have an extremely hot mate waiting for me.”
Amaya: “You forgot about your best friend so easily.”
Miranda: “You will too once you try it.”
Amaya: “I hate you. Go to your mate.”
Miranda: “I love you too.”
In Amaya’s head: Almost certainly dream of that kiss and what would happen if he didn't stop. Why do I feel my temperature rising? If his kiss exhausted me this much…what would his…just go to sleep Amaya!!